Monthly mental health episode

So it’s occurred to me that maybe my therapist was right that staying single would eventually be bad for my mental health. I keep ruminating over certain injustices, and not even the ones you might think. I’m ruminating over a small injustice,  the way men ruminate over their crushes and affairs…. And you could say…

Is your ptsd military related?

My dad was in the navy, but When they caught him smoking weed They discharged him, doped him up With psych drugs in a military hospital. Uncle Arthur felt bad for him, Took him up to Canada for a while. The marines are posting tributes To my ‘war hero’ Uncle Arthur, My cousin’s dad who…

Alone

Once I read a story about a homeless girl Cuddling up with a stranger behind a Dumpster, lest they both freeze to death. It occurs to me that if I were A skinny bony boy-girl like April Blair I would freeze to death right now. I feel like there’s a correlation, too– The skinnier a…

Cold snap

The colder it is outside The longer the water will take to boil And actually, anything electric Might just not work at all, So I watch the kettle, worried It’ll crap out, Luke warm. By the way, who was Luke? Why is warm named after him? I cover my Nalgenes with polar fleece And wrap…

Stress of the week

Yesterday was my deadline to submit my evidence to the EEOC regarding a certain concessionaire. My rebuttal was about fifteen pages, times new roman, single space. I submitted about 75 articles of evidence including government contracts, photos, videos, screenshots, voicemails, transcriptions, etc. I had sent my friend a draft of my rebuttal and he said,…

Wrong decisions

He’s not the type to let things go Or let anyone get a jab in Without a response So when I ask him If it was worth saving A few hundred dollars a month To look into his daughter’s eyes And see that she’s high all the time, Was it worth it? And he says…

Rest in Karma

Uncle Arthur died My sister thinks it’s creepy How he’s remembered Primarily for Military achievements When he had eight kids. No one wrote a post That said he was a great dad. I say, “That checks out.”

Easy

Cold seeps through my skin Like a knife perforating Microwaved butter Disorganized thoughts Swim around my brain, can’t catch A damned one, can’t catch…

P.s.

The reason No one invites you To No Kings Protests is Because you’re a corrupt snitch, Lying hypocrite.

Willamette

Scrub jays look Extra royal blue Against green Ivy vines Wet with morning river dew Along the bike path Ferns drip from Decomposed branches Sun deprived For so long They’ve died, reincarnated Into new life forms Snowberries Shine deceptively Black hemlock Lattices Beautifully, like Queen Anne’s Lace Pretty; poisonous Brown, yellow Skunkweed skeletons Coat fallen…