Faith vs. Emotion

The enemy of my faith is not reason; my faith is, in fact, based on reason. The real enemy is my imagination and emotion. The battle is between faith and reason on one side, and emotion and imagination on the other.

A man who knows on perfectly good evidence that a pretty girl of his acquaintance ought not to be trusted, still finds that with her, his mind looses its faith in that bit of knowledge and starts thinking, “Perhaps, she’ll be different this time,”, and once more makes a fool of himself. His senses and emotions have destroyed his faith in what he really knows to be true.

Faith, therefore, is the art of holding on to things your reason has once accepted, in spite of your changing moods.

That is why faith must be constantly trained.

– paraphrased from C. S. Lewis, “Mere Christianity”

Faith vs. Emotion

Lost love

People often say, “better to have loved and lost than not loved at all”. Mostly, it’s offered in consolation or encouragement.

But I wonder now if most people who say that so easily, really know what it means to have really loved… or really lost… Because I suspect that the people who really know what that phrase means, have also experienced the two lines above it; and would be much less quicker to try and say anything..:

I hold it true whatever befall;
I feel it when I sorrow most;
‘Tis better to have loved and lost;
Than never to have loved at all.
– Alfred Lord Tennyson

Aside

When God Wants a Man

When God wants to drill a man and thrill a man and skill a man…
When God wants to mold a man to play the noblest part;
When He yearns with all His heart to create so great and bold a man that all the world shall praise…
Watch His methods;
Watch His ways!
How He ruthlessly perfects whom He royally elects…

How He hammers him and hurts him,
And with mighty blows converts him
Into frail shapes of clay that only God understands.
How his tortured heart is crying and he lifts beseeching hands…
How he bends but never breaks when His good he undertakes.
How He uses whom He chooses…with every purpose fuses him;
By every art induces him to try His splendor out…

God knows what He’s about!

When God wants to take a man and shake a man and wake a man…
When God wants to make a man to do the future’s will;
He tries with all His skill…
When He yearns with all His soul to create him large and whole…
With what cunning He prepares him…
How He goads and never spares him!

How He whets him and He frets him and in poverty begets him…
How often He disappoints whom He sacredly anoints!
With what wisdom He will hide him;
Never minding what betide him…
Though his genius sob with slighting and his pride may not forget;
Bids him struggle harder yet!

Makes him lonely so that only God’s high messages shall reach him…
So that He may surely teach him what the hierarchy planned;
And though he may not understand…
Gives him passions to command.
How remorselessly He spurs him…
With terrific ardor stirs him
When He poignantly prefers him.

When God wants to name a man and fame a man and tame a man…
When God wants to shame a man to do His Heavenly best;
When He tries the highest test that His reckoning may bring…
When He wants a [god] or king;
How He reins him and restrains him so his body scarce contains him…
While He fires him and inspires him…
Keeps him yearning, ever burning for that tantalizing goal.

Lures and lacerates his soul…
Sets a challenge for his spirit;
Draws it highest then he’s near it!
Makes a jungle that he clear it;
Makes a desert that he fear it…and subdue it, if he can –
So doth God make a man!

Then
To test his spirit’s wrath
Throw a mountain in his path;
Puts a bitter choice before him and relentlessly stands o’er him…
Climb or perish, so He says…

But, watch His purpose, watch His ways.
God’s plan is wondrous kind – could we understand His mind?
Fools are they who call His blind!
When his feet are torn and bleeding;
Yet his spirit mounts unheeding…
Blazing newer paths and finds;
When the Force that is Divine leaps to challenge every failure,
And His ardour still is sweet –
And love and hope are burning in the presence of defeat!

Lo the crisis, Lo the shouts that would call the leader out…
When the people need salvation doth he rise to lead the nation;
Then doth God show His plan…
And the world has found a man!

(Attributed to Anonymity)

When God Wants a Man

Purpose in suffering

If I find no other purpose and meaning in my pain and suffering, I can still remember this:

Those who caused me pain also showed me where I was weak and needed to grow. That which continually wounded me also kept alive my longing for my eternal home.

I may not find healing; I may not find a resolution.

But if my suffering does nothing else than to show me I am still in need of sanctification and reminds me I’m not yet home, it has still served that one purpose….

Purpose in suffering

Baptism & Burial

A look at Romans 6:3-4

Do you not know that all of us who have been baptized into Christ Jesus were baptized into his death? We were buried therefore with him by baptism into death, in order that, just as Christ was raised from the dead by the glory of the Father, we too might walk in newness of life.
(Romans 6:3-4 ESV)

This is a passage often quoted in support of immersion as the true biblical mode of baptism. In fact, with a cursory reading of the passage, it’s hard to argue; who can deny immersion when it clearly says ‘buried with him by baptism’? How can it mean anything else other than immersion?

But note, I said cursory reading of the passage. Let’s examine this passage closely and see whether the physical mode of baptism was in the apostle’s mind in this passage at all.

Context

Paul is attempting to establish the greatness of the grace of God in that the greater our sin, the greater is the grace of God that it should be forgiven by Christ’s death and atonement. Paul then anticipates a rationalization for sin; namely that if the abundance of grace is shown better by the abundance of sin, why not continue sinning. His answer to that rationalization is the passage under examination, namely why we cannot continue living a life of sin.

Baptized into Christ Jesus

What does this phrase mean? If we were to come to this passage with no preconception of the meaning of the word ‘baptize’, there is at least one other passage that uses the exact same language which should shed some light on what this particular phrasing of ‘baptized into’ should mean.

For I do not want you to be unaware, brothers, that our fathers were all under the cloud, and all passed through the sea, and all were baptized into Moses in the cloud and in the sea,
(1 Corinthians 10:1-2 ESV)

Here we have a description by apostle Paul of a series of events which he denotes as ‘baptism into Moses’. From what we know of the event of the exodus and Paul’s reference to it here, at the very least, we can conclude that Paul used this construction of ‘baptized into’ to denote a union of sorts with Moses and the Mosaic covenant. I am on purpose refraining from going into the details of what the nature of that union was, or the nature of the events that signified that union. For our present purposes, and approaching the text without preconceptions, it is enough that we can satisfy ourselves of the notion of ‘baptized into’ someone/something denoting ‘union with’ that someone/something based on this precedence.

Coming back to the passage under consideration, can ‘baptized into Christ’ refer to the physical ceremony/rite of baptism in this context? Absolutely! However, even in that interpretation, the emphasis would be on the union with Christ. So, whether that refers to the work of the Holy Spirit to unite us to Christ in spirit or to the physical rite that declares we are united to Him, evidently, in this context, the use of ‘baptized into Christ’ refers to being ‘united with Christ’.

Baptized into his death

Given the precedence described above for ‘baptized into’ referring to ‘united with’, it follows that the second part the verse refers to a union with Christ’s death. The implication of the apostle here, again in answer to the rationalization for sin, is that our union with Christ implies our union with his death (to sin). What the meaning and implications of this union are is, again, an entirely separate discussion and much can be gleaned from it. However, here we are trying to determine the presence/absence of a mode in the reference to baptism in this passage. For that purpose, it is sufficient for now that we can conclude that so far, the apostle Paul says that our union with Christ (baptism into Christ) should also imply a union with his death (baptism into his death).

Buried therefore with him

There was a bible teacher I used to listen to who, when teaching from Paul’s writings, would always say something along the lines of ‘whenever you encounter a “therefore” in the scriptures, you need to stop and ask “what’s it there for”’. So, true to that, we need to stop and consider that whatever the apostle is saying in verse 4, he builds on the conclusion of verse 3.

Since verse 4 says we are buried him, and that is based on the conclusion of verse 3 which is that our union with Christ also implies a union with his death, we must conclude that the burial here is a result of the union with Christ; i.e. union with Christ implies union with his death implies union with his burial.

Here then is the first place I think many people make a mistake in the interpretation of this passage; namely that rather than ‘buried with him’ referring to the physical act of baptism, the passage makes it clear that the burial with him (Christ) is a result of union with his death and with him.

Buried with him by… baptism?

The contention of immersionists is that the baptism here refers to the physical rite, i.e. we are buried with him when we are buried in the water. However, we have just established above that the burial in verse 4 is a result of the union with Christ and his death. The physical rite of of baptism has not at all entered into the picture. So, is it being brought into the picture here in the middle of verse 4?

Buried… into death?

If as the immersionist contend burial in verse 4 is a reference to burial under water by baptism and that we are therefore ‘buried by baptism’, a problem arises. If the ‘by baptism’ is simply a description of how we are buried, normal rules of language should allow us to remove that sentence fragment of the description and retain the meaning of the remainder of the verse.

Consider the sentence, “he traveled, by train, to France”. Normal rules of language would allow us to remove the description of the mode of travel (by train) and the main meaning of the sentence (he traveled to France) remains.

The problem with interpreting verse 4 to say that the burial happened by baptism is that if that temporary descriptor is removed in order to focus on the main meaning of the verse, the main meaning of the verse is unclear, because it then reads as ‘we are buried therefore with him into death’.

What would ‘buried into death’ mean? We would have to go to stretches of figurative and metaphorical language to find a meaning for burial into death. The closest interpretation I could give to ‘buried into death’ was to perhaps say that it meant we are buried alive. However, that would go entirely against the context of the passage where Paul wants to emphasize a reality of our death in Christ death. The language no longer makes sense.

Buried by baptism into death

Let’s also not forget that the phrase ‘baptism into death’ occurs in verse 4. We have already established from verse 3 that this phrase refers to union with Christ’s death. We have also established that verse 4 is an inference or conclusion drawn upon what is established in verse 3. Putting these together, the best interpretation of verse 4 is that we are buried with him by our union with his death, i.e. Union with christ, implies union with his death, implies union with his burial; which would supplement the apostle’s use of ‘therefore’.

Raised to newness of life

Verse 4 continues by saying that we were buried with him, so that we may be raised with him as well. In the later verses, Paul explains this further, that Christ’s death was our death so that his resurrection could be our resurrection. Here again, attempting to interpret the burial in these verses as referring to the physical burial under water muddles the message of the apostle. His entire argument throughout this passage is that Christ’s death is and should be our death, finite, and done; a one time event in the past already accomplished in order that a future event for us can take place, namely the ability to live the new life. Attempting to read our burial happening at the time of our baptism and attempting to tie our death to sin with our burial under the water, which would go against Paul’s argument that our death to sin happened with Christ’s death to sin.

‘Exradicism’ and Burial

To further clarify that the burial does not draw any inference or meaning from the physical act of baptism, I suggest the following exercise. Let’s substitute the word baptism for a word I’ve just made up ‘exradicism’ in these two verses.

Do you not know that all of us who have been exradicized into Christ Jesus were exradicized into his death? We were buried therefore with him by exradicism into death, in order that, just as Christ was raised from the dead by the glory of the Father, we too might walk in newness of life.

Would you need any knowledge of the word exradicism in order to get the main argument of the verse as Paul intends? I don’t think so. In fact, I think it now becomes much clearer that even if were to find exradicism meant standing on one leg, arms outstretched and having the exradicizer blow over your head (as ridiculous as it sounds), it would have just the same connection with burial that baptism has in this passage.

In other words, the physical rite of baptism has a connection to burial by the scriptures’ definition of it having that connection and not by the nature of the physical rite itself. In fact, many physical rites in the Bible have the same property, i.e. they have a connection to things they signify not in an of themselves by their physical form but because of the definition of significance attributed to it. However, that is an entirely separate discussion in itself.

Conclusion

To summarize, we are buried with him in baptism because by definition it is meant to symbolize union with Christ, his life, death, and resurrection, not because of the physical nature of the symbol of baptism. Can we think of burial in to the water and raising up of the person from the water as symbolizing their personal death and burial. Yes, it is a plausible symbolism. However, that is a symbolism WE are attributing to it, and not one drawn out of this particular passage.

Baptism & Burial

No more condemnation

So often, I wish I could go back, and start life all over again, and had another chance to not make the same mistakes, bad choices, and actions. I wonder what kind of a person I would be then. Mostly, I imagine I would be a healthier person; less careworn and bent over with the weight of the consequences of my mistakes. But… maybe also naive?

I have learned some very important lessons in the process which I really value; things I don’t think I could have learned except painfully. Some days, I see the value of those lessons; I see the purpose, I see how my flaws and their consequences are being redeemed. Most days, I see the pain and problems I have caused; and I am left battling for faith against the voices in my head

The truth remains, that all these blots on the landscape of my life are being worked together into the masterpiece that is the big picture. I may never get to see it, not in this life at least. Starting over would be easy. A clean slate would be easier to work with; any one can do that.

But, just maybe, the glory of God is seen better, in how he redeems what for me is irredeemable, because that is the humanly impossible task. So, in faith, I stumble on.

There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.
Romans 8:1

No more condemnation

Baptism: Differing paths

I think after all the years of discussion regarding baptism that I’ve had with many people, I think I’ve had to concede that there is an almost fundamental difference between the way a paedobaptists read and sees the bible and the way a  credobaptists sees and reads the bible. Namely, that paedobaptists see the unity of both the old and new testaments and therefore interpret all scripture and doctrine starting from the old and then allowing that to inform the understanding of the new. Credobaptists on the other see an almost entire discontinuity between the two testaments and interpret scripture and doctrine starting from the New and only occasionally foraying into the old.

I believe this is mistaken and leads to an incomplete understanding of doctrine. I also think there are vast number of hints in the New Testament that point us to go and search in the old first and start there, apart from the more obvious reason that we should interpret scripture in the order it was given to us. But more on this later.

So, in short, paedobaptists and credobaptists are on two different paths of biblical interpretation. This difference has given me the greatest difficulty in finding a way to articulate my beliefs on baptism to someone who uses the same language biblical language but may mean vastly different things than I. Namely, the difficulty of trying to show a credobaptist that they are on a wrong path of interpretation to begin with and that all the other objections or questions they raise are obscuring this fundamental issue.

To avoid these confusions in personal discussions on the topic, I have been emailing the following outline of the doctrine of baptism that I stand by to those who have indicated an interest in discussing this topic with me. I’m not going to say this is the best or most accurate wording I could come up with, but my hope is that it will help keep in focus the fundamental issue that paedobaptists and credobaptists disagree on of which the disagreement on baptism is just a symptom.

  1. Since the fall of man, redemption could only occur through faith in the atonement provided by Christ.
  2. Throughout redemptive history, God has interacted with his children in the context of a covenant. At the heart of all redemption covenants is justification by faith.
  3. God establishes this covenant of justification by faith with Abraham and gives him the sign of circumcision as a sign that justification comes by faith.
  4. God commands the sign of this covenant to be applied all those who fall under the spiritual headship of Abraham and to all who are henceforth born into the covenant community.
  5. Those who are not of physical descent of Abraham may join the covenant community providing they and all those under their spiritual headship accept the sign of the covenant and continue to administer it to those born after them in the covenant community.
  6. As the Israelite nation enters into the Mosaic covenant, aka the Old Covenant, God reiterates that the sign of justification by faith must continue to be administered to all currently in and born into the covenant community and must be administered to all not of physical descent who wish to become part of the covenant community.
  7. Christ comes to establish the New Covenant. This New Covenant is new compared to the Mosaic covenant but of the same covenant as the promise made to Abraham.
  8. Christ institutes baptism as the new sign of the same promise of justification by faith and of the promise of the seal of the Holy Spirit that is to come to those who are, justified by faith.
  9. Christ commands this sign to be applied to all his disciples as the mark of entering into discipleship, that is entering into the covenant community.
  10. Every account of baptism in the book of acts serves to establish that baptism is now the new sign of the same promise of justification by faith.
  11. Every teaching regarding baptism in the new testament confirms that baptism is to signify the same promise of justification by faith as given to Abraham.
  12. The New Testament teaches us to regard those born within the covenant community as disciples.
  13. Therefore, by virtue of the fact that the sign of justification by faith is now baptism, and that the command to apply this sign to all covenant members and those born within the covenant community has been given repeatedly through the Bible and is still standing, and that Christ reiterated as much in the Great Commission, and that children born to believers are members of the covenant community and to be treated as disciples, it follows that children born in the covenant community are still to be given the sign of justification by faith as has been commanded by God, and to withhold the sign from them is disobedience to the command of God.


Baptism: Differing paths

At the dawn of another year…

I started this blog with a few different aims in mind but mostly I wanted to document my experiences in the Christian pilgrimage, both for me to process and to look back on, reflect, and gain insight from, and also for others to learn anything if possible from my experiences. In moving ahead this way, there was one,

Fatal Error

that I had not accounted for, one fatal assumption my entire endeavor was based on – that experiences and encounters can, for the most part, be faithfully represented in words.

Here then is the only valid excuse I can offer for not writing more often; that in this past year more than ever in my life, I have been left speechless, at an absolute and utter loss for words. I wish it were the kind of speechless attributed to witnessing the wonder of the Alaskan wilderness of the grandeur of the grand canyons. We have at least one word to describe the kind of speechless I’m referring to, but I doubt whether it can do justice to the experience;

Shock.

The kind of shock that comes from watching almost your entire life fall apart and unravel around you, powerless to do anything to stop it. At the end of last year, I thought the unraveling of my life was coming to an end. How wrong I was…

The predominant experience I’m left with at the end of another year is shock, absolutely indescribable shock, of having  to stand by and watch as every… single…. thing…. that I ever gave my life to, my heart to, that I sacrificed for, that I invested in, fought for, strived for, … every… single… one…. of those things… come undone… dry out… end in fruitlessness… or… realize that it was in vain; in short, the shock of realizing that all of my labor in every area of my life… was… for nothing …

Perhaps it may not be entirely accurate to say it was for nothing; everything always results in something. However when you’ve been going for gold in the Olympics, ending up with nothing but an honorable mention for participation in an obscure newspaper as a consolation prize amounts to, well… almost as good as nothing, or in vain.

Now, being a firm believer in the absolute sovereignty of God in all things for his ultimate glory and the most good of all his children, I have no doubt that even fruitless labor has an ultimate purpose.

Questions

However, also being a firm believer in the absolute responsibility of man for every one of his actions, I have to ask myself many questions. Most importantly, where did I go wrong? Was it in my perception of what God’s calling for me was? Was it in my expectations? Was I that naive? Was I really that far off the mark? Was I really going down the wrong road all this time? If I was, how did I miss the signs? Why didn’t I get any warning? Or did I get the warnings but turn a blind eye. And perhaps the question that bothers me more than any of the others, was my faith and my understanding of the christian life and spiritual relationships built so entirely on a house of cards that it had to be brought down completely? And, how much more still has to be unraveled, brought down, before the real growth, the rebuilding, can start the right way?

Now, I realize that this description of my experiences is most vague, and unless you have had a similar experience, nothing of what I’ve said here will really make sense. And that is one of the difficult aspects of this shock and loss for words, the inability to share or relate in any understandable fashion my experiences to anyone; and I blame myself for the lack of communication skills. It’s just hard to describe in a relatable way what it is you’ve really been striving for, or why the results seem fruitless to someone who hasn’t had similar goals, had similar struggles, or seen similar lack of fruit.

Speechless in prayer

This loss of words also affects prayer, as I discovered. As a relatively young believer, I would say that my prayer life is almost entirely based on words, on both ends of the communication spectrum. I express my adoration to God, I confess my sins, I give thanks for his blessings, I present my requests, all of which involve words. When I try to hear from God, I mostly wait for some concrete inspired thought to take shape in my mind, or turn to the Bible, all of which again involves words. There is often, I think, a sense in which you feel like you haven’t really been heard, or you haven’t really heard back, in a conversation, until you can find words to put it in. So, how do you ‘pray’ when you are at a loss for words?

In “Reaching for an Invisible God”, Philip Yancey describes the experiences of bishop John Taylor when living in Africa that gave me a hint to an aspect of prayer that I had never considered before: shared presence. When we meet up with friends (meet up as in specifically going to see them, or calling them up, not room-mates or those you live with constantly), our interactions and our impressions of the meeting, for the most part, are primarily based on shared activity or conversation. Silence, or doing nothing, seems awkward. However, in Africa. John Taylor described that “he would be working, and a friend would enter the room, give a brief greeting, and then squat down on the floor. After a few words of response, [John] would continue on with his chores while his visitor simply sat. Half an hour or so would pass, then the visitor would rise, say, ‘I have seen you,’ and move on. He had wanted no information, no conversation.” All the visitor wanted was to share in his presence and give him his undivided attention for some time.

In finding myself at a loss for words in prayer, I’ve had to explore what it means to cultivate an intense awareness and attention to the presence of God as prayer. I had no words to say; but for five minutes, ten, fifteen, or however long I wanted to pray, all I could do was focus my attention on his presence and cultivate a focused awareness, and not leave until that awareness had satisfied me.

Looking forward

So, where does this experience leave me at the dawn of another year? Very hesitant about what I give myself to, very unsure of what steps I take, because I have a tendency to give myself whole heartedly to anything I put step into.

But mostly, in a state of absolute reliance in the sovereignty of God in all things (including my failures) for his glory and the good of his children; a state of absolutely having to take God at his word about his nature and his characteristics when almost all circumstances around me tempt me to trust my understanding and believe otherwise; of having to trust him with the bigger picture; of having to admit that my understanding of the big picture is limited; of having to submit to his sovereign free choice in all things; of having to trust him with my mistakes and his ability, choice, and method of redeeming them.

So, let me wrap this all up with a wish to all my fellow sojourners for a blessed new year, and a closer walk with the Lord.

At the dawn of another year…