I’ve deleted the Twitter app from my phone, and I’ve deactivated my Facebook.

I’m working right now as I write this.

And I’ve also deleted Twitter from my phone. It honestly was pointless for me. I was follower/following ratio was 1:2. Not that I was looking for a billion followers, but a ratio that was closer would have been nice. The only times I got any recognition, was if I jumped into a thread. Anyways, I still have my account, just limited access to it.

Women. That’s something else that I have limited access to. Lol. Not much going on there, so no point in talking about it.

Money. That’s starting to straighten out. So I should be getting ahead finally.

*shrugs* Not much else…

Hey. So I said I was going to write more. I was thinking of doing at least a post a week. On Saturdays.

It’s now Wednesday. And this is my second post.

I’m a horrible liar, and you should hate me.

So, I’m not much of a Starbucks fan, but they’re basically the only coffee shop open on my way home from work. So sometimes I stop in and grab a cup. There’s one barista (? Workers are called baristas there?) that consistently gives me extremely cheap coffee. I mean, one time I was charged $.54 for a large dark roast. It’s usually about $2.89(?). Another time, $2.15(?) but I think the manager was working. She’s also mentioned a specific bar in the area, and commented on my septum piercing. She’s very cute, but not exactly the body type that I’m looking for. (Hey, I have my preferences and reasons.) I don’t know too much about her, so, a stop down to the preferred bar may be a good idea.

There’s another chicky that I’ve been chatting with, but she just got out of a relationship. She’s definitely cool, and into me, but she’s just trying to focus on herself right now. She’s more of the body type I’m looking for, but… for reasons, she’s not really an ideal match. And she’s brought this up. So I can respect that.

Anyways, that’s post 2.

Kinda fell off of the blogging habit last year.

This year, I’m in a new apartment, so I’m looking to make some changes with myself. These aren’t resolutions. Resolutions set you up for failure. Too much pressure to change. And then you mess up one day, and then you basically fall off the band wagon.

1: No more drinking before noon.

2: Only play scratch offs from change after a purchase. No more cash for tickets only. Plus, play them after walking out of the store. If I win, cash in and walk away with the winnings. (Exception: found money is not in the budget, can blow it.)

3: Plan food/meals better. I don’t have money to be ‘grabbing something’ at the corner store. (This would also cause me to waste money that I didn’t have.)

4: Have 1 meal out each week. There’s enough restaurants/pubs in my area, that I would have a good choice for a while, and never eat at the same place.

I think these are reasonable goals, and they should be easy to stick to.

I always have these ideas, to do things, that could potentially bring in some extra cash. My cash flow is good, but a little more never hurts. But my main issue is my absolute lack of motivation. Chronic depression, along with situations that add to my depression, don’t help. So I do nothing, and get more depressed. Yay, the downward spiral!

I try to reach out to people, but, there’s the point that no one reaches out to me. An very occasional post shared with me, but that’s basically the extent. Some replies too, but… It always seems to be reactions, instead of actions.

So yeah, that’s where I’m at.

This one is just awesome.

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I’m alone.

I’m depressed.

I have no one to talk to.

I don’t know if I will have a place to live at the end of the month.

And, I have no place to go to, if I need to move.

Besides that, everything else sucks.

My job overworks me, so I can’t look for another one. Part of that is my own fault, as I volunteer for extra OT. But it’s not like I have anything else to do.

Oh yeah, just turned 39 last week too… I got 6 ‘happy bdays’ on my birthday, and a few after the fact. yay.

I still have nothing to show for my life this far, and I don’t really see a way to get to where I ‘would like to be’ either.

But hey, at least I’m still alive… Right?😃🔫

Hey all, just want to let you know that I’m still alive. Not much has been going on in my life to require a post, so this is why I’ve been quiet on here. Also, I’m trying to get over my seasonal depression, on top of just regular depression, so there’s that too.

Work is still going well, and I’m starting to get somewhat better with things. My love life is still a joke, but working on that. I just got to get out a little earlier to catch a bus…

And as always, I have a business idea or two floating around in my head.

Besides that, not much else going on.

Like, nothing nothing. I barely ate. I talked with no one. I just sat on my bed and did nothing except for play games on my phone.

There was stuff that I’ve been putting off, that needs to get done. But, no motivation to do anything. I had to force myself to go out and get laundry done.

Yes, I know the why. It’s just doing something about it. But, lack of motivation.

OkCupid and Tinder.

After years on the two apps, I deleted them.

I had had one date off of them and only a handful of matches. So, they were just taking up space on my phone.

I just don’t understand what women are looking for.

Seriously.

Whatever it is, I’m not it.

Whatever…