Strangers  to  each  other, that  is what we are,  IT and me.  I don’t  blame  the  other  party,  I blame myself.  I’ve allowed  the  peaceful  co- existence for  the longest  time, without realizing that I will be at the losing end. IT doesn’t  need me but  I need  IT.

Fear and ignorance had gripped most of my working and social life, not  because I am not interested to learn  IT, but because I didn’t  had the determination to really sit down and devote, what  I thought  should be a great  amount of time learning  it. I made myself believe  I will get  along with a little IT  knowledge but circumstances showed me that  IT is growing  up gigantically,  developing faster than I can imagine, and so my fear and ignorance has gripped me all the more, even  directing my psycho-social  and  career decisions.  Whenever  I think  of  doing  something  worthwhile  or  lucrative,  I think  first of  my little IT knowledge  and  whether  with such,  I will  end up succeeding  or at the least, starting the plan.  Well,  everything  almost  always  ended  up  not  getting  started at all because there is some  IT  involved,  which is beyond my present capability.  Admittedly, that  “present capability” is not much to speak about,  just limited to some  Microsoft  word and excel  computer application skills.  I studied  college at  a time  when  even  simple,  basic computer theory  was  not  yet  integrated into the curriculum.  Accounting  then, as a field of study,  was in my observation, still purely manual.  Computers wasn’t  yet  in the big boom stage.

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                Year  1988 saw me  employed  in  one of the more  progressive and  dynamic  banking institutions  in the country.  Naturally,  I would have to get my first taste of computers,  learning the basics  out  of  necessity.  From  stand- alone  system, the bank went  online  with  email and  websites figuring  much in the  scene.  IT usage became the  order  of  the  day,  but my  IT skills weren’t  keeping  up.  Still, I was  unperturbed.  There was too much accounting  and managerial  work to do, and I strongly believed,  I didn’t had the time to learn  email deletion procedures  or  power  point presentation  skills.  I am wrong  of course.  Its  as if  IT  was trivial.  It is a disturbance to my work.  I am  wrong  again  of  course.

Now, I have realized what I have missed  and  vowed  to  embrace  IT  heart  and soul.  It is indeed  the need of the  hour,  the need of  the minute.  It is a requisite to progress. It is a necessary tool for development.

I  have decided  to set  aside  fears  and  apprehensions.  I  am conditioning  my mind to learn what  I  feel  is  difficult and beyond  my  grasp.  But,  my  long and varied  experiences  in life  has solidified  my  belief  in the  basic truth  that nothing  is  impossible  to  God  and  that  nothing  is  too difficult  with  the  proper  focus  and the  right  attitude.

Surprisingly,  as time passes   by,  I  am beginning  to  feel  excited learning IT at  last.  I know that  after  this,  I will have a  “ready, confident,  know it all, do it all feeling” and that makes me happy.