To my surprise I found myself interested in the new mayor’s inauguration. Even more surprising is I feel safer now that he’s in office.

I get it now, why people across the country took to him and felt some hope in his primary race victory and candidacy.

I think it’s very possible the quality of life will decline here, partly due to the mayor’s inexperience and partly due to those who want him to fail. Nonetheless, now that he’s in, I’m in too. For the city’sake, for the country’s sake, may humane, rational initiatives succeed.

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I don’t know what has come over me. It’s like I was in a loving, supportive, enlightened place and, without warning, have been inserted into a cold, small world.

I’ve noticed my mind has wandered lately to political people and events. I don’t think I’ve been much more exposed to the news. I, in fact, have resumed browsing a site lately that I had taken a break from. I doubt that’s the cause of this shift.

Anyone else experiencing somethung odd, or is everything humming along as normal?

When I look back at it, I don’t know how I got out of it, a depression-like thing in the plane of existence. The emergence looks like a miracle.

Make a little effort and really look … ah, yes, the YT videos, the eventual boredom, the slow laying of a foundation … I remember.

The rebuilding of my life continues.

Something I do occasionally is let my mind wander. It’s relaxing. And it opens the mind … whatever comes up, take a look.

Recently I had two deadly images appear. It didn’t feel scary, though. If it meant anything, I suspect it was the end of myself or life as I knew it. It was a wiping of the slate.

I see it now … the lucky moments, the good fortune I’ve had.

I’ve struggled this week. Some to-do items haven’t been done.

Setting the clocks back was a mistake. It’s better to wake up before dawn and watch the light come in than to feel like you’re eating dinner at midnight.

The short days are frightening. I don’t dwell on it. Being busy helps.

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Since I began keeping an eye on calories and protein intake, I’ve been feeling better. I’m conscious of getting over 1,000 calories each day. It’s not that easy but it’s doable. I’ve thought to myself at times, it’s like I’m learning how to eat.

I’ve been taking my recommended supplements regularly too, particularly the vitamin D3. At this point, I’ve accepted the likelihood I’ll take that supplement for the rest of my life.

My energy level is better. My mind is a little sharper too. The calories are working.

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I didn’t realize we were setting the clocks back today. My devices adjusted autonomously without notice and I wouldn’t have known if I hadn’t seen a blog post about the time change. I did notice I felt very refreshed for waking at such an early hour and the morning light was quite bright. The senses are still sharp.

I also didn’t realize the marathon was today. I hadn’t seen a single word about it prior to 5 minutes ago.

Weird … It’s true I don’t follow the news closely or regularly but “big” moments usually find their way to my screen.

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For my sake, I think I’ll post more regularly even though I don’t really have anything to say. I’m quite isolated – I’m not complaining – but I think it’d be healthier if there was a bit more interaction somehow. The occasional comment here has been healthy, so it’s one of the ways. No pressure on any visitor here.

I don’t have any kind of circle in person. There are groups I participate in when I feel like it, and there are ways to meet people, but I just don’t form relationships. Truth is, at this point, I have no desire to meet people. I can’t even imagine making a friend.

That’s all for now. Time sure has been flying these past two days. Is it just me?

Hope you’re okay, friend. What’s going on in your neck of the woods? Please let me know how you are if you feel like sharing.

Besides checking in, the other purpose of this post is shopping-related. I’d really like to find an alternative to the big e-tailer that starts with an A, particularly a place that sells organic food items. I’ve tried to look at Th**ve Market but they don’t allow the public to browse. Forcing people to create an account just to look around is very off-putting. Do you use that site, or have reliable information about it? Generally, do you recommend or dislike any online site offering organic items?

The next item I’m looking for is a calorie tracking app. Do you use one?

I’d like to put on some healthy weight and I think I haven’t been getting enough calories in general. This has been going on for some time.

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I’ve f-ed up. Probably. As a result, I have an appointment with hematology oncology in a few weeks for investigation.

I’ve already talked to my body. Expressed gratitude .. love .. and apologized. Slacking is unacceptable. I must be mindful about nutrition. I must eat on time and adequately.