It has taken me more than a year to write this blog post. I’ll explain why later, but it seems appropriate to publish it today, the last day of Baby Loss Awareness Week. From 7pm tonight, across the world, there is a virtual #waveoflight in memory of all babies that have died too soon. Do join in if you want to remember Sam.

Last year, we rode three 100-mile bike rides to raise money for the Neonatal Intensive Care Unit at the Rosie Hospital, Cambridge, where Sam spent his short life. If you would like to donate to support the incredible work they do, there is a fund in Sam’s memory.
The first Big Ride was 100 miles around Cambridgeshire, revisiting routes that Rachael and I use to ride when we lived there. You can read about that ride in my last blog post.

Our second Big Ride was the weekend of my and my brother’s 30th birthday, so we cycled from Bristol (where Uncle Hugh lives) to Reading. We started through the quiet very-early-morning streets of Bristol, before joining the Bristol and Bath Railway Path, an off-road route through beautiful countryside. The ride was, unsurprisingly, more uphill than in Cambridgeshire, starting with the largest hill of the day out of Bath and away from the River Avon, rewarded by a break shortly afterwards in Melksham where our support crew, Rachael and Granny Jean, provided bacon sandwiches with a camping stove. From there we had a pretty steady pace across Wiltshire, except for two more large climbs. The first was Roundway Down by Devizes, the site of a civil war battle in 1643; I like to mix cycling and history when I can. The second was at Milk Hill, just before Marlborough, our halfway point and lunch stop.

I had thought that the most challenging part of the ride, with those three hills, was behind us – but after Marlborough we were into the North Wessex Downs. Although the profile had looked harmless when planning the route, traveling east across these was like cycling over a giant furrowed field, with sharp rise following sharp rise. The Downs are lovely countryside, but a strain on the legs. It was something of a relief to roll down off the Downs into the Loddon valley, another scenic (and rather flatter) stretch to the south of Reading which Rachael and I have enjoyed exploring since we moved here. We took the last climb up into Reading itself quite gently, pausing only to fix the one puncture of the day in the very last mile, and finished at the University of Reading campus.

For the last of our Big Rides we joined the first Velo Birmingham. It was great to finish in this huge event, with over 15,000 riders. The atmosphere was terrific, especially as it took place on closed roads. The route, from Broad Street in Birmingham, through Worcestershire and Staffordshire, and back to the middle of the city, was very much our family’s own turf, but it was quite a different experience to ride those roads without any traffic and with thousands of other cyclists. At every village there was an impressive and very cheerful turnout of people who had come to watch, and that really helped us to speed around too.

The high point (literally and figuratively) was St Kenelm’s Pass, in the Clent Hills, as we headed back into Birmingham. These hills were one of Rachael’s favourite places as a child, and the pass is a hefty slope; hitting it at the 90-mile mark also meant that all the springy early energy was long gone. I was worrying about getting over it all the way round. When we did face it, though, I found that it was a lot easier than I had expected – the two other Big Rides and the many hundreds of training miles had clearly paid off. With evening falling, and knowing that nothing worse awaited us after that, we took it easy and were soon rolling over the finish line, to be greeted with medals and beers.
In 2016, the year we began fundraising, we rode 500 miles in total, but on smaller rides. In 2017 we took on these three challenges, each tougher than the last, and we did it – we even got faster on each ride.
Each of these three Big Rides was, in a different way, about going home. Cambridge was where Rachael and I lived, and where we met Sam. Bristol and Reading are Uncle Hugh’s home and my home. The West Midlands is where our family are from.
We spent all of our time in the NICU in Cambridge dreaming about the day we could take Sam home. The wonderful staff there, and in Great Ormond Street Hospital, did their best to make that happen, but we never got to take him home. That hurts. It always will.
Earlier this year, Rachael and I had a second son, Benjamin. He was also born a little early, but he came home after only a week in the Royal Berkshire Hospital. Once again, we are so grateful to the wonderful medical staff who looked after him and us. He has been doing well ever since. We haven’t been cycling so much, but we have plans for next year. In the meantime, we are focusing on the joy that he brings us, and our memories of Sam.

















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