It has been really a tough week for me since I’ve been depressed with my UPCAT result. Some may see this as over but, man, you probably have no idea on how head over heels I am for UP especially Diliman. Ever since I realized what I really want to take, which is BS Physics, I swore that I’ll do anything to make it to National Institute of Physics – UP Diliman. My parent’s didn’t agree of my UP dreams before [because they want me to keep the family’s La Sallian “fire” burning] but nothing could hold me back from this goal of mine. And later on, they had learned to accept that it’s UP that I really want.
It was really disheartening not to see my name on the list. I cried the whole night thinking how I should settle for my Plan B already. I have seen this beforehand but you can’t really resist the feeling when shit really happens face to face. The next day, I didn’t go to school because I am really in a bad shape and thank God, my parents understood how I felt. Not just only that, I also have errands to do — it was a fucking journey that I’ve been into just to send my application forms to CA, USA.
I am really thankful to my parents for just letting me go through this shit without any disturbances, yeah understanding parentals. Also to my friends who were there, love you gaiz. Oh, good thing my schedule is packed; I’ll have enough time to get through this heartbroken era.
Right now, I’m kind of doing fine aside from struggling with where I would/should enter for college. I’m thinking of choosing between DLSU and ADMU, however, the catch is that I am waitlisted in ADMU. My slot isn’t guaranteed a hundred percent but yeah I got to give it a shot so I’ll be going there on Saturday to pass my appeal. I hope to get my first preferred choice in ADMU. Heaven, please listen to my prayers. Wish me the best of luck haha.
I’m struggling because I know that I want to be in ADMU (if it wasn’t UP) but I feel like La Salle is calling my name out loud amidst the bustling road in Taft. I’m scared of the Taft life because it literally means tough for me. Knowing that my cousins have been there, the expectations from our family would just keep going and I hate that.
Sigh, if only I passed the UPCAT then I wouldn’t be thinking this much. Lol just kidding. All in all, I’m still thankful despite my UP downfall. I know it better that God has bigger and better plans for me.
College, don’t come way too fast, please? Let me get myself ready first.