Do I look good in these jeans?

Humour, wit, passion, heart, integrity, sensuality, honesty, structure and love...
Is that me?
Is that how my comments come across?
I would like to hope... but someone has told me so.

Steve from the Levi Store: my Secret Diary.
Appreciated this comment:

"first of all anon - the one right above me... wtf? why can't people have many sides? I know I do... oh if only you knew.

Secondly - I am planning on meeting a few blog friends late Fall on a trip I am taking. I am so excited and can not wait! I have ready many many accounts of people meeting in real life - all of them good.

I would keep it somewhere public and keep it social though. For first meetings ... just in case they show up with a mouse cord and try to strangle you (cuz really being an axe murder is so hard with having to carry around the ax and all!)"
which came from this post about meeting bloggers in real life

The award states:
We all know that a major part of blogging is about the interaction, spirit, and commenting. I have seen top bloggers all over the world receiving bloggy awards for the quality of their sites. But what about rewarding them for the time, effort and energy put into writing creative and meaningful comments?
The Levi Store, "My Secret Diary" has decided to start a recognition program for quality commenting on its site http://dbn-gent.blogspot.com/
And what makes a good quality comment? Many things come to mind including humour, wit, passion, heart, integrity, sensuality, honesty, structure and love...
The award is presented weekly, on the comment stream, as well as on the winners comment stream! See you at The Levi Store!

There you have it. It must be - he said so, and everything you read on the internet is true - we all know that!

If you haven't been over to The Levi Store you should go, and not just because it is my absolute favorite piece of clothing- but because Steve is a good guy who is humorous and well balanced, a little naughty but not disrespectful. I love finding new friends..... go check it out.

HNT - Hug

I haven't hidden the fact
that I have been feeling a bit down this week.

Sometimes a person just needs some time
to themselves to sit and re-group.

But, sometimes you just really need a hug.
(click)

You can see who else played here

Around blogatopia and love (a pic too)

Some good stuff going on around blogatopia. Go see - I won't waste your time here - you should go over there.

Check out the post here.
The post itself was pretty low key but the comments exploded.
There was a jealous bloggy boyfriend stirring things up and an online dating hookup going on. Go See! Give him some blog love as he is blowing into the blog scene with trumpets.

Sage has a guest post today - a story. Tell his guest what you think of the story.

NV has a new pet here. Morning Glory really likes it :)

Hubman is showing his face here.

My Expressions Live has his Wordless Wednesday up again. Shadows this week.

I am gone today - running around from appointment to swim lessons to treating the kids to the animal park to a (much needed) hair cut, and then home to clean up and cook, put the kids to bed, go to bed, get up and do it all over again.

Thank you for all of your love yesterday. You guys are the best group of blog friends ever. I could have posted the same post on my mommy blog to have been given advice or told to snap out of it - all a girl needs is a little love and you guys all know that! Thank you again. Here is an extra pic to show my love.

T.M.I. Tuesday - My style

I am not going to answer the questions for TMI today - I haven't even looked at them.

However I am going to play along today - my style:

I am going to tell you something and it probably falls under t.m.i.


I am bummed out today. Sad, low, down, depressed, overwhelmed, fighting demons, dark, or as thesarus.com comes up with for depressed:

discouraged,

bad, bleeding, blue*, bummed out, cast-down, crestfallen, crummy, dejected, despondent, destroyed, disconsolate, dispirited, down, down and out, down in the dumps, down in the mouth, downcast, downhearted, dragged, fed up*, glum, grim, hurting, in a blue funk, in pain, in the dumps, in the pits, in the toilet, let down, low, low-down, low-spirited, lugubrious, melancholy, moody, morose, on a downer, pessimistic, ripped, sad, sob story, spiritless, taken down, torn up, unhappy, weeping, woebegone

We can't all be happy all the time. I seem to go through swings of emotions. Sunday was wonderful, today is not so good, yesterday it was starting to build. I even had a short email convo with Sexy PTA mom about it last night. I told her I was feeling that Monday depression- too much to do, don't know where to start, coming off from the weekend, mess in the house and mind, kids grumpy, overwhelmed feeling. She got it - she knew... I am sure you do too.

Yet, we don't talk about it. We just keep blogging like nothing is wrong. Submitting our TMI questions and our HNT pics. I am not going to do that. I am a real person - therefor I have real emotions.

Is there something major wrong? No.
Did something happen? No.
(and although I appreciate your concern - don't write and ask me either because I am not covering up anything)

The weather is crap today - as it has been most of the summer here. This is not helping. We are still busy doing business stuff leaving very little "fun" time. I am not eating as well as I normally do and that could contribute. I hate doing laundry/dishes/housework to have it all start again as if I didn't touch it. I seem to do everything for others and not much for myself. I have a few demons in my closet that pop out every now and again. The angle of the sun, or the spin of the moon ... there are a bunch of reasons for a person to feel this way.

Whatever it is. I am down today. Now you know.

I keep this pic in my sidebar.
It is true. I feel that I am always on the edge of these feelings,
and I often wonder if I let go, if I step off, would someone
catch me , or would I learn how to fly?
Typically I fly :)



Thanks to my favorite
blog guy for letting
me admit this

Hangover Cure

The best way to get rid of a hangover is:
three of the most amazing vitamins ever
a nap
followed by a strong cup of coffee
and hours worth of shoveling in the hot sun.

Problem solved!

You will know what to do

Read here
and
here
and
here.

You will know what to do.

HNT- Boy Shorts (and hubby's debut)

I made a very simple, spontaneous purchase the other day.
A couple pairs of boy shorts.
That is all.
Not expensive, nothing fancy...
but they have bought hours of fun.

please ignore the
bevel in the mirror
as you click thru

If you notice on the click thru- hubby is making his HNT debut <3 *wink* and it was quite the debut too.


And speaking of debuts see if you can find me on the OHNT.

Slow and Sensual

Today I am in the mood for a slow and sensual screw.
Lying side by side, hanging on to each other.
Arms and legs tangled.
Where the point is to meld two bodies and minds together.
The intensity is in the emotion, not the nerve endings.

Hands on each others faces, eyes locked, there is no rush.

Go slow.
Go deep.
Love me.



I am a anon guest (not so anon anymore) over here today. If you like seeing some of my skin and/or you like firemen go see.

T.M.I. Tuesday

Tell us about...
1. Your first self-induced orgasm
It was my sophomore year of college.

2. Your first other-induced orgasm
I don't think I had an orgasm until I met my hubby. He knew things those other "boys" didn't. He was the first to care about my experience as well as his.

3. Your first experience giving someone else an orgasm
Well umm my first time having sex. This answer is probably easier for a girl to answer huh?!

4. Your first time witnessing another's orgasm not induced by you
hmmm. Other then t.v. I don't know if I have in person. I mean my partners - but I'd like to think I had something to do with that ;)

5. Since your first, what is the longest time you've gone between orgasms?

Oh honey, I have been pregnant for so many years in a row with babies pulling on my skirts at the same time. There has been a long long time inbetween during these hard years - months I suppose.

Bonus (as in optional):Tell us about a particularly memorable orgasm you haven't mentioned yet. They kinda blur together since it has always been the same partner. I do remember several where I was left a blubbering, giggling, motionless ball of satisfaction - where I woke in the same splayed out naked position I passed out in the night before still smiling.

Go see who else is playing with me today

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If you haven't see the post below go down and read what the clerk thought of my friends three purchases - it is good for a giggle.

Shower Curtain Liner, Vaseline, and Rubber Gloves

My friend just called.

She said the look on the clerk who just checked her out at WalMart was priceless.

She then went on to tell me that she purchased three items.
1) shower curtain liner
2) rubber gloves
3) a BIG tub of Vaseline

?????????yeah????????????
Really.

I wonder why the clerk looked so oddly at you - I said between side splitting fits of laughter.

I'm guess she knocked me* off the employee board labeled "Oddest thing you saw today"

In Search of a New Afternoon Partner

Today we mourn the loss of two dear friends.

Two companions.

These two have tickled me in a most intimate way, and now they are gone.

Both of them, one right after the other.
Partners do usually go this way if they are deeply connected.

Both entered my life in the same manner, and they both came from the same town.

It was unexpected since they both left me without any warning though, no tell tale signs.

They have been "gone" for awhile now, but I have been holding on to the disillusion that they would come back.

My afternoons have been lonely without them. I didn't visit them every afternoon. But, it was nice when I needed that little something- they were there for me.

Today I will throw them both in the garbage and look for replacements...............................



WHAT? you say... What are we talking about here?



We are talking about my sex toys, my vibrators, my bedstand companions.....
my rabbit and my (?) what ?- I never named that one or paid attention to it's name. Really I didn't pay much attention to that one at all. It probably died out of neglect or envy :)

Somehow these two toys decided to tucker out one right after the other a while back. I have left them in their bag under the bed- in frustration, sadness, denial ... through all the other steps of mourning.

I am ready to move on. To find replacements. To make new friends ;)

Sex toys have not been a regular part of our partner play. Quite honestly they are a little too intense and tend to end things quickly - more quickly then I like when I am with a partner. They typically serve better as an independent release for that midday frustration that sneaks up on me at times (1 o'clock anyone?). However just as the sadness you feel when your next door neighbor moves away, I am still missing them.

I do not do well searching the internet for these types of purchases, just as I can't clothes shop online either. How do you know that they will work for you from a web page. What if it doesn't fit well? How do they actually look, feel, work, how big or small, how squishy or rigid? It is like picking your sex partner for the next several years off the internet with a thumbnail pic and a two sentence description. It is just too big of a commitment for me :) oh I'm pitiful!

I know there are a bunch of you out there that do reviews and so forth, and I am sure your advice is reliable. But for this personal of a purchase I prefer to be in person - looking, comparing, touching. However the closest shop is 4 hours away. I love this shop, it has the best name (I would love to give you the name but it would give away my location) The front is full of "decorative" bongs and smoking novelties. The back has a section of toys, videos, book, creams etc. It is small and doesn't carry a huge array - but enough for me. I will not be making it to this town (although it is my second favorite town in our fair state) so... in the mean time I will have to ask all of you for suggestions.

Could you please name names and tell me where they hide? What is good about them? I am, after all, desperate. I am in search of a new afternoon partner.

HNT - Exercise

I walk.
I walk because I don't like to run
I walk because I refuse to diet.
I walk because it is good for me.
I walk to be "naturally" thin.
I walk because it makes things on me tighter.
I walk because tighter "things" mean a happier me

(and a happier him)

Me after my morning walk

Exercise.
That is what walking is.

This week I was asked to join a group post.
That meant a different type of exercise.
Exercising my brain.

(If you click the pic above
you can see me writing my story. )

It was my first try.
It is a very real story with a bit extra thrown in for the reader's benefit.
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If you haven't read the post called "The door shut" you can find it below along with everyone else who participated.

Also, remember, last week I told hubby about THIS blog. We (namely he) is still adjusting to the idea. How much I will make it around to see your sweet stuff is up in the air.

The Door Shut

The door shut behind us. We felt the cool air of the night wrap around us as we stepped out onto the deck. The heat of the day had snuck up on us leaving the house hot even at this late hour.

You come up behind me wrapping your arms around me squeezing just under my breasts. I am sure you can feel the sweat through my night shirt.

Leaning my head against your chest you lower your mouth and whisper into my ear while your hands tease my nipples through the thin material they hide behind.

I giggle at the suggestions you are whispering. Things you want to do to me, how it will feel. However, I am already hot, anxious, and ready. I turn in mid whisper and cover my mouth with yours. Kisses- deep intense, helping to release some of the tension that we have allowed to build.

Taking my kiss you break away and grab me in your arms down to the grass. It is cool on my back from the night air. A relief after a heat filled day. I shiver as it touches the backs of my bare legs. Gasping as my shirt is gone in one quick motion. My back feels the contrast of hot flesh and cold ground.

It is dark and our eyes are just now adjusting. I can see your half smile as your fingers dance across my skin. How, when it is so hot, can you make goose bumps form on my skin? Your fingers tease from my neck past my nipples, which are still at full attention, down my stomach past where I so desire those digits to be and continue their dance down to my legs. You torture me. You love to see me squirm. You know how badly I need your fingers between my legs working their magic dance there. As you move back up my legs I try with desperation to guide your hand where I want it, only to see your smile widen as you deny me that pleasure. You are teasing, trying to drive me over the edge.

Just as I am about to resign to lying back and enjoying the build up I am being pulled up and led. We are heading deeper into the yard out of the shade of the trees into the shadows of the moonlight. I am dizzy, unsteady. Your arm is holding me up as much as it is leading me.

We stop. Now I know. I understand.
Taking a chance I position myself not waiting for your instructions.
You don't seem to mind.
I position my feet on the ground , lay my upper body on the rough wooden surface of the picnic table leaving my ass on display. I wiggle my freshly shaved and now dripping wet cunt at you.

I hear an approving mumble as you move closer.
Oh please, please, please.... finish me off.
Are you chuckling at me, chuckling at my begging?

First a finger then two as you play with my clit at the same time...
something close to a growl escapes my throat- you ask me what is wrong
(oh the teasing sound in your voice is not helping)
hmmmm... What is wrong? All I can think is -Your fingers continue to draw me closer to falling over the edge, I am about to lose control.

"Oh God Nothing" I finally say
" I just need you now!"
"Damn, I need you now......"

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This is another group post inspired and coordinated by the awesome Kimberly aka The Errant Wife. The theme was “The door shut behind (me, him us…)” and with that starter, each of us wrote whatever we wanted. It might be real, it might be fantasy, or maybe a bit of each. You’ll have to guess which mine is…

1. Duchess (http://theduchessissexy.blogspot.com)
2. Hubman (http://hubmanshangout.wordpress.com)
3. Sheba ((http://thekinkchronicles.blogspot.com)
4. Ms Scarlett (http://msscarlettletter.blogspot.com)
5. Veronica (http://anothersuburbanmom.blogspot.com)
6. Enchanted Mistress (http://taboosweetest.blogspot.com)
7. Petal (http://secretlifeofaslummymummy.blogspot.com)
8. Aurore (http://dangerousliaisons-aurore.blogspot.com)
9. Topaz (http://topaz-gemology.blogspot.com)
10. Ronjazz (http://ronjazz.blogspot.com)
11. Autumn (http://autumnmistspeaks.blogspot.com)
12. Britni (http://britisstillshameless.blogspot.com)
13. Library Vixen (http://libraryvixen.blogspot.com)
14. Eden’s Dragon (http://temptationandthedragon.blogspot.com)
15. Submissively Me (http://theunequivocalme.blogspot.com )

16. Kimberly (http://yourerrantwife.blogspot.com)

17. Danimo (http://danimo21.blogspot.com)
18. Lolita (www.sexingrock.blogspot.com)

Thanks Hubman for letting me cut and paste your links (even though I didn't ask :)

TMI Tuesday

1. Have you ever attended a group masturbation party? Same-sex or mixed?
No I haven't, nor do I think I ever would.

2. When masturbating, as you reach orgasm, do you continue to stimulate yourself without interruption, or do you stop and apply pressure until your spasms subside? Or?
Can't say there is a standard practice - it is a time by time deal. I do what is necessary for that moment ;)

3. Have you ever video'ed yourself while masturbating (solo)? Where are they now?
Oh no. Those kind of tapes have a bad habit of ending up in the wrong places.

4. Have you ever look at porn online? Have you ever posted at porn online?
Looked online? hmmm not really beside pics. Posted - oh heck no, save everyone the anguish of it all.

5. Do you send/receive dirty email jokes and pictures?
Some, not as much as when I was working in an office -how wrong is that! ha! I have asked people in the real world not to send that stuff to me anymore, I was getting too many viruses on my computer.

Bonus: Have you ever told someone they were good in bed when they weren't?
Of course I have. (Back in the day, not since I have "grown up") I don't know if I sold the idea though. But, I imagine people have done the same to me.

I am trying to write something for the group post tomorrow. I haven't had much inspiration this week though *wink* so am having a hard time hacking it out. It might be up tomorrow...or not.



pic from art or porn

Tentative, Hesitant, Excitement

Tentative, Hesitant, Excitement ... that is what I am feeling right now.

My b.Friend and I are discussing a trip this Fall. Flights are priced low and hotels are offering deals. I have been stashing $100 bills away here and there (over many years) yes honey grilled cheese and hot dogs this week - there just weren't any good sales at the grocery ;) as I pocket a few extra bills...

But I realized this morning on my a.m. walk that I am nervous, hesitant really. I suppose it is that except for a trip or two to Colorado to visit a friend I have never traveled alone (yes I am going with my friend but I mean without my hubby.)

My friend has been to this location before (and me for a one day lay over). Plus my friend is an excellent trip planner (which I am NOT). So, the trip itself I am not nervous about. It is the idea. Getting in the car and kissing my family good bye. Waking in the morning to just myself. No hubby, no family..... My hubby at home to tend to the family (which he is capable of doing don't get me wrong!) but it will be during the school year and there will be after school to deal with for three of the sprouts and 4 days of child care for the youngest who is still at home.

My kids are used to my hubby being gone. Me, no.... I am their constant. Do I feel guilty? hmmmmmmm... NOPE I don't - I know that I have earned this trip, I deserve this trip, and I truly could spend more money on a weekend to our state capital shopping and doing a girl's weekend. I also know that the point a mom starts feeling guilty about something she is doing - it usually is because she is doing something for herself.

After a 15.5 year relationship with the same person who has always served as my traveling buddy and my GPS unit I find it odd and unnerving to be planning a trip that does not involve him.

Oh, yeah, I'm not planning it - my friend is.
I guess I will serve as the entertainment :)

It is just the expectation of what could be, what could happen, and of being on my own.

side note - my friend is female, and just my friend- a girl's getaway if you will

Who could ask for more?

"We went out last night...
like we swore we wouldn't do
drank too much [Windsor]
last night A lot
more then we wanted too."
Kenny Chesney

I went out last night - girls night out. I had a BLAST! We started with appetizers and ended at an Irish pub where they had open mic night. I had about 2 too many very strong Windsor/7s, Leaving my van in town and hitching a ride home with my friend. Hubby was waiting at the door for me to finish the night off right. It was the perfect ending to a birthday celebration.

This was one of my gifts from my b.friend.
Who could ask for a better friend?
She is a she, and she is a great photographer
(I can hear her in my head saying she doesn't photograph people well-
but she is obviously making an exception for me).
I can not wait to see what comes out of this session,
and I hope you will enjoy them too ;)

HNT - Birthday Suit

It's my birthday today (Wednesday).
For the first time in a few years I don't feel like this day is aging me.
I feel better then I did the year before and
especially better then I did four years ago
when I had an infant.

So, I thought I would take up a request and show you my birthday suit.

It is actually my hubby's suit coat
which to me makes it that much sexier.
Maybe I'll wear it tonight for him
(for a moment anyway...until it slips to the floor)

Downhill Slide

It is my birthday. Yep Yep Yep!

I am so excited for this birthday, which just cracks me up. I would not have believed 10 years ago that I would feel this good on the downhill slide of my 30's.

First if you haven't been over to NV's bloggy spot go. For those of you who don't know (and who doesn't) you can find it here. Honestly I think no matter what gift I get today (unless it is a NikonD60) I couldn't ask for a better gift... thanks man- *wiping yet another tear away*...

Now onto my post- short and sweet.

I feel really really good today.

I was looking back at pictures from the past four years. I have come to realize that I actually feel younger and better now then I did just just 4 short years ago. Granted, I no longer have a newborn- and my kids are not as physically demanding anymore. After all I had two in diapers for yeeeeeaaars (now enters the mental games and emotional crud!) But I feel so good today! After scanning through some pics, I see (in my never to be humble opinion) that I look better for sure! see pic ----> from 10/04 yikes does that scream mom or what !!!! Why did I think then that I needed to look like a mom? Didn't I think the four kids under the age of 5 that constantly trailed me was a big enough give away? :) Seriously though - today is going to be a good day. (in big part to all of you)

I don't really have much to say today other then that little blip. So, until tonight when I reveal my b-day suit.... I'll be in the hammock.

Questions Asked, Questions Answered

Sage tagged me yesterday- so here we go. Stay around after these question because I also answered the TMI questions... so many questions so few answers


The rules:1. Respond and rework; answer the questions on your blog, replace one question that you dislike with a question of your invention, add one more question of your own.2. Tag other people.Sounds simple enough, right?

What is your current obsession?
Blogging

What are you wearing today?
Jean shorts, white shirt, bball cap, Keen sandals

What’s for dinner?
It is a running (to activities) night ... so probably Spaghetti, it's quick.

What would you eat for your last meal?
Huevos Rancheros from the BlueJay in Sawpit, CO

What are you listening to right now?
Birds, two red squirrels fighting, scooby doo is drifting up from downstairs, and the song Sideways on the radio.

If you could go anywhere in the world for the next hour, where would you go?
To the top of a 14'er.

Which language do you want to learn?
Sign language. I took the beginner class when my youngest was little. He went mute for a year. But, I didn't keep it up.

What do you love most about where you currently live?
Summers and early Fall. How green things are.
How diverse our town is - you can have someone in a cowboy hat next to someone with dreadlocks chatting downtown
Also the strong work ethic and set of morals that I am able to raise my kids in.

What style is your current home decorated in?
hmmmm... ummm.. my style? How would you explain it? Warm/Comfort... that would describe it. Put your feet up and sink into the couch style. A bit American country. (Also there is only one white wall in my house.)

If you had to choose between being beautiful/hot or smart, which would you choose?
Personality trumps looks every time. A lot of beautiful people get ugly quick when they open their mouth!

What is your favorite color?
White. For sure. Second is Red.

What is your favorite piece of clothing in your own wardrobe?
Not much of a clothes hog... however, I am a girl so- My levi's. Definetly. Second would be a white shirt.

What were you doing ten years ago?
Wow - this is interesting to think about. I was pregnant for the first time. Working as an insurance agent. We were building our house, and it was a HOT summer.

If you had $300 now, what would you spend it on?
If I had to spend it I would go somewhere - a little trip.

What are you going to do after this?
Showering. Sit on the deck and watch the birds. Clean the basement, finish the laundry.

What are your favorite films? I don't have a consistent favorite. I like new releases.

Your favorite books? Same with books. I don't re-watch or reread things very often. There is just so much out there - how can you not look for the next good thing? I have favorite authors. Sparks, Karon, Pilcher, Albom, McCall Smith, Picoult...etc

Do you collect anything?
Not anymore, I don't have a long enough attention span I swear. I get bored with things easily. Plus I can't sink money into things that just sit.

What makes you follow a blog?
If it makes me laugh or think. If the blogger's personality shine through and it just seems to click. I also like learning about people outside of my norm - so other countries, or parts of the US

What was the most enjoyable thing you did today?
Went for a walk this a.m. it is beautiful out. Got to talk to another adult during the walk -yippy (still early though)

Ann's Question:What makes you comment on a blog?
Typically if I read a post I comment. I feel like it is stopping at someone's house and not telling them you were there if you don't comment.

Amy's Question:What is your favorite thing to do when you have some free time?
Read, watch movies, blog surf

Annissa's Question: As you know I home school -- If you could would you? Do you agree with homeschooling?
I totally agree with home schooling. We have a huge home school community where I live.
I could home school but chose not to - my patience level is not high enough.

Tonya's Question: What is a talent you wished you had?
I wish I had a singing voice, or even close to one... sigh- I sing, you just wouldn't want to listen.

Kyooty's Question: If you could be any other animal other then Human, what would you be?
A bird.

Carrins Question: Rush just told me that by 2042, white people will be the minority. Do you believe that? Would that be a big deal to you?
Aren't they minority already? I am not kidding. It can't be a big deal. People are people, it is what it is. I am Irish, German, Scandanavian, and who knows what else. None of us are truly "American" except pure blood Native Americans...

April TX Question: What is your favorite thing to do outdoors?
Hike, canoe, rock climb, camp.

Sage asks: Are my stunning good looks, my supreme intelligence, or my delightful charm the reason you love me so?
Nope, it is the thought of you half naked that gets me ;)

BFDreamer: What is the best trip you ever took?

I don't have people to tag - so if you want it, take it. Need a post, use this. Just let me know you did.

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And... it is TMI Tuesday.
TMI Tuesday
Come play! Get the questions each Tuesday here.

1. Where was the first place you ever had sex?
In a pick up truck.

2. How often do you lie?
I try really hard not to lie. I fib to my kids often. "No, the police officer would take mommy away if you didn't put your seat belt on."

3. If you could only be one, would you rather be smart or good looking?
You can always learn things right ? Can't always be good lookin ;)

4. Have you ever passed out or suffered memory loss from drinking too much?
Oh - yes. In college. One time I even woke up next to someone I had no recollection of, didn't even remember his name! I can tell you that because we ended up dating for years after that night (and he was beyond a gentlemen that night)

5. Top or bottom?
Who stays in one position long enough to declare top or bottom?

Bonus: Do you have any catalogs for toys/videos/lingerie delivered to your home? Not anymore. The kids get the mail now.

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Also and finally ... my blog is totally white and boring (although it is my favorite colors, not for the walls that surround me) I am trying for a blog make over - I'm telling you so you can enter too. But, don't. That would decrease my chance of winning and I really could handle winning something ;) So here is the info that you won't be using-

Rules for Isabella Snow's July blog makeover contest! Entering is easy! Just copy and paste this (entire) blurb to your blog (make sure the links still work!) and then email Isabella a link to your blog post. The contest deadline is at midnight GMT July 31. One winner will be selected the following day by a drawing of names; the name will be posted here; and the winner will be emailed, as well. A new, totally original blog will be completed within two weeks of winning. One entry per blog. *Blogger.com customization only*, see the Blogbunnie Blog Design portfolio for layout options.

There maybe you can't read it now ;) go - have a good day.

No... Really?

I am a very un-trusting person. Sorry, just am. I am going to assume this is because I have been lied to so much in my life. Maybe I look like I can't handle the truth (an initial look at me could lead you to believe this). Maybe it is easier to just make things up? I don't know. But, I am so tired of being lied to. These days the lies are small - I can't go to the movie because my child's ear hurts (really I think it will be boring), or yes that shirt looks great on you (scoff).

I can remember when it started - at least the big lies. It was the day my first boyfriend broke up with me. It was obvious he was doing so to go out with a more popular girl (long story... not gonna get into it) anyway he full out lied and I knew it. It wasn't until years later when I bumped into him in college the night before yet another one of my major surgeries that he felt guilty and confessed - "well duh dipsh*t! " was my response.

I came to dread my birthday, Valentine's day, and when a major surgery would roll around. These times inevitably (if I had one at the time) my boyfriend would break up with me. Sigh. In fact that is probably why I am even thinking about this today. My birthday is this week. It is still ingrained I guess, after countless boyfriends doing the same thing (damn them).

People still do it to me.

As a defense I started studying human behavior. I have learned to pick up on people's subtleties. I at one point was obsessed with "give aways" to lying. The twitches humans make when they lie. This is however, impossible online.

I question people all the time. I may have even done it to you. It usually "sounds" like this .... "are you really....." or "did you really......." or " No, really?"

Sorry, it is not you that I distrust. It is people in general. Especially people online (sorry, but without seeing people's faces and body language it is hard to know, and you all know that it easy to lie online)




"Yes I really am a hot 31 year old guy from Arkansa... why do you ask?" Sorry if I don't always believe you......

People aren't always what they say they are

Readjusting

It has been a weekend of family.
Hubby and kids, dog, cats.
Neighbors family returning - dog too.
A lot really.

I have pined away for months to be in this situation, surrounded by family and friends...
however, the walls got a little tight yesterday.

I found it was a little much in a short period of time.

I am not used to my actions being monitored and questioned.

I am used to working with my own internal clock - which means loafing most of the morn and hitting it hard late afternoon.

(I hate finding lost items I didn't lose)

I am definetly NOT used to computer envy.

Setting what I do and when is how it works, or at least it has for the last 3 months.

I am adjusting to the extra adult body in the house (and I am sorry (and stop being offended)that it upsets you that I jump when I see a man walking into the kitchen... be happy that I am not used to it since you haven't been around cuz that means I am used to some other man walking around the house ;)

After being stuck at home for months and months it is all a bit overwhelming jonting from place to place. I have wanted to get out - yes, but - apparently I have been locked up longer then I realize!

And good God if you throw another map in front of my face (i.e. the entire US Atlas) and ask me where we should drive on a vacation in August- I swear I will run out of the house screaming......

I am sure I sound a bit spoiled or bitchy. But, this is real. It is odd, but real. Readjusting - I guess that is what it is. By the time I get used to it, it will go back to me being alone and I will be mad at myself for not enjoying this time as much as one should.

OK - back to smiling and nodding. Parade today, rides at the carnival this afternoon - is it wrong to start drinking right around noon? It is after all a Holiday!

I am proud to be an American

God Bless The USA
by Lee Greenwood

If tomorrow all the things were gone,

I’d worked for all my life.

And I had to start again,

with just my children and my wife.

I’d thank my lucky stars,

to be livin here today.

‘Cause the flag still stands for freedom,

and they can’t take that away.

And I’m proud to be an American,

where at least I know I’m free.

And I wont forget the men who died,

who gave that right to me.

And I gladly stand up,

next to you and defend her still today.

‘Cause there ain’t no doubt I love this land,

God bless the USA.

From the lakes of Minnesota,

to the hills of Tennessee.

Across the plains of Texas,

From sea to shining sea.

From Detroit down to Houston,

and New York to L.A.

Well there's pride in every American heart,

and its time we stand and say.

That I’m proud to be an American,

where at least I know I’m free.

And I wont forget the men who died,

who gave that right to me.

And I gladly stand up,

next to you and defend her still today.

‘Cause there ain’t no doubt I love this land,

God bless the USA.

And I’m proud to be and American,

where at least I know I’m free.

And I wont forget the men who died,

who gave that right to me.

And I gladly stand up,

next to you and defend her still today.

‘Cause there ain’t no doubt I love this land,


God bless the USA.


Never heard it? Listen here


(warning - it could make you cry!)

HNT - My Pussy

I am in a scramble to get this HNT post up.
I am not sure where the week went.
Maybe it is the fact that the sun was shining today, and we went for a stroll downtown.
Maybe it is just that time of year where time gets lost on us.
Maybe it is the fact that I don't keep a calender.
It is what it is.

So, this week
no fluff, not frills,
no long drawn out post.
(stop clapping)

Just my hnt pic -

My Pussy


I know you wanna see it!
Go ahead - look it's in there

Click to get a better view

Don't forget to go
see the rest
at O's

A secret.....

My secret to drawing attention?

Self Confidence.
(not to be confused with cockiness or self glorification)
Some days it is faked, some days it is real.

But, walk with your head up.
Look like you have a purpose.
Smile.
Let your hair bounce, give a flip - oh, go ahead!
Don't fumble, don't fidget - do all that in the car before you get out.
Make every movement intentional.
Look people in the face as you meet them on the street, then slowly look away with a small smile.
Shoulders back.
Notice things around you, but not as though you are afraid of them.

The extra sway in your step follows naturally.

Men and women are that much more appealing if they are not folded up inside themselves as they walk. Give it a try. Fake it till you make it. Good things will come when you exude self confidence