Just Brian

so rare to think of anything anymore
moments, flashes, step by step, letting go
every memory takes me to the start,
one by one, dice rolls, predicting the fall

beautiful things lead to dead horizons
eyes make me feel so alone in darkness
went to find you (self) in a home of goodbyes
the endless pulls me in as silence drones

whispers carry me to the salted sea
what if rain falls, if only in madness,
to see the heaven of her bright eyes

golden apples, a balcony of chrome
dust storm of lost souls settles on Saturn
pain is perfected in hurricanes of shame
beneath sweat stained silk sheets,
12AM windows
fated, what is this tilted world made of…

onion layers, peeled back to creation
am I like you who breaks before dawn
before water softened jagged edges
realize I can’t quit but rather be gone
rearrange the scenes I’d still be alone

silhouettes eat me from imagined insides
as an eden of bombs show me the way
push, push, push to murky blue depths
(reverb) whisper to an ancient benevolent sea
encased, exposed flesh, all of grotesque me
what happens next, beyond nowhere, flee…

“Hey Siri”, tell me about the weather and
the path less taken. of reckless times
it doesn’t matter they’re the lucky, gone.

Where did all it all go… [space] … nvm I go
bring the chains… to carry me home.