Heart X Mind

I’m Closing this blog.

Because it’s the end of some chapter in my life.

Let me tell you this thing straight 🙂

I still love you, no matter what. I can’t lie to my own eyes about how i see about you; how i glance about you; how i stare about you. Everyone… they seem to know about my eyes.

But then again, we can’t be, because… (i am very sad and devastated that) we are not supposed to be by God Almighty. Deep in my prays, i hope someday… that He, who never sleep, who always hear, who always see, who bring the justice… will grant my prayer. That… i can be your Imam, days in and out, nights in and out. Father from your children… and friend forever till God… calling one of us to His place. Be a savior from all of your problem… with His help.

But then again, my minds… they knew it is never gonna happen. You said that you try, and… you pick another man which i knew you still in love with. I try, but i failed because His decision. God… Even i am totally broken down, I have to be fine with that, as long as she is the most  happiest girl that i ever know, then that is the way to show my heart.

Forgive us God… for whatever sin that we ever made… and forgive us… for not trying so hard to show you that we could make it.

I am a human who believe in You. So i trusted You to guide me, to guide her, everything that is best for us. Deep in my heart, a pray about a girl… is always sing it out loud to You 🙂 Amin