I didn’t expect this year to throw the curveballs it did. Time to close it out. This holiday season, there has been a major shift in my life. With this shift, there has been freedom, and also relief. I have felt a freeness in my days that I am very grateful to know, and I’m […]
Read more "2025 (A Change in Direction)"A friend asked me how old I felt. There were moments in my childhood where I got to be a kid. I think about playing made-up games by myself, in both the back and the front yard. Occasionally a friend would come over, and I remember playing a game we called, “Goal Line Stand,” where […]
Read more "Feeling Like Myself"Let’s see where this one takes me. Previously, I have felt this time of year. When I turned 32, the tectonic plates of my life began to shift, as the weather got colder, and the days got shorter. In subsequent years, it’s been hard to shake that feeling of dread that sometimes creeps in at […]
Read more "38"It’s a summer that has me thinking about some things. I remember being in Costa Rica, at a beach with some friends. I love when they’d mention that the water was too cold because when it came time to go in, I realized that it was in fact refreshing, maybe even warm. After all, I’d […]
Read more "A Reflective Summer"When the dust settled, my two main goals were peace and happiness. This blog largely started as a place to have difficult conversations, but maybe it was also a place to explore my mental health. My anxiety blossomed around the time I turned twenty, and it only got worse from there. I definitely didn’t help […]
Read more "The Importance of Mental Health"My therapist issued a challenge, and I just might be feeling bold. This post came to me as I cleaned my apartment. It’s not something that I want to do, to clean, to organize, and yet I know I’ll feel better once I do it. I love the look of a clean and organized apartment, […]
Read more "Understood, Revisited"“I’m just worried that it’ll bum you out.” I’m definitely the type to heed the advice and concerns of close friends. That being said, I knew that this was something I had to do, that I wanted to do. I couldn’t stay where I was, and something in me blurted out, “Programs,” when I was […]
Read more "3 Blessed Years"It was suggested that maybe this year was about growth, but on a smaller level. I started writing this post as I got ready for another Thanksgiving in Connecticut. Last year, I didn’t run the road race because I was still pretty fresh off of surgery. This year, I actually started to train, tried to […]
Read more "2024 (a year of incremental change)"Sometimes, darkness gives way to the light. I remember what it was like, to watch one of my favorite shows, and it didn’t resonate with me. Maybe the episode wasn’t funny, or maybe I just didn’t feel like laughing. I remember saying to my friend in an earlier moment, “I have to laugh while I […]
Read more "In All Seriousness"Where do we go from here? In a group therapy session some years back, I asked why I didn’t extend to myself the love I extend to others. Maybe I said love, or maybe it was acceptance, I’m not sure that it matters. What did matter, and what still matters, is that there are times […]
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