Growing away from the family tree

Ricci’s Simhoo! outbox:
To: Mikel Banner

Mikel,
Oh brother I can’t explain how excited I was when I received your email.
I miss you, I mean your an adult now  and a cop! When I left home you
were just starting school. I wish you would have reached out to me
with a happier reason. I know I haven’t seen dad since I left and Mom
since before I was married,but I still loved them. No matter how much
I hated what they were…I love them. It breaks my heart to hear that
they died stealing a car. Mom deserved a better death.

Well now they we are talking I wont lose you again. So lets what is new
with my life. Well I am Mayor! Can you believe dad’s daughter is Mayor.
I love it. I love working on bills and passing town laws to help the
people of my town. Plus there are a lot of parties. Who would have thought
that working a government job would make you a party animal?

I swear that my youngest and Lotta’s grew up way to fast. One minute
they were just little bundles and the next they were walking and then
they were off to school. I wish my Francis was a bit younger. I was
so nervous for them to start school with out him. With him high school
he not going to want to look after his kid sister and cousin.

Troy loves his little Bess. He treats her like a princess.He takes
her to the park and plays chess with her in till the sun disappears
in the sky. That little girl has him wrapped around her finger. She
knows not to come to me for anything because her father will always
say yes. I came home to her having a fully furnished bedroom. I have
always kept the kids room simple. Bed,desk, they really do not need
more. But no her daddy made sure she had a had anything a princess could
want. I can’t blame him thou she a real gem. But if we have another
child I pray it is a boy. I could not have two princess in my household.

Troy is a Neurosurgeon now which keeps him busy all the time. And being
Mayor doesn’t give me time either. So we meet a lot on our lunch breaks.
Being mayor gives me my own office which gives us a private place to be
alone. You old enough to know what I mean. It nice, I mean I wish we could
get away,but those hour lunches mean the world to me.

Francis has a school project about his family tree. He has always known
who his father is,and I have never kept him away from his.He never wanted
to see her father as a boy. But now he does, so I bring him there to the
big house on the hill. It made my stomach twist and turn to see Nick
again. But he was the charming gentle men that every knows him to be.
Things were decent in till he told me that he has disowned his other child,
because she has married some lowlife or something. He told me and our son
that he doesn’t want his legacy and wealth to leave his family when he dies.
He asked if Francis would come live with him, for he could show him the
family business and when he died it would all go to him. How could I say no?
This is my son birthright and if he wants it then I will help him. So that
night Francis moved in with his father. I miss him, but I know this is
right.Our family has a history of the oldest moving out before their time.

So one child moves out and another is created. I guess our lunch time
visits  produced a child ,I hope it is a boy. I love my daughter,but
we would go bankrupt if we had two girls. Troy has me on this new
prenatal medicine. They help with the morning sickness so I kept taking them.

Bess and Seed are really good kids. Seed spends time with his mom just painting
and creating. I knew dad always wanted one of us kids to be like him. I am glad
he didn’t get his wish, but I am even happier that Lotta does. Her art
sells more then she creating with her son.
Bess spends most her time cooking and cleaning. She loves playing house.
She going to be a great mother one day. I do not know where she gets it.
I mean I was a good mother, but I wasn’t crazy hands on and Lotta well she
lets mother earth do most her parenting.  But I wont complain, my grandchildren
will be lucky. And when the kids aren’t working on skills they are together.
They think of each other has brother and sister.

Some days it feels like Francis has never left. He is always at our
table for dinner and he spends four nights a week sleeping in his old bed.
I know it’s my pregnancy hormones that make my cry when I see him back in his bed.

This last baby loves sweets, and my lovely Bess bakes me all the brownies I could
want. My favorite are her caramel brownies. When ever my babe is kicking in my stomach
those brownies calm him down.

Troy was running one of his free clinics he does. He hates how the
hospitable will deny the poor, but he refuses. When I go back to work
I will make sure more money goes to treating the poor. Well I went into
labor in the middle of him treating others. I begged him to stay,but he
went with me in the labor room hand in hand.  Our son Henry was born.
He is perfect. Troy was sad that he does not have his Simmik skin color.
I am glad, but I wont tell him that. I mean I love Troy and I have never
seen a man more stunning, but his skin color is one of death and I do
not want child looking sick.

Few days after Henry’s birth Fern Daydream graduated high school and his
mother surprised him with a trip to Egypt.But in the end it was he
who surprised us. He met a local woman and married her. All with in this week
vacation.

If I was Lotta I would be so angry when my son showed up married to a stranger.
But Lotta just opened her arms and hearts to her. She even bought them a small
house to start there family. Troy visited the other day and said that Fern’s
bride was pregnant with triplet. Sadly one of the babies didn’t survive. Troy
said it can be dangerous to get pregnant so late in life. Fern’s wife is older then me.
I am sad that one of my nieces didn’t make it. Lotta says that the baby soul will
be reborn,I think it is her way of dealing with the pain.

But like all things with negative there is a positive. The kids are starting
highschool soon. Little brother I do hope you can come visit one day and see
your growing family.
-Ricci

Ricci’s Simhoo!
To:Sunbelly

Sunbelly,
It may have been nice being pregnant with a twin, but raising our
kids together has been a headache. Everything we have been through we
never truly fought. There was some avoidance and maybe comments.
But never a fight. In till the kids were born. More and and more I find
me and Ricci yelling at each other. It upsets me that doing something
so great like raising our kids could cause just a break with me and
my twin.

Things were great at first. We brought home my son, Seed Windsong
and my sister’s daughter Elizabeth. I know she took the boring
root with the naming. When the kids were infants things were busy but
good.

The house wasn’t as clean as it was before the babies. With Ricci
busy with an infant and a toddler and me with my son and all my
art projects. The mess was driving Troy crazy and he tried to keep
it clean, but he works the worse hours. He gone from 9am-7pm and
then he on call all the time. So he hired a maid. I do really agree,
but it was two-one of the maid vote.

And every thing isn’t about the babies. Fern Daydream has a girlfriend.
I am over the moon that my boy has found love. Ricci thinks I should
but this romance in the butt, before it goes to far. Every time his girlfriend
is over Ricci likes to remind me that I had him really young. This I wont
budge on, I want my son to experience love even if it is with an odd
looking girl. I am normally not that vain ,but she hard to look at.
I guess it just shows that I raised him right.
And while the kids were still infants Francis was getting older.
It seemed like yesterday that Ricci brought him home, now he going to
school. He looks so much like his father it is hard to see Ricci
in him.

Fern Daydream is not the best with school, and I do not care.
I rather him learn with his heart then a book. So I really don’t
push him to do his homework. Every time a teacher calls to tell
me he not doing his work I just tell them the only homework he
needs is the work mother earth gives and hang up.
Poor Francis is not allowed to do anything in till his homework
is done. Ricci wants her son to come off perfect on paper,but I want
my son soul to perfect. School doesn’t matter, love,family, art…that
is what matters. But I guess that the difference between the political
twin and the artist twin.

The real difference in the parenting came with the babies were starting to
walk and talk. I am still not pushing life skills on my son,while Ricci
is trying to get Bess to walk and talk at every free moment. We even
have fights about where they sleep. Bess has her own room that is
filled with toys. Seed Windsong sleeps in my room. He is to small
and young to need his own space.

Bess is bottle feed with stuff Ricci gets from the store. It makes
me want to cry every time I see her with that bottled filled with green
processed baby food. Seed Windsong only eats organic food that I make for myself.
I take a portion of my no meat organic food and blend it up for he
can handle it. I try to feed Bess some of it but Ricci tells me to
keep my hippy bird food away from her daughter.

Now we both love our kids and keep them with us as much as we can.
I bring Seed Windsong with me in the garden. He loves to wiggle his
toes in the rich dirt. He loves finding little bugs in the grass.
Or he plays in his empty toy chest while I create.
Ricci likes to spend her time differently. She is always taking to Bess
to the salon and clothes shopping. Or she goes to the library a lot. She
always reading to Bess. I tell her, and sometimes yell at her, to let
Bess be a toddler. She has her whole life to learn, but does she listen? Nope.

As much as I try to keep Seed Windsong away from material things he still
crawls in to Bess over stuff room. I want to drag him away and let him
just play with his imagination, but when I see them together my heart
melts. Maybe me and Ricci just need to meet in the middle.

Thanks for listening. Sometimes there just no one to talk to in the house.
But don’t think I would change any of it. Because there something
magical about out big family. When we spend our weekends together by the pool
I know this is what is right for all of us.

Ricci’s Simhoo! outbox
To:Sunbelly

Sunbelly,
Aww the girls sound like a handful!!

Well Ricci was not the only one to add to her family on her wedding
night. We are both expecting our second child. It weird being
pregnant with your twin, but it nice to know she going through what
I am.The only different is my back is hurting a lot in the beginning, it most
likely because of my gardening and sculpting. Poor Ricci is sick
to her stomach. I guess were both having a semi uncomfortable first
trimester.
Jude decided he wanted Fern Daydream come stay with him during the summer
before he starts high school. I was not completely okay with it, but
it was helpful. I know Jude wants only the best for his son and a boy
needs time with his father even if it breaks the mama’s heart.

I do not know when I have ever felt closer to my sister. Nothings beats
pregnant picnics at our family pond. Or trips to the library to get out
fill of the latest pregnancy books. Somehow how Ricci always ends up in the
books that help with telling speeches and I end up belly deep in
recipes books. Another fun thing we decided to do is find a house
with a better layout. With three adults, a toddler, two infants and
a teenager our house would explode. We were lucky to find a lovely
one floor house in a new neighborhood. It a big opened house that allows
us to be together but still have out space. Troy is having a pool installed
while I work on my garden.

Even with Ricci and me having matching faces and are both same amount of
pregnant..down to the hour. Our pregnancy are so different. Since my first
son is a teenager and living with his father I am able to calmly set up my
crib and spend my days painting and sculpting. Ricci son still isn’t
walking so she working with him. She keeps telling me she should have waited
to Frances a teenager.

The summer went by fast and I wanted my baby boy back. He really
turned out so handsome. I can see my dad in him along with Jude.
He so excited that he going to be a big brother soon. When he was
living at home he loved helping with his cousin. All summer I would
not let him see his room. I wanted it to be a surprise. I even decorated
it with sports stuff. I guess his father taught him the love of baseball
and football. Bleh I know, but my boy gets anything he wants. He was so excited
to see his room that he was late for his first day of high school.
Life was good. I had my second child in my belly, my first child down the hall.
My sister in the next room with her blue husband. Which let me tell you
was so weird at first. I guess everyone is like that where he comes from.
His homeland is so cold and frozen their skin just took on that color.

And then I went in to labor. I do not know if it because I am older or what
but the pain was worse then with Fern Daydream. I was not some young girl
with crazy ideals…I wanted a hospitable and I wanted it then. Since Troy was running
around for work and Fern Daydream was at some girls house Ricci took me.

We were not even at the hospitable doors when Ricci’s water broke.

Ricci’s SimHoo! Outbox
To:Ginger Banner
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Mom,
Mom you should have just stayed a few weeks more. Troy proposed!!!
And we got married!!! It really was the talk of the town. It was even
in the paper. I attached the article below.

The Engagement of The Year:
Two weekends ago a up in coming doctor from Simmik proposed to our
own local rep. Ricci Marsh. There romance is the type your only
hear about in the movies. A stranger comes in to town and falls for a local
who heart is closed off to love. When we asked Troy why Ricci he wasn’t
shy about answering. “Well first she is beautiful. And then add that she
strong,caring, and good at chess how could I resist. I know what everyone
says about Ricci, but when you get to know her you see a beautiful person.
A person who gives everything she has to the rights and needs of the common
sim. I come from a harsh place. In Simmik it snows almost 24/7. It hard
to provide for your family in a climate like Simmik. There no farming,
there is only ice fishing, and you are snowed in for months at a time.So
the type of woman it takes to survive there is a woman like Ricci. She reminds
me of my mother, my aunts and my grandmother.”
Troy wasn’t the only one open and honest about falling in love. When
we asked Ricci she had a lot to say. ” You know when this almost blue
sim showed up in my living room I didn’t know what to say. I swore of
love. I was married to my job and my son. So when Troy started trying
to date me I was mad. Who was this blue sim? But slowly my walls came down.
How could you not feel for him when he tells you how he put his life on
hold to take care of he ill sister have his mom died. How when he lost his
sister he decided not to sit around and mope but to do something with his life
and make her proud.Plus he could make me laugh and it so cute that he thinks
he is better at chess then he actually is.”

Wedding Planning:
Ricci and Troy decided to throw a wedding with in weeks of their
engagement. Ricci along with her twin Lotta went straight to work.
They decided to have a beach wedding. Ricci had some of the best
flowers and foods flown in. She even had and Italian made floor brought
in.”I always thought me and my twin would be spinsters together. I do
not believe in marriage, but I am glad to be there to hold my sister’s
hand. When I saw her in her wedding dress I almost cried. She beautiful
when she is blissfully happy,” said Lotta, Ricci’s sister.
“If I knew she was going to be so wedding crazy we would
have eloped. She even had me sleep in our son’s room the night before,”
Troy joked.

The Wedding:
The wedding party was breath taking in their yellows and grays. Ricci
really has an eye for style. The family were still getting their pictures
taken when guess started showing up. Sunset Valley has never seen a wedding
with some many guess. Even Vita Alto was in attendance.The couples vows
were said with the ocean’s waves crashing in the background. Everyone one gather
on either side of the flowers and candles Ricci had laid out for the
isle.This newspaper is sure that everyone will be talking about their
kiss

Time to Party:
The food was amazing. There was whole roasted turkey, salads, cookies, and
cake. And the music was good that no one was in their seats when it was playing.
At the end of the night Lotta decided to surprise to the new couple with a night
home alone. She took all the kids to her “boyfriends house”



Mom I know your going to frame that article. What they didn’t write was we decided
to start our family that night.

Ricci’s Simhoo! Outbox
To: Travis Caldwell

Hello Papa,
First off you a liar. When I left Simmmik you told me I would blend
in. When I arrived to Twinbrook that was not the case. My almost blue
skin makes everyone think I am dying and my almost white eyes and hair
and everyone thinks I am sick ghost. I am glad you lied because if
I would have known I would stand up I wouldn’t have left.

Well I guess I will tell you what has been going on the last few weeks.
I didn’t stay long in Twinbrook. Their hospitable was not a teaching one,
but Ginger Banner said she knew a town where there was one. So her and I
boarded a train to Sunset Valley. I can’t complain. I mean I was lucky
enough for Ginger to answer my add online to give me a place to stay while
I worked to be a doctor. I mean  I am in my 30s and just starting out. I
don’t regret staying home during my youth to take care of Sissy. So I was
a bit put off when I learned that Ginger never planned on me staying with her,
but her daughter. So we arrived early and Ginger broke in to the house.
When I asked if her daughter’s, they are twins, knew I was coming she just
smiled and said she wasn’t even suppose to know what town they live in. I think
there is more to Ginger then just a pretty face. Well her one daughter,Ricci,
seemed shocked to see us sitting on her couch when she woke up. Ginger
just waved.With all the talking must have woken up the other twin,Lotta, because
she came running up the stairs. It was a heartfelt reunion. I just sat on
the couch and tried to blend in.

Somehow Ginger got Ricci to take me to the local hospitable to apply.
Ricci complained the whole way about being linked to her mother could
ruin everything. I really didn’t understand what she was going on about,
so I just nodded my head. So I got hired as a Organ Donor. I hope that
title is a joke. Ricci says she thinks I will mostly likely giving blood
and helping out with other donors. I hope she is right
I don’t know why Ginger didn’t come,but then I realized she never met her
two grandsons and wanted time alone. I guess her two sons at home were not
lucky with woman.

After getting the job I suggested going to the park. I think Ricci needed more
space from her mother. I was so excited when I saw they had a chess table
set up. I asked Ricci to play. Papa I found a woman who is as good at chess
as me…if not better. We played in till Lotta called us home for dinner.

Strange papa..their meals have no meat in them. Lotta explain she only ate
organic meat free meals. Weirdo. She sweet, but Lotta is a real odd ball.
She looks like her sister expect she has red hair. But unless your looking at them
you would forget they are related. Ricci is so serious and Lotta..is well Lotta.
Well dinner was interesting. I guess Ricci and Lotta left the night of their
18 birthday and didn’t tell their parents where they were going. I guess
Ginger and her husband have a shady past and with Ricci wanting to be Mayor she needed
to now be linked with them. I guess Ginger’s shady past is what helped her
track down her daughter. I think that I was an excuses to see her daughters.She
knew Ricci would flip if she just came so she needed to be doing something good.
Then I found out that Ricci son’s father is the head of a few local business and is married
to Ricci’s co worker. Lotta cried to her mother as she explained it all. Ricci
just sat there like a rock. In her eyes you could see pain,but you could tell she
was not going to show them regret. She believes in the causes she fights for and
she loves her son. So screw them and their judgment. Papa I have never been
in such awe over a woman.

I kind of wished that Ginger would have at least told Lotta we were coming.
Ginger is sleeping on a cot in Francis,Ricci’s son, room and I am on a cot
in Lotta’s living room. It uncomfortable and embarrassing. I don’t blame the girls
they did the best they could for us on short notice.

That night I dreamed mostly of Ricci. I think I might have a crush on
that blond hair warrior. She beautiful papa..just beautiful.
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Ricci was right about the job. I mostly gave out juice and cookies to the the
blood donors. I guess it was good that is a mindless job because my thoughts
were all of Ricci. I decided that night to start courting her. I told her
to meet at this private beach right before sunset. When she walked down the path
she saw me and the picnic I set up. I think she would have said no intill
she saw I had hamburgers and hot dogs. I guess not everyone likes Lotta’s
meat free diet. After we ate we just walked along the beach and talked.
She laughed papa. It was like heaven. It felt like when Sissy started smiling
for the first time after she got sick. It was genuine and perfect.Sissy would love
Ricci. You know how she wanted everything serious but deep down there was that
giggling little girl, that how Ricci is.

The next night we went to the park for some more chess. After she beat me I pulled
her in for a kiss. I do not know what took over me. I just had to feel her lips
that moment or I would have died. She kissed me back and I melted. Then
she yelled at me. Told me how dare I kiss some like her. That she was not
worth anyone’s affection. She was a lowlife home-wrecker.  So I did the only thing
I could papa…I pulled her to me and just held on. She cried…papa she cried
in my arms. I think everyone is to tough on her…even her self. So what she
had a baby by a married man. She loves her son and she did something for the
people who normally wouldn’t have had a voice. I will admit that her ways
were a little rough,but her heart was in it.

That night I fell asleep with her against my back. No papa get your mind out of
the gutter. We just cuddled and slept. She broken papa…and I won’t hurt her more.
I want her, but I will wait.

So after weeks of working and courting Ricci it was birthday time. For Francis
and Ginger. Ricci threw a party and even invited the scum who makes the other
half of Francis. I was walking out the house when Nick was yelling at Ricci.
Something in me snapped papa. All I remember was my hand making contact with that
pigs chubby face. I know it was not my house but I threw him out. No one will
ever talk to Ricci like that get away with it while I am alive. The rest of the
party went great.

Ginger is heading home soon…said being here as turned her hair gray
and she misses her husband,Darcy. Darcy for a mans name…I know right?

A few days after Ginger left I was putting Francis on the potty for his
first time when I realized this is what I want. In my thirty plus years I have
never wanted anymore family but you and Sissy. And when Sissy died and I left
I figured work would be my family. But teaching that little boy a life skill
it clicked. I am in love with Ricci Marsh. I want to make her Mrs.Troy Caldwll.
I do not know how I am going to make that beautiful woman mine, but I will.
Love you Papa.
-Troy

Ricci’s Simhoo! outbox:
To:Sunbelly

I can not believe your pregnant with twins!! I can not imagine two
babies growing in me. You better send me pictures.Fern Daydream
is doing good. My sister had made a deal if he keeps his grades up
she will pay for fishing lessons. He really loves fishing. Guess it good
I own that pond. Now for the real reason I am writing. I just need someone
to talk to.

Well my sister is pregnant with Nick Alto’s baby. How can you come from
a home where your mother was hurt by cheating and then get pregnant
by a married man? She now works in the same office as Nick’s wife.They
are both local reps. and it was Vita who pushed for her promotion. It
is sickening. Really, but it doesn’t matter because she is my twin.
So I still make sure dinner is cooked when she comes home as long as she
does the dishes.

Maybe my sister is more of my dad’s kid then we thought. She says she
doing it for the right reason, protecting the artist…but her ways
are down right evil. I came home to the living room set up for a party.
Ricci said she was throwing her first political party since she can’t
work and she doesn’t want to be forgotten. I should have known better.
Everything started simple enough. Everyone was dancing and some young
kid kept following my sister around and pretending to take pictures of her.
Then my sister told Vita about her pregnancy. Lotta just let her rub
her belly.
And then Nick showed up. I guess him and his wife don’t discuss where
they will be spending their days. So when she explained to him that
she was carrying his child  he couldn’t help but kiss her. While their
lips were locked he didn’t see his wife running out of the house.

Once everyone cleared out she told Nick that he didn’t deserve Vita. And
she was glad that Vita would see him for who he was. I know my sister
truly cares about Vita, and is hoping she will forgive her. I am
sorry I just don’t share Ricci’s theory that the end justifies the means.
But in the end she got what she wanted. The next day Vita pushed for higher
business tax and lower artist tax.
But was it worth because my sister now is pregnant with a jerk’s baby. He came
by a few days after the tax was passed and was yelling at Ricci telling
her she ruined his life and that she was a home-wreck. I actually
heard her crying that night. She knows what people are saying about her,
and she feels like I true. I hate that my twin is trying to do what is right
for the little sim by sacrificing her own self. I know her heart is in the
right place…

I been taking Fern Daydream to see his father. I can’t help but be
so angry with Ricci, even know why she doing what she is doing. I started
thinking maybe me and my son should move in with Jude. We would never marry,
but we could live in a eco friendly house and raise are son. Fern Daydream
looks so happy when he sees me and Jude hugging and kissing. And it doesn’t
hurt that Jude house has a stream behind it, so Fern can fish way into the night.
Jude really loves being able to tuck his son in and watch him sleep.

Fern Daydream and me were sleeping at Judes when Ricci went into labor. For some
reason she was at the kids house who followed her around at her party.
I guess she felt to guilty to call anyone and went to the hospitable alone.
She has a baby named Frances.

I really wish she would have called me. Nick didn’t even show up when his son
was born. The next morning when she told me she had to tuck her son in
for the first time alone I knew that I could never leave her. She needs me.
So Fern Daydream and me will be staying. We will keep spending a lot of nights
at Jude’s, we just wont live there permanently I am thinking I might need
to call my mama in. I think Ricci needs her right now.
Thanks for taking time to read this. Don’t for get my pictures!
-Lotta

Ricci simhoo! outbox:
To:Anne Song.


I swear who would have guessed when I met you at your tattoo shop that
you would have shaped the start to my political career.It is funny
how just little decisions change everything. I originally was not going to go
with Lotta to get that stupid tattoo,no offense.But something made me change
my mind, might have bee I didn’t want my nephew crawling around a tattoo shop,
once again no offense.

I wish we could meet at the house, but I wont do that to you again. I have
never seen Lotta be rude. So I was completely shocked when she kept rolling
her eyes during the whole dinner. I don’t know what is with her. Your an
artist just like her.Only thing she says it there is a vibe with you. Don’t
let her bother you. Because what your asking to me with help her to. I don’t
believe it is fair that the bigger business are trying to get a tax passed
on the local artist. I live with one of those artist and I know money isn’t
plentiful and this tax would bankrupt the artist.

I don’t have that much pull, I am only a yes-woman. Which is pretty
great since I am only in my twenties. So I thought I would go
talk to the head of some of the newer business, Nick Alto. I got him lose
and kept asking about his business and let him talk and talk. Men like
that love to talk about themselves. And it didn’t take long for him to explain
to me how his wife the local representative,Vita Alto is going to get a tax
passed on local artist and lessen the taxes on big business. A
yes-woman can’ compete with a local representative when it comes to politics.
But a woman in her twenties can make the eyes of a man wander in ways that his
thirty something wife can’t.

I know..I know  that  him and his wife are still like love sick teens.
But I have a feeling I can catch his eye.

Ricci Laptop’s History:

Mother Earth Parenting;

Dear Sunbelly,

I am glad you decided to try for a baby. I know it is scary to be
a single parent,but it rewarding. Well I will give you a few tips to
help you. First keep busy when you are pregnant! I had to keep my hands
busy to handle all my nervous energy. So I gardened a lot, it so nice
to be creating something in the earth while your creating a life in your
belly. I also painted and sculpted. Do not do anything that will give
the baby negative vibes. Just positive, earth nurturing vibes.

I think doctors are full of it. I didn’t go in till the end of my trimester.
My twin,Ricci, made me go. She would not leave me alone in till I got a check up.
I knew with all my positive vibes that my baby was good,better the good. Didn’t
need a doctor to tell me that, but I went to shut my sister up.

Labor hurts. NO amount of meditation will help you with the pain. I imagine
it is what the earth feels every time we cut down her trees. I wanted a home-birth
but Ricci said no. She acts like it is her baby. She wants to be Mayor one
day and she can’t have anything go wrong in her personal life. So I went
to the hospital to give birth.But I drove myself in my earth saving car.
I would not drive in my sister’s gas gusling car. My son, Fern Daydream, was
born.I never seen something so amazing as my baby boy.

You may be a single mother, but you are not alone. Let your friends and
family help. My sister loves coming down to just hold my son. Even if
she hates the nursery. I kept it small and not that much stuff. She hates
that the crib is used and there aren’t toys, but he is my son. So she
grins and bares it.

but no the greatest relationship in your child’s life is you. Tell him that
every night when you kiss him. You will learn that some-days the only thing that
matters is your child’s smile.

I do not think my son needs to go into town. But my sister says he needs
to be well rounded. SO I let her take him in to town once a week. It makes
my skin crawl to think of the things she feeding him and buying him,but
I know I can’t keep him sheltered. My sister also is pushing potty training
on him. I think Fern will use the bathroom when he wants and it is not my job
to push him. It does not matter because she sneaks down and puts him on
the potty. So I gave in, but I wont push him.

I am not against all life skills. I am teaching him what do with garbage, and
how to love the earth. Also I am telling him about not eating meat. Ricci
says I need to stop talking nonsense to him,but these are the skills that matter.

Also I do not give him toys. He needs to learn to think out of the box
and use his imagination. I bought him a toy chest and he plays
all kinds of games in it. He doesn’t need toys,just his mind and love.

I also make sure he eats no meat.Everything he eats I would eat. I make
sure it is organic and safe for the earth. Sunbelly your going to love being
a mother! email if you ever have questions.