I'm not prepared

back in the hellzone today. I told jack last night at like midnight that I missed him, so pride is completely gone. I don’t feel like myself, time is crawling by, and I don’t want to be alive in this quarantine anymore. I HATE IT HERE THIS SUCKS I WANT TO CUDDLE AND THATS IT. […]

I have so much that I need to get off my chest and it feels so good to vent without any repercussions. Like screaming into the void. Blogging for me I think has always signaled a kind of turning point, like a mentality climax. My worst of the worst is going to start an uphill […]

I need this, Lydia I’m sorry if you still get notifications and I’m really really sorry for all the ways that I have hurt you in the past. I was an awful friend, and I would love to be able to talk to you again. Anyway, I’m writing now to vent without being a burden […]

Cool, so I’m in the fight of my life over college with my parents right now. I’ve done so so much research on Huntsville now, and know that I absolutely have to go there now. There’s literally no other way. The have an aerospace engineering program, and after those four years, there’s basically a 100% […]

Hey kidlets, it’s 12:30 am, and someone just reminded me about you, blog pal, so I thought I would run in for a quick update, especially since I’m trying to drift my inner monologue back on over to you. I’m not having so so much of a terrible time, truthfully. I’ve found a college that […]

Super duper hope that no one reads this anymore because I need therapy. I guess from the more coherent version of myself, but probs from an actual real life therapist. I really hope that those are free and accessible on college campuses. I would tell my parents that I need one now, but I dont […]

Well it’s been quite a while since I’ve blogged, and it’s been absolutely detrimental to my life and relationships with others. I can feel myself actively oversharing and over exaggerating  my place in their lives, but I literally cannot stop. I feel incredibly annoying and overly sensitive right now. All I’m doing these days is […]

Hey blog, do you remember a while back when I briefly mentioned a boy I was lightly talking to? Well I think I’m officially over him, or at least I want to be. And perhaps I can speak it into being. Back then he used to always try and keep up conversation and say all […]

Hey Girl Scouts, I’m having a super good time with life right now, and I usually don’t share good times on here, so I thought y’all deserved it. I’m on my week of bleeding currently, which is actually gr8 because that means all of my previous mental breakdowns can all be attributed to pms and […]

Hey, so it’s 2 in the morning and honestly I’m probably psychotic and honestly the cringiest person in the whole universe. That’s my summer break problem, literally me and the bullcrap I have to put up with coming from myself. I really don’t have the mental bandwidth to live with my own thoughts for a […]