Pengalaman Jaga Mama

It has been 3 months since I posted my last entry. Byk sangat urusan sampai tak sempat nak buat any hobby. So this time let me tell you my experience jaga mama di hospital sebelum dan selepas her thyroid surgery. It's kinda sad. Sebagai anak, everyone ada tanggungjawab pada ibu bapa kita and we can never expect bila our parents akan jatuh sakit kan? 

This is my story. My mom is 46 years old this year. A very tough women. She survived a lot of things in life which I won't tell here but believe me you can never imagine what she went through. On 30th of April I went back to my hometown and terus ke hospital. Masuk je ward OMG my mom buat perangai. Tak duduk diam pun. She's making friends there and jalan sana sini. Oh yes, my mom sangat peramah and type yang tak boleh duduk diam. But bila she talked to me, I could feel somewhere in her heart actually she's too afraid akan dibedah the next day. What I can do that time was to comfort her and say everything will be alright. Believe me I did. She's my only mom.

The surgery was supposed to be done in the morning tapi disebabkan ada banyak kes kecemasan, my mom terpaksa tunggu sampai malam untuk dibedah. Poor her sebab dia sudah puasa ( the doc asked her not to eat anything till the surgery ) since malam sebelumnya. Almost 24 jam tak makan my mom yang memang sudah sakit ni terus menggeletar and keep telling me dia rasa nak pengsan. Luckily the doc gave her glucose. 

On 1st of April 2011, mama dibedah di sebelah malam. Only God knows risaunya hati. Looking at my siblings yang still kecil-kecil lagi, I can't imagine if God takes her away. I keep telling myself, takpe ni operation kecil je. My lil bros and sis masing-masing tak buat perangai but waited patiently there. I asked them whether they eat something already or not and knowing dorang lapar, hati kakak mana tak sedih. Mama dalam dewan bedah and adik-adik tak terurus. Luckily my brother datang juga and he brought adik-adik makan. I nak bawa but I'm afraid mama akan keluar dari dewan bedah anytime. Grandpa and grandma ada but they're too old untuk disusahkan. Oh I forgot to tell, adik-beradik yang lain datang dari rumah while I memang stay dengan mama all the time. Nasib baik juga my auntie datang juga after that. 

Mama keluar dari dewan bedah and disorong ke ward. 3 botol kecil digantung pada leher to drain the bloods from the surgery. Mama nampak terlalu lemah so I decided untuk jaga mama that night. The first night wasn't hard since mama still mamai kesan ubat bius. But the second night, something happenned. Mama suddenly cramp seluruh badan dan she couldn't breath. I was panicked for sure sebab kalau rasa sakit sahaja boleh tahan lagi tapi kalau tak boleh bernafas, that's too bad. Luckily the doc managed to do something. 

The third day after her surgery mama tak boleh bernafas lagi. Sangat menghampakan bila the doc on duty lambat bertindak unlike the doc sebelum ni sehinggakan I have to scold them baru cepat buat kerja. Kalau patient tak boleh bernafas dan dorang lambat, the patient could die! No one boleh tahan tak boleh breath for long! So disappointing. Bila dimarah baru terhegeh-hegeh datang. I won't risk my mom's life disebabkan any doc lembab buat kerja!

Mama gets better after that. Selepas dimarah,  the docs there stanby alat bantuan pernafasan beside mama and keep giving her few pills untuk elakkan mama tak boleh bernafas lagi. But most of the time mama terpaksa pakai je alat bantuan pernafasan tu. I want to say this, bukan sesuatu yang I nak to lecture any doc yang bertugas, tapi kalau teguran tu boleh ketuk dorang buat kerja cepat, that's better for sure.

Menjaga seorang pesakit bukan sesuatu yang mudah especially kalau jaga orang tua. Bila sakit susah anyone nak jaga amarah thus timbul la macam-macam kerenah yang kadang-kadang menguji kesabaran kita. Semasa jaga mama, I don't have a place to sleep properly. Mama ada juga suruh tidur tapi siapa la boleh tidur atas kerusi. I didn't sleep for days. Dalam seminggu juga rasanya. Cuma bila ada pelawat lain datang I will take a nap di sofa. Malu memang terpaksa letak tepi. Eventhough di sofa tu ramai pelawat lain, pedulikan jela dorang yang penting I need to rest for few minutes sementara mama ada orang temankan. Bukan apa, pernah sekali I was too exhausted tak rehat sampai kena demam panas. Bila I went to take a nap while the nurse tukarkan cadar mama since I pening sangat that time, mama turun dari katil dan searched for me. So untuk elakkan mama bergerak dalam keadaan lemah, I couldn't sleep at all. 

Pada awalnya mama prefer grandma jaga dia since she doesn't trust anak manja dia bolah jaga dia. Semua orang nak her own mom masa sakit kan. But I didn't go back instead I cari kerusi berhampiran ward mama untuk duduk  and my grandma stay with my mom ( seorang pesakit boleh ada seorang sahaja penjaga ). As expected, grandma terlalu tua untuk stay up so I asked her to sleep. Bila mama nampak the one yang sentiasa jaga dia was me, at last mama agreed grandma tak perlu tunggu di ward at night. Segala urusan mama that time sama ada dalam bentuk apa pun termasuk buang air, I helped her. Thinking of apa yang mama dah buat for me, that was the least I could do for her. Mama teragak-agak untuk susahkan I at first and minta panggil nurse juga but as her daughter yang jaga dia, memalukan saja jadi anak kalau ni pun tak dapat buat untuk seorang ibu. Rasa jijik letak tepi. Open your eyes, tengok betul-betul yang sakit tu your only mom! kan? 

Alhamdulillah mama gets better day by day. The last time I called mama sounded happy participating larian amal. As her daughter, I want her to be healthy and happy. I akan sentiasa doakan my mom.  Love u mom!

p/s: Thanks to saudara-mara yang datang lawat mama. Ramai juga my relatives rupanya. 

Helloooo

Hellooo I'm nasha and diz is my blog. I'm the second one from 5 siblings and yes I'm not the youngest eventhough I look like one. So here goes some other info's about me. I lived in Perak for 12 years and then I went to study at Seremban, Penang and currently at Bangi striving to get my degree in mechanical engineering from UNITEN. 

At first I was about to do medic tapi thx to doktor yang salah buat appendix surgery, I changed my course to mechanical engineering. Okay la juga jadi future engineer kan? :) Dengan badan yang lemah that time tak mampu nak study teruk sangat T.T 

I'm somebody yang simple dalam mencari partner, tak ada banyak kriteria yang nasha cari, cuma he MUST be somebody yang sentiasa ada by my side during my up and down. Nasha mungkin someone yang sangat menjaga penampilan, tapi I don't expect my bf to be the same. I care much about my skin until nasha tak berani keluar rumah without applying anything on my face. UV bahaya! huhu.. Tapi unfortunately nasha admit yang nasha sangat berhati-hati dalam menerima kawan. Ada kisah silam yang nasha tak nak berulang. So jangan totally blame me if nampak nasha bukan someone yang mesra dengan korang. I apologise for that. 

Being the older sister, I have to perform well untuk jadi contoh pada adik-adik. Alhamdulillah, disebabkan nasha top student daripada sekolah rendah until secondary scool, adik2 nasha juga do well until now, try to beat my score haha.. Apa pun, being smart bukan the only thing yang kita perlu dalam hidup ni. Prinsip nasha mudah, bukan being the best in everything yang nasha nak, tapi being the one yang menyumbang. Other than that nasha sangat percaya baik buruk semeone adalah disebabkan tindakan yang dia buat, sama ada baik atau jahat dan juga hatinya. 

 

Sebagai seorang perempuan, nasha akui nasha banyak kekurangan sama ada yang jelas, ataupun tersembunyi. I might look skillful di mata adik-adik dalam semua benda tapi hakikatnya their sister has gone through so many hardships after our father died. As the older sister, I had sacrificed my own feeling dan membesar pretending to be okay and do well in my studies. But that's just how much I love my lil sis and bros. 

When people ask me about my life, honestly nasha tak ada jawapan yang fix untuk tu since I have two families, satu family angkat dan satu family kandung. Both my families sangat penyayang and I'm grateful for that. Bercakap tentang politik, nasha pihak atas pagar. Both my families involve dalam politik in fact papa angkat nasha pernah bertanding few years back. Family kandung nasha pun turut bertanding dalam 3 pilihan raya yang lepas. Satu family BA, satu family BN, so I guess nasha better remain atas pagar T.T 

When people envy me, deep down nasha wanna tell them not to, since nasha bukan sesiapa. I do have my own flaws. I might have sharp tounge tapi deep down I don't really mean what I say. Another thing pasal nasha, nasha prefer spend time di rumah daripada melepak. Menghabiskan masa decorate rumah, tengok cerita Korea, cooking, semua tu makes me normal la kan? So again, nothing yang perlu orang lain cemburukan. Nasha mungkin nampak sosial, tapi once you become someone close to me, you'll know macam mana nasha. 

Selalu salah mencari kawan, itu faktor kenapa I was once lost. Nasha mungkin nampak sombong, tapi bukan ke lebih bagus sombong daripada terlalu friendly? Kalau sombong tu dapat pelihara diri kita, lebih bagus kan? As a girl, nasha tak mahu bakal suami nasha terlalu kecewa dengan nasha nanti.

Why i Blogged?

There are things we better express them by blogging.

Things I Love The Most!!!

1- I love to be pampered

2- I enjoy taking pics

3-Cosmetics and fashion

Things I Hate The Most!!!

1- Boy meliar tgk girls lalu lalang

2- Fitnah & pengecut

3- The feeling of wanting something but I can't get it :'(

4- Eating alone

5- Extreme weather

6- Bad hair day

7- Mood xmenentu (salahkn hormon!! hehe)

8- Stomach ache

Favourite Colour

I go for black, red and white all the time!

Favourite Food

1- Laksa

2- Seafood

3- Meehun Sup

Yes it's true. Bring me to a western restaurant and I end up makan food lain juga after that. Somehow tekak melayu cmni lah ( mcm la melayu sgt kann ) shhh juz consider me a malay for now. 

You'll know me better through this blog dear readers =)