Until a couple days ago, I have never found adequate words to describe the relationship I have found with God. In 20 years of journaling, where I express my every thought to God; EVERY TIME, I feel He is right there with me. I have never, even once, felt as if I was wasting His time, or that He was uninterested in what I had to say.
C. S.Lewis nailed it. “God has infinite attention to spare for each one of us. You are as much alone with him as if you were the only being he ever created.”
Wow!
In this relationship, where He lets me go on and on, occasionaly He speaks to. Five years ago, I had finished a book that I could hardly put down. The author told of all the interviews and research it took to be able to write it. My first thought was, I don’t have the time to research something that thoroughly to then be able to write about it. And, no sooner had I thought that, this thought came to mind. You have read your Bible for 50 years. There’s your research.
And so, for the past four and a half years, that is how I have spent a big part of my mornings. Crawling through the Bible, telling the stories as I have seen them. What a journey it has been. I do believe there is nothing God desires more than to walk with us in this life. I see this in these stories. I see some who got it right and some who didn’t. There are lessons to learn from both.
I finished the first book over two years ago and just finished the second. The first one has finally been submitted for publishing. To Walk with God. This one covers the stories from Genesis to Judges. The second one has the same title. The subtitles will be diferentiating part of each book. The second one covers the stories of Ruth, the kings, Isaiah, and Jeremiah.
It is an odd thing to work that long and hard on a project, when you are a level one talent that no one has ever heard of, realizing the likelihood that no one will ever read it. It’s purifying though. There is no motive of appealing to any one reader, group, or audience. Straight from the heart. I think mine and God’s. I’ve had to read the first book a couple of times for editing; there are still parts that choke me up.
The thought that God could possibly use it to help someone find that relationship with Him, has been the only motivation. Out of my walk with Him, out of His attention to my every thought, came this idea. It is perfectly suited to me and He knew it. He has been with me in it.