I wrote this awhile ago.

I was always trying to please everyone for as long as I can remember. So I decided to do something rebellious (in my mind). The spring of my junior year of high school I downloaded an app for checkers since I’ve always loved the game. Little did I know it was an online game with options to chat with other players. Once I figured it out, I knew I could get in big trouble chatting with people I didn’t know. I was always and still am naive but I played anyways. 

It was one of the best things that ever happened to me. 

Not the checkers part but chatting with people I didn’t know. It sounds entirely lame… Lol but I don’t think anyone would understand it unless they were me. As I kept chatting with these people everyday (yes I was being careful) I went under the name Arisa which I still use to this day, I started gaining friends and forming a family within the chat. It was really Amazing. Later we ditched the app but communicated through kik. 

We became so much closer and became really dependent on each other.. At least I was. We were able to tell each other our darkest and deepest secrets mostly because we didn’t know each other in real life. A bunch of misfits who could finally feel like they could fit in. We knew all each other’s secrets and there was a bunch of drama lol who would expect. Even experimenting with love.. Betrayal and such. Not to make it sound dramatic but I got to experience a bit of life through the people and the things that happened.

 Till this day, even though some have moved on I still keep in touch with my friends. I grew so much as a person… Realized how much hurt and pain I was carrying in my life and let myself forgive those around me who hurt me. I can’t even begin to explain how thankful I am to all those around me.. Especially online. Even tho they might not be able to read this.. Thanks guys. 

This probably about my 4th blog that I’ve created and I am hoping it won’t become like the others. I’ve always had a problem with commitment and sticking to something has always been difficult. But I thought I would give it another try. 

I’ve always had many thoughts. Too many thoughts. So I thought I’d leave them here and maybe somewhere along the way I could meet others who are also trying to pass another milestone in their life. 

Arisa