Category Five

For dVersePoets

For years I could sit very still

beside quiet glacial water,

as it slowly moved over tumbled stones,

with hardly a whispering of a sound-

But my thoughts rumbled like thunder

and crackled like lightning // opening my mind

like a category five hurricane.

& then just like it began- the storm finally passed

as storms often do- this time

with a judicial swish of a pen and

a thud of a gavel- it. stopped.

The howling winds hushed-

My thoughts that once swirled

and stuttered like a question within a question

Slowed to a whisper and then

like the end of a midnight ink flourish –

bled into closure like none other-

As they stilled to a long awaited silence.

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Alabaster Jar – A Poem

For dVersePoets

Her glittering gown

nearly crumpled

as she knelt down

The alabaster jar

set in the grass.

The water sloshed

& gurgled

in the smooth round basin

as she washed his feet

with purpose

Slosh, gurgle, slosh/

A humble reminder that love is

about true sacrifice.

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The Jar of Sky – A Poem

For dVersePoets

It may look like an ordinary mason jar,

But I know better.

It is still full of the bit of sky I collected, screwed tight.

If you squint you can almost see the stars inside if you hold it up at night.

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Her Name Was Glory – A Poem

For dVersePoets prompt on Horses

Wanna catch some horses?

I hear his deep voice mingle

with the dull roar of heavy rain.

Standing in that misty barn at dawn,

I glance at the saddles shimmering

in the dim blue light-

& I nod and head for the first gate-

Ancient wood creaking

as it swings open,

I quietly stand collecting fat raindrops

in my eyelashes

watching his long black braid for awhile-

Her name is Glory,

He says mindlessly &

my gaze lifts to her heavy eyes-

Soft with a hint of summery sadness

like a tattered old flag-

that has worn out &

in need of mending-

I kick some crunchy hay around,

Wondering about whose glory

she had lived for.

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The Dogwood – A Poem

For DVerse Poets’ prompt about Alma Thomas’s Arboretum Presents White Dogwood, (1972), acrylic on canvas, Smithsonian American Art Museum.

I remember that dogwood-

as if it was an old friend of mine,

After all, we did grow up together.

On days with fair weather-

I loved to lean

Just past grandma’s

pale pink reading chair,

After grandfather hung up Old Glory,

To peek at the quiet tall tree-

with a wild blanket of blossoms for hair,

It’s still what Spring looks &

smells like for me.

Sometimes I wonder why we never took family photos around that tree.

Perhaps a reunion with that silly old dogwood is overdue.

I can just see it now.

My old faded suitcase in hand &

Slowly breathing in //

the scent of a million memories.

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Lavender Lemonade- A Poem

The country air was cool that night.

Lightly tapping my worn ballet flats,

against old creaking planks of

this wrap around porch.

The sound of ice softly crackling in

a small tumbler as I crunch on bits of

slightly frozen lavender lemonade.

Listening to jazz again – never knowing the composer,

I wove a blanket of the night sky, square by square inch,

as it draped across my lap, brushing against goosebumps on my naked knees-

Soft crushed velvet tumbling about –

For those wondering where I find such a believable moon-

Would you believe me if I told you //

That my father gave it to me?

(Well, he surely did.)

I run my slender fingers over the grey and cream stitching and sigh //

As I pack up my sewing kit for the night.

My nose is running just the slightest bit

& I can feel the taste of burning wood at the back of my throat.

Autumn is nearly here.

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To Carry This Mountain

To carry this mountain //

Along the bottom of the sea-

My tears are swirling into waves,

catching a breath as they rise-

to the surface // & tumbling into an ocean breeze,

Weighed down by this grief // my heart aches

Salt seeping into deep cracks in my heels,

This sorrow feels more like chains /

– less like healing and

These waves feel like never ending storms.

My arms are heavy with memories,

but I carry on, for you, for God-

because love is sacrificing what I want for what you need.

It is making changes for His Glory-

So I will carry this mountain,

And pray you remember me

& my endless devotion,

That this is not the end of the story-

That you’ll feel compelled to tell the whole truth and nothing but the truth-

while I tread this angry ocean.

Silence is absolutely deafening when I’m missing you.

& I will forever carry this mountain, until you’re here to join me, and my shackles release.

Surely we aren’t in Heaven yet, but I know we have found pockets of laughter,

Surely we can find them again- fanning the flame of that spark-

While I carry our mountain.

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Hush – A Poem

Under that tree-

was

a hush

in the breeze

That felt like a

tender goodbye.

Genevieve, my baby-

Among the mountains,

Beneath these

branches-

May you forever

rest in peace.

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Sapphires

Sifting through some memories like a $40 bag of dirt with a few precious things tucked away.

(Or so you hope as $40 is a lot for just dirt.)

Some of these memories are soft and sparkling and others make you jump and say “Ouch” as you run your fingertips across the pile. We have to put up with the hardness of some moments to get the honor of understanding the precious things we find in life.

But what I remember most about that day is his eyes. We were supposed to be mining for sapphires that day but all I could find myself doing was catching glimpses of his brilliantly blue eyes. He seemed unaware of my wonder. They seemed to glitter every time he laughed as the Autumn breeze blew his soft curls about. I had to fight an urge to kiss him. Something about the day seemed so peaceful.

I kept glancing over at the sunlight dancing in his eyes and that deep resounding laughter of his as he dumped another pile of dirt on the picnic table. I knew that even if I never found a single sapphire that day, it was a $40 well spent. The honor of becoming his wife was and still is priceless and so was the journey sifting through the hard stones to find him.

The hardness of life is such a powerful teacher for us at times. It teaches us how to be soft in the right ways (and on purpose) and it teaches us how to be thankful for the good and never let it go.

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Heartbeat – A Poem

Her slow // heart // beat //ing

on the screen

Makes-my-own-race

“I’m so sorry.”

Sorry, for what?

Those were the

very best six weeks.

In Memoriam Genevieve Venters.

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