Friday, August 12, 2011
在我人生最潦倒时。。。每次都会想起他， 记得他曾经对我说的话。。那是很久很久的对话了。。现在都没机会听了。。有时我在想。。如果他还在的话。。他会对我说些什么来安慰我呢?
我会很伤心很伤心， 但不会很久。
人跌到了。。那算什么。。
Y7:08 AM
Thursday, August 11, 2011
recently i am troubled, troubled by lots of things which i cant lay the things down on the table and get everything analysed.
troubled with work, troubled by the poeple at work, troubled by my own emotions, the good one sometimes the not so great one.
it;s hard to get things across to people, everyone has their own issues, so i thought about writting it down like i used to do back in medical school, like how penning down my thoughts actually helped to make me felt better, like things were getting more crystal clear, while writing it down, it helped to make me see what i actually wanted.
someone once said about the 2 year housemanship, it took her 1 year to complete her housemaship and another 1 year to see the unprotected world, the more challenging world, the more unpampered world, which she had done most of things which made her so confident while she found that we the batch of 2 year housemanship were a little bit afraid, scared, inconfident and incompetent.
that words struck me, coz i am seriously having this confidence crisis. i know i can do far better, but i didnt dare to bring myself further...
recently i am facing lots stress at work..sometimes when i woke up from stress, i was so tight up thinking holy crap how could i woke up late only to realise that was a weekend and i am free from work... it happened more often recently...
today is friday and tml i am gonna work on call. am so gonna spend today wisely=)
Y10:15 PM
