Spring Forth

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Despite losing an hour this weekend, I woke up early and rested. I am sitting here contemplating brunch and a mani-pedi before coming home to clean up and write.

I have a long to do list for this vacation:

  • taxes
  • go to The Hamptons (and hopefully D.C.)
  • buy and decent shredder and shred years worth of paper that has piled up
  • job hunt
  • write
  • renegotiate payment arrangements for student loans
I'm sure there is more, but that is all I can think of. I should also get an oil change since I think I am overdue for one and typically do it around this time. 

I need to head out before Lazy Pants decides to come visit.

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