Getting Real With Autism

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Well folks, how d’ya like that?

I was successfully able to get this entry up today, as I’d hoped to do! Even better, it was earlier this week–shortly before work, I believe–that I finally managed to come up with the title for it, too….but we’ll get to that.

Before we get to even the Updates worth discussing, I want to give you an even more important update that January….might even be crazier than last month and this month has been, with the reason for that being that the weekends that month will be overloaded with games, at the school I work at….to the point where I may be actually working all day Saturday and Sunday, two weekends in a row.

Yes, I know, it sounds exhausting, and like a lot of work….y’know what else it is? Time and half pay on Saturday, and double on Sunday!!!!!!!!!!!

My point is….things may be wacky for a bit of a duration, between trying to figure out my new schedule, and taking on all these games, and I’m gonna get into what I view as the importance about what I’m taking on as I get into the Updates, before the Feature Presentation; but yeah….I ain’t holding out on you folks, I’ve just been utterly slammed, and pretty much expect that thru January.

Now that we got that out of the way, I want to take a moment to announce we have a new blog subscriber, and I’d like to welcome them, and also thank them so much for joining!

That out of the way, let’s get to the Updates, and from there, we’ll get to the Feature Presentation; we’ll start with more “minor” Updates before building up to the juicy stuff….cool? If I sound a smidge on the discombobulated side, well….you see how late I’m already starting this entry, cause of everything else I had to navigate today before I started–including something I’m gonna bring up here, as well–and I also have the guinea pig cage to clean tonight, so yeah…..I’m kinda tired, and could use some rest, but my intuition is really pushing me to get this one up, and I really want to.

So first and foremost, I want to announce that I have now officially rewatched Sesame Street’s “Follow That Bird” after 40 years; I made a mistake when I previously mentioned it, and stated I saw it in 84, when I was 2….and don’t remember it, as a result. Actually…..I was off by a year, and the reason I didn’t remember seeing it when I was 3 in 1985 was…..it actually did very little for me this time around, either.

Well, while I was at work, I figured out why; yes, I know it has a rating of over 80% on Rotten Tomatoes, but if there’s one thing I always loved about the Muppets was–despite being for preschoolers–Sesame Street always had an “edge” to it; you didn’t feel like your intellect was being insulted while watching it, and as a result, felt really good passing it on to the next generation, and in the process they would feel a bit cool watching it too.

My money is on they figured “oh shit, this is going to movie theaters, let’s tone it down a bit“, and yeah…..it feels toned down from its edge, to me. I mean, some is still there, but at most you have your recognizable characters, and Oscar managing the bulk of the “edginess”. Honestly, like one scene in the movie was executed in a way that viewers of any age could appreciate….and I also thought it was kinda cool that what was very likely the base model for Fraggle Rock’s Uncle Traveling Matt was used in the movie, but outside of that, I found myself underwhelmed, and audiences didn’t take to it at the box office too well in 1985 either, incidentally enough.

You may be wondering why I bothered to rewatch it again after all these years, anyway?

My intuition screamed at me to do it……and we’re gonna get into that, in the Feature Presentation.

However, let’s first get to the next update…and this is something I even brought up on both Twitter and IG:

I’ve discussed in the past about how Normies glamourizing Harley Quinn and Terra from DC Comics (Batman and Teen Titans, respectively) is both a terrible idea, and a huge mark on their claim about ability to pick up on body language….well, we now have another contender from DC Comics as well, also from the Batman Universe:

District Attorney Harvey Dent AKA Two Face

Harvey is viewed as another “tragic villain”, because he’s sold to us as being as clean-cut, and devoted to justice as they come, only for Batman to in the process lose one of the best things that could possibly happen to the Gotham City Justice System, when he falls, and Two Face rises back up in his place; there were even multiple episodes of Batman: The Animated Series, featuring Harvey about to get his severed face reconstructed, and “big bad Harv” being eliminated by the staff at Arkham Asylum…..so many thought “if only…..imagine all the good he could have done!”

Welp, I hate to burst your bubble, but a comic book called “Batman 89” which takes place following the events of Batman Returns–and yes, as I understand, it is considered canon, even featuring the likenesses of Billy Dee Williams, Michelle Pfeiffer, Michael Gough, and more–basically blows all that to shit.

Commissioner Gordon has this amazing speech toward the end of the book where he lays out a little detail about Harvey that, until he so eloquently puts it out, ya wouldn’t fully consider it….but once ya do, ya can’t help but look back, and realize it pretty much showed thru in every single incarnation.

Gordon lays out that Harvey Dent is actually an opportunistic coward.

Yeah, he seems all suave, smooth, and put-together….until some shit really hits the fan, and then he winds up freezing up, and going to the comfort of his lucky coin to proceed further.

In fact, think back to The Dark Knight, for a moment:

First, a thug pulls a gun on Harvey in the middle of a court room, and Harvey punches him in the face, and takes the gun. How the hell the thug got the gun in the court room to begin with…..makes me question a lot of things already about the Gotham PD….but for Harvey’s immediate reaction to be to punch him in the face….always struck me as odd…..until his dinner later where he delivers his legendary line of “you either die a hero, or live long enough to see yourself become the villain”; listen to it again, and see if you notice a stammer when being pressured for a response that elicits what he says; he sounds like he’s getting frustrated, when delivering that line…..which indicates he really doesn’t have the answers, and sooner or later, he’s borderline a stones-throw from pulling out the coin.

Yeah…..that’s the guy I trust to be the DA of a city so corrupt they need Commissioner Gordon teaming up with Batman to take down all the rogues out to bring it to its knees. I…..do not see a “tragic” villain here; I see the opportunistic coward; everything’s just going great….until the moment it isn’t, and he goes Two Face on everyone’s ass, bodily scarring or not.

And these are the characters we’re told to sympathize with, and as tragic. Hrrmmm…..ya starting to understand better why you don’t gel as well with the Normies as you may wish you did? Oh, and did I mention…..when I brought this up on either social media, or a group chat, the response was “but it’s still better than the other options”.

I rest my case.

That out of the way, let’s now get to the heavier Updates, and how they lead right into the Feature Presentation:

So as I stated in my last Update, I’ve been driving to stores all over trying to find a good new place to get the guinea pigs their veggies, and I said I might have found a store in Clyde, as they said they could order the endives that the piggies love so much.

Well they absolutely did, and I got them……and it turns out I hate their lettuce selection. They also don’t carry the water I like to buy, either…..and I have to drive over at least two train tracks to get into the town. You may be wondering the issue with that last part; well, if you’re not living in the Midwest, you don’t know how long trains can be, or how slow they can be.

Yeah.

So basically, my options for the moment appear to be either get half of what I want in Clyde, and the other half in Genoa, or stick with Norwalk for the immediate moment, as well as grabbing the veggies at the place in Toledo I like next weekend before I head in for the game, and then figure something out from there; so….yeah I’m going with the latter, for the moment.

Next up, let’s talk about a bit of shift in my diet that came as a result of a health scare that started just before my first day at the new job:

Something came up literally the weekend before I began my new job, and I was advised to consume a lot of fiber for it….and I realized likely part of the reason this scare even happened from the get-go was that I was internalizing a lot of stress at my previous job that I wasn’t even aware of. Well, I consumed a lot of fiber, alright….to the point where blood was coming out of places it shouldn’t.

Relax, relax…..I got it under control, and rather quickly; basically, one thing I noticed during my first week on the job was how little I was downing the water from my bottle, because I needed to consume so much less, again…..cause I have like 1/4 of the stress of my previous job, so my body wasn’t desperate for more water; as a result, the water I didn’t consume didn’t hydrate and dilute the fiber I was taking in, resulting in that further mess that I quickly rectified by loading up on more water.

Look, if I’m told a certain something is needed to rectify a situation, you damn well better believe I’m gonna take that on en masse; that’s how I do.

What I realized, however, was God used this whole situation to lay something out for me that until that point I hadn’t come to terms with:

In part due to less stress on the job now, I don’t feel the need to consume as much food and drink now as my body felt the need for it in the past, so God was letting me know how my dietary needs are changing now, and how I won’t need to eat or buy as much food as I used to….and you know what’s so great about that, dear readers?

That money can go towards gas for my car, since–much like when I worked at Wal-Mart 25 years ago–I drive a lot more, and a lot further, to get to my new job. So, this is where the next Update comes in…..

I’ve recently been noticing several parallels to my work situation from back then, with my new employer–understandably so–but at the same time, parallels in a different way, due to how I’m reacting to them….and yes, I would say 25 years of life experience definitely makes that difference.

First off, I’m not even entirely sure I’m buying gas as frequently as I did back then. Maybe I am, maybe I’m not, but I’m not sure as of yet. Even if I am though, I’m strategizing my gas purchases a lot more thoroughly, to not only make the drives more efficient, but so that my bank account feels a more “streamlined” sense of it, and is much happier in the process, as well.

I also notice times where I’ll have issues on the road with other drivers that remind me of experiences from that time, but again…..I react differently to it now. I even learned a new aggressive driving technique, in the process, in regards to lane switches!

And you know what? The parallels don’t end with the gas and the experiences on the road either! Last night, the women who were working the cafeteria at the school as the game was finishing asked me if I wanted a slice of pizza; I said “sure, do you have some for my coworker as well?”, and they basically offered me the remainder of a box that they couldn’t sell; I happily took it, thanked them, they apologized for the mess that was made due to the game, and I simply responded “hey, that’s what they pay us for, right?”

Think back to what I stated in this entry; I might’ve taken it, back then…but potentially very reluctantly, and not feeling like I deserved it at all; today, I have the confidence to appreciate what I’m offered, and gladly accept as necessary, and “bounce things off each other”, in ways I didn’t back then; my current job was made for me to brought in now, and it wouldn’t have worked then, as what’s presenting itself to me is clearly laying out; I sense God is trying to teach me a lot of things about perspective with all this, and I think it will be laid out more thoroughly, and just as–if not more important–as the months proceed, and hopefully by then we got more answers on a new house; in fact, my money is on God is putting me thru the ringer working all those games during January not only to load me up on funds for a down payment, but also to give me important experiences and to teach me lessons that will lead to becoming the man I need to be to maintain that house.

Before I bring up the one last remaining important Update that will lead heavily into the Feature Presentation, I wanted to share one other very interesting aspect about my new job, and how I think my observations will benefit our community, this blog, and possibly even the perspectives of the faculty at my job:

These past two weeks, I believe, we’ve had to clean up both after games, and after a band recital in the gym. I noticed a very interesting–and very stark–difference in the behavior of the parents there for sports games, and for those who have kids playing instruments, and even brought it up to the Band Teacher.

Both sets of parents were behaving and responding/reacting very differently to the presentation each time. And I realize at a Band recital, you’re not gonna see people throw popcorn, or do other stupid shit like that, but I still noticed a major energetic difference that translated between both sets of parents…body language and behavior. Not that one was better than the other or anything, just different.

I wanted to state it to give you folks a better idea of observations I’m making at the school that I likely could not have made at the hospital, and all that I’m noticing that can be used for examples to make points in future entries.

Now we get to the Update that’s going to nicely transition into the Feature Presentation, and it turns out the Update not only happened earlier today before I started doing this blog entry, but goes hand-in-hand with something that happened on Black Friday:

As stated in this Update–and if it’s not obvious why I called it what I did, I was combining Thanksgiving with Black Friday; shut up, I like it–God had Ursula send me to the mall in Sandusky to see if JC Penney had anymore of a Snoopy snow globe she didn’t even really want, just cause she thought it looked nice….and the real reason God sent me there was to give my former employer an appearance before my relocation, and to find a figure I really wanted to grab, that’s sold out everywhere.

Well, also on Thanksgiving, Ursula stated that she found a Fisher Price Little People house for Gloria for Christmas, and that it’s missing all its accessories; I told her I’d look for those accessories; though since I doubt they’re gonna pop up at Goodwill, randomly, I’ve been doing eBay searches for them. I got almost all of them shortly thereafter, with the exception of two pieces….one of which I acquired earlier today, and in going thru the seller’s other merch…….I found a good deal on an action figure I wanted, and this figure was something I’d also seen at one of the comic shops mentioned here, but was missing some vital accessories, so I passed on it at the time.

Remember how I stated in the Black Friday/Thanksgiving entry about how God was using my service to others to guide me to what I want?

Not only are those two examples laying it out perfectly, but from here….let us finally dive into the Feature Presentation, and discuss how your special interests and what you’re intuitively driven to will also do exactly that:

Let us actually first begin not with the man who gave the words that so perfectly resonated with where I’m going with my point, but the words of wrestling personality Eric Bischoff, who was recently asked about some allegations Bret Hart has been making about Vince McMahon and his sexuality, and many many other things. Now, knowing what I do today about the entertainment industry, do I absolutely think there may be something to Bret’s allegations? Yes, yes I do.

However, I don’t think Bret is entirely clean and of honorable intent when he’s bashing players and eras in the industry, either. Basically, he says he refuses to watch modern wrestling, and what he pays most attention to from “back in the day” are all his old matches. Eric Bischoff suggested that Bret Hart seems to fancy “living in the past”, because that’s where the former Hart Foundation member and WWF champion was at his peak. However, Bischoff is very quick to point out as well that Hart’s reign on top…...did not pull in the numbers for the WWF at all. I’ve stated similar in my previous entries linked, as well.

What Bret Hart complains about–I believe–goes back to a lot of the really, really terrible advice most Normies tend to give us; if it doesn’t seem to affect the other younger Normies, it’s because they either know who’s telling them doesn’t mean a word of it, or they’re NPCs, or both.

Throughout our youth, we tend to hear a lot of older folks gripe about present day circumstances, and we often feel sorry for them, and want to assist in correction, thinking maybe they’re on to something, cause…we’re young, and we don’t know any better….and we’re seeking out elders to guide us, and we’re learning now how well that actually works out, finding out that most of these people are not in alignment with us, not on the same page as we are, and couldn’t care less for the genuine results they so badly claim to, instead rewarding what we view as bad behavior and poor decisions that likely got them in that mess to begin with; this technically goes back to Bret Hart being bitter about no longer being on top, but also extends to all the other folks who gush over “how things were back then, but things have fallen so bad”, etc.

As even stated here, they don’t really want improvement, they just want their youth & glory days back, rather than trying to create new ones of the latter.

So how you may be wondering does all this fit so seamlessly into the words I recently heard that resonated with me?

The words came from Darryl Anka channeling Bashar, and he stated:

Act on your passion to do it because you love your passion, regardless of the outcome.….because you don’t know what will happen/what God intends to have happen with it.

Think back to this entry, here from the beginning of the year; I laid out in the entry how I believe the Autistic community appear to have “special interests” or borderline-obsessive passions very likely because we’re meant as Universal master manifestors for something important to come of that passion, though we don’t know what exactly is meant to come of it, or how.

Most of our lives, we’re basically taught we’re just too rigid and obsessed with that which we love “rather than trying other things”, and a lot of it has to do with not going along with societal expectations, or our parents seeing dollar signs symbolizing success for what we love instantly.

Well, it appears most of those people gaslight you over it because they’re acting out of fear and desperation for approval, and just like Bret Hart, may have seen some success out of it, but either not to the degree they thought they wanted, or if they did, their memory is too short, and they view the experience differently in hindsight, and/or didn’t fully appreciate the moment when it actually happened.

What you do all the time with your special interests and passions that manifest so much for you….you’re doing because you’re living your truth, and that which you genuinely love. Those gaslighting you never did that, and yes believe it or not, are jealous of you, deep down for it.

The thing is, as Bashar continues to explain…..your passion doesn’t guarantee any outcome; your passion is your truth about what you love, not merely a tool to get what you “think” you want, or are “supposed” to have.

If you’re looking for a specific outcome, there’s a possibility it may have been subconsciously guided by external pressures, and conversations with God/meditation will reveal to you if it’s indeed truly what you want out of what you love, or not.

Let’s go back to these two entries here, for a moment:

Did I really want to be worth millions, with mansions, yachts, international fame, limos, and the list goes on?

No I didn’t; if some of it should happen to manifest thru things that I’m already doing, that’s fine, but I don’t need any of it.

I always felt like, as a child, whatever I showed even the slightest amount of interest in, my surroundings always wanted to try and capitalize on that interest ASAP, without really giving it the proper chance to resonate for me, for me to understand the entire experience, and was more just to see me “succeed” and on their terms, and sooner than later.

Um….remind me how that went, again, when I made the Honor Roll in High School?! Yeah….I have several blog entries above laying it out, and this entry alone is laying out the difference in my mindset between now and at that time–regarding all the parallels I’m now experiencing–and how just mentally lost I was in life, compared to where I am today.

No one was bothering to guide me to help me find myself, and why I should do what I should do with my interests and capabilities….it was all just about capitalizing on them as fast as possible in any way, for some “societal approval”, or whatever; well, how well did that work for all the older folks you know griping about modern day, or–again–former wrestler Bret Hart?!

Do I have ventures I want to proceed with once I relocate? Yes I do. Are those ventures guided by my intuition? They absolutely are; do I know exactly how they’re gonna play out, if the exact goals I want to accomplish will come perfectly to fruition as I understand them now, or even the timing of it all?

Not a chance.

I know what I’m good at–or at least what people seem to appreciate that I offer–and I know what I’m passionate about, and goals I hope to achieve with those passions, but at no point can I guarantee that what I want to play out is going to play out in exactly the way I’m envisioning right now.

Back a few years ago, when I spoke to God about my dating & relationship difficulties, I was told his terms for me were to grow more first before he brings her into my life, which I accepted. I can assure you the guy typing this to you right now would not have even thought that the changes I’ve made in the last few years–or are in the process of working on right now–would have been part of that!

I regret nothing, I assure you, but no it didn’t turn out exactly some way I would or wouldn’t have envisioned, and I’ve stopped hoping it will turn out exactly that way.

All I’m doing now is having God guide me as I continue to serve him, focus on that which I’m passionate about, and however He wants me to play out what he needs me to use my passions for, that’s what I’m gonna do.

If I wanted my ego to take back over (and likely hate me to the point of getting in touch with the Suicide Hotline), yes I absolutely would be just as bitter as all the folks who think their glory days are behind them, and “that’s the story, Jerry”…..but that’s not my focus; my focus is on serving God as He needs me to, and following in the path he lays out for me, to do what He needs me to do with my passions; for what reason He wants me to do them, as Bashar even says, we can’t possibly know at the moment, because only our Higher Selves/connection with God knows that; we’re here on the plane we’re on to do it, and experience it as it’s happening, not actually understand every twist and turn, and why we’re making them.

So with that being said, before I close this out, let me finally get to the title of this entry:

I was initially going to go with “Results May Vary”, and I think you can figure out quite easily why….but I also decided not to when I didn’t see that title really piquing anyone’s interest, but not only did I see the title I decided to go with doing that, but tying in really nicely with capitalizing on the season, and all the gifts you’re about to give your kids 😉

As we end 2025, and enter 2026, understand that you have the passions you do because God needs you to do something with them that only you can/are meant to do with them, for the betterment of humanity, but make sure that you’re doing that for that betterment, and you’re doing what you love to do because you love to do it, and not because you believe “this is the way I need to do it, or people won’t like me” or something else like that.

There’s a reason God needs you to do what you’re doing, and there’s a reason he needs you to do it the way you’ll be guided intuitively to do it; follow that guidance, do what you’ve been called to do, and make your contribution to God’s tapestry, as you’ve been called to do it, since you first signed that Soul Contract.

I may get in another Update or two before the year ends, but I can’t promise anything at the moment, so if I don’t post anything before–or slightly after–Christmas, you folks have an amazing holiday season, and we’ll talk more soon enough, hopefully with a lot on the horizon to discuss, come 2026! 😀