Pieces of My Life

I wonder what people do when they’re feeling blue.

As for me, when I felt sad for a similar reason few months ago, I re-read one of my writings (at my tumblr: auliamakbar). And afterwards I kinda told to myself, “Ok, you may feel sad, but try to release all your sadness, until it vanish (though I do understand it won’t vanish completely and easily as simple as that) and the next day you MUST move on and never let yourself become sad again for that same problem”.

And it did worked. I moved on. And when the problem approached me again I was able to keep myself distant to it. Now, another problem came by. Similar like the one in the past, but the sadness felt deeper. Plus there’s another complicated problem coming along. One day, two day, till few days went by, instead of feeling better, I found myself sadder than ever. Just at the point when I’m about to turn into despair mode.

I am that kind of person that doesn’t want emotion controls me. I should be the one that control my emotion. Well, at least that’s how I try to be. Hehe. So I asked to myself “why am I sad, what circumstances I can’t change, what can I do, and what can be done”.

So this thought concluded into what I have just written in this first paragraph; that perhaps what I should do now is to realize which ones I can’t change (and must learn to accept) and try to release all my sadness (which I found writing somehow works for me) then re-read my old writings which helped me overcome my grief in the past.

Looking back to the past, I realized this method always worked for me.
Let’s see whether this time shall do the same.

Jakarta, 10th June 2019
17.54

#tsaaaahh

Judulnya kaya yang galau gitu ya? Hahaha. Well, ini bukan galau percintaan gitu sih.
Jadi saya tuh pada dasarnya emang dari dulu seneng berusaha lebih mengenal karakter diri sendiri, dan juga orang lain. Dulu pas SMP sempat rasanya pengen belajar psikologi. Suka aja gitu, no particular reason.

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Hi there.
As you can see, I don’t post here regularly. Most of the time I just post randomly when something comes up in my mind, I’m near my laptop, and I have the time. Like now.
It’s midnight already here, a tad sleepy but can’t help the urge to spill up my thoughts here now.

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Setiap kali saya merasa lelah, saya selalu berusaha memotivasi diri sendiri dengan mencoba ingat kata-kata seorang Bapak penjaga gardu tol (sebelum seluruh gerbang tol menggunakan GTO); “Hidup itu harus kerja keras, nanti kalau mati kan bisa istirahat selamanya”.

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Kala itu hamparan samudera dan sinar mentari melukis senja
Indahnya, nirwana dibungkus dekapan cakrawala

Terdiam. Sambil rehat, berpikir aku sejenak
Kerap kali kita terbuai di panggung sandiwara
Lupa dunia fana ini hanya sementara

Coba kamu tanyakan kepada debur ombak yang tenang
Mengapa elang yang terbang tak berkawan
Sementara kita dan bayangan berjalan beriringan

Ya memang hidup ini penuh misteri
Yang terdiri dari kepingan teka-taki
Barangkali jawabnya perlu dicari sendiri
Dan ketika berjalan tak cukup, perlu kita berlari
Bukan sekedar mengejar titel yang tinggi
Namun tuk terus senantiasa mencari arti
Dan juga restu serta rahmat Ilahi
Hingga menemukan apa yang kita cari
Yaitu, itu tadi…
Arti.

Jakarta, 31 Maret 2018

*) Lokasi foto: Pelabuhan Semayang, Balikpapan

Lately I’ve been thinking about the purpose of life.

What am I doing?
Where will I go?
Why am I here?

Maybe that kind of philosophical question everyone has at least once questioned about it in their lives. And perhaps if we took our time to read the Quran, Bible, or any other holy books, we might found the answer. But for me these days those question has expand to wider areas such as;

What’s the purpose of life if almost everyone has the same life cycle: go to school, get a job, have a family, and then you die. Period. So what life is all about if we live our life in that stereotypical life cycle and it would end up that there’s no difference wether you have lived in this world or not. Because thinking of that, deep down inside, I do want a difference that I made in this world because I LIVED. A proof in the world of my existence here. A proof that I’ve LIVED. But wait, before we answer that question, is that a highfalutin dream?

So when I discuss about this with some of my friends, I received various answers, with the most commonly answer is “We live for God. As long as we’re useful for people around us, be nice, and do the mandatory things in your beliefs, well that’s enough.”

Would love to hear your thought of this, so please do drop a comment below!

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Bandung, 1 November 2017

22.12

Starts from rewinding back all those good memories in order to write an essay about “the greatest accomplishment in life” makes you realize how grateful you should be with all those good things that ever happened to you and how you should cherish every good moments you’re having, since it may not come twice.

It’s been a while since the last time I posted an article on my blog(s). And now, since thankfully I already received an LoA from one of my dream college in UK (even though its still conditional since I haven’t took the IELTS test), nowadays beside working, I’m preparing myself to apply for a scholarship to pursue my dreams to study there.

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Apa itu beasiswa afirmasi dan latar belakang yang mendasarinya?

Dalam pasal 31 Undang-undang Dasar Negara Republik Indonesia Tahun 1945, disebutkan bahwa setiap warga negara berhak mendapat pendidikan. Dalam pasal tersebut disebutkan pula bahwa negara harus memprioritaskan anggaran pendidikan sekurang-kurangnya 20% dari APBN serta dari APBD untuk memenuhi kebutuhan penyelenggaraan pendidikan nasional. Kemudian, jika kita membaca peraturan turunan dari UUD ini, yaitu Undang-undang No. 12 Tahun 2012 tentang Pendidikan Tinggi dan melihat pasal 74, disebutkan di situ bahwa PTN wajib mencari dan menjaring calon Mahasiswa yang memiliki potensi akademik tinggi, tetapi kurang mampu secara ekonomi dan calon Mahasiswa dari daerah 3T (terdepan, terluar, dan tertinggal) untuk diterima paling sedikit 20% dari seluruh mahasiswa baru yang diterima dan tersebar pada semua Program Studi.
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