The questions from Ilana (@tchmathculture) are definitely interesting in their own right
#MTBOS: what was your favorite blog post this year? Which of your own blog posts do you want to share? Tag with #MTBOS2015
— Ilana Horn (@tchmathculture) December 29, 2015
And there are certainly lots of great posts that I've read this year. With respect to the "own blog post" thing, I found it fascinating that some people jumped to their most popular posts, and I wondered quickly about whether that holds any meaning for me.
This post isn't about answering the two questions. At least not directly.
Instead, the questions from Ilana made me wonder about two other things:
1. What kind of blog posts am I most interested by? Most impacted by? What conversations have I wanted to engage with the most? What does this say about how I interpret the world around me? What does this mean for how I interact with ideas I encounter?
2. Has my central questions about my teaching practice changed? How does this blog reflect a change? Did it even do this? What are the things I find myself writing about, and are they things that I've been wanting to write about? How do I stay true to the conversations I wish to begin, as opposed to the conversation I find myself in - and does a difference say something about how I question and what I pursue?
I am unsure how I might approach these wonderings. It would be one thing to simply answer Ilana's questions and start listing things, but I get a feeling that I would be betraying something that I will be aiming to do for the future of this blog: which is to write things that matter to me. What a weird statement, right? Does this mean that I have been written things that don't matter to me? No, I don't think that's the case. Instead, I think it's more like I have been regretting not entering into certain conversations while I could - and feeling like I missed the boat on a lot of them.
The questions I posed are huge. I certainly won't be able to tackle them all here. And so these are the things I want to tackle in this post, in a corresponding way to the two wonderings inspired by the conversation over at #MTBOS2015.
A. Conversations I wish I pursued
B. Reflections on conversations I continue to have with myself
A. Conversations I wish I pursued
At the risk of being brief, I am going share some thoughts on the following posts and conversations that I wished I engaged at the time. Not because I "missed the boat" on being able to continue the conversation with them. No, it's more that - even if I continue the conversation now, I would be having a different conversation than the one I would have had if I engaged earlier. I am referring to the fact that things have necessarily changed since I last considered the conversation. Some examples include context, state of mind, culture (related to the ever changing #mtbos present and what people seem to be interested in pursuing).
1. A conversation about standard based grading, growth mindset, and the outlook on "fads" of education (mainly with @math8_teacher, @mpershan)
Of course, this is not to lump all three of these guys together. They all certainly come from different places, hold different opinions, and think differently. But in my mind, they all relate to a similar conversation. Dylan (@math8_teacher) wrote about his skepticisms concerning standard based grading here, and I recall tweets (and maybe even a blog post I can't find now) from Michael (@mpershan) about not only SBG but also growth mindset. Then Dylan also wrote about growth mindset here and here (gotta love that search function).
I wanted to engage with them in a more meaningful way. I think my central theme would be around something like this where I believe that it is more important to focus on what we take away from an idea, rather than how popular an idea is. I don't think the ideas (growth mindset, SBG) are all perfect, and definitely not conceptualized the same way from one to another. My conversations with others lead me to believe that most people continue to refine what they think these ideas mean to them, as they continue what they do. Or, of course, some meet it with disgust and rejection, or attempt to consume them in some sort of pre-packaged form (which inevitably result in failure due to a variety of reasons).
Is SBG useful? it depends - on how you define it, how you implement it, how you contextualize it, and what it means in your classroom to your students.
Is growth mindset useful? it depends - on how you define it, how you implement it, how you contextualize it, and what it means in your classroom to your students.
To me, I think I like to better understand the ideas by first meeting with welcoming arms. I critique, reflect, and comment after it has become my own - because then I am critiquing, reflecting, and commenting on something I have more control over - my own practice. This was the way that I tackled something like the Ninja board. I wholeheartedly embraced in implementing it in my own way as I spun it to focus on culture in the classroom while building functions into the structure (and thus play it out more in a 3-act-esque fashion), then questioned myself (and others) about many aspect behind why, how, when... And maybe that's a good approach to have - examining something closely once I have made it my own. But maybe not.
Are there educational fads that rise and fall? I think the answers depend on who you are and what the fad means to you. I still believe it's unhelpful to actively promote the idea of a pendulum or that there exists fads that come and go. But I suppose I can only comment on why it's unhelpful for me:
It is unhelpful for me because it limits my ability to be open to ideas.
It is unhelpful for me because I would worry about trying something "simply because it's a fad."
On the other hand, I do see many people trying the same thing at roughly the same time. This is the case in our board for ideas like vertical non-permanent surfaces or visibly random groupings. Or the case where Al (@AlexOverwijk) and Mary (@MaryBourassa)recently spread the seeds in many people's minds about spiralling via #MTBOS and #TMC. The fact that many more people are trying these ideas are helpful to me. I am comfortable with the fact that everyone is taking and incorporating them in different ways, or reflecting and criticizing different aspects of them. These conversations are helpful to me. They are helpful to me as I continue to consider and reflect my own knowings of what these ideas mean to me - and how it is applied to my classroom. It is unhelpful to me to insist that they are fads. Ultimately, I ask myself: does thinking that they are "just another fad" help me? No. And so I stay away from that mindset.
2. Struggles with certainty, doubt, and roles of research.
Earlier in the year I attended a talk on the fallacy of certainty (not the right title). It was about how misleading certainty can be in mathematics, and how it is important to help our students recognize the important role that uncertainty plays in mathematics. This was presented to us from a speaker who had engaged in research in environmental science before move to educational research. I missed the chance to reflect on this talk at the time, but this related to several other conversations over twitter - big or small. Sometimes people talk about better (or best) ways to teach, better (or best) ways to write blog posts, better (or best) ways to do professional development.
Certainty is sexy. Certainty sells.
It is unfortunate it is that way.
Maybe it's because certainty is often coupled with confidence, and confidence is an helpful ingredient for sharing and spreading ideas. It is unfortunate because it gives the false impression that ideas (e.g. perhaps shared at a workshop or talk) are perfect. That the ideas being shared are absolute. That examples shared are the best examples. That recommendations are scripts to be followed. Unfortunate, woefully untrue, and even potentially damaging to the idea itself in the long run. I can try to make an argument using SBG or Growth mindset as examples, but I think that's a longer post than I had intended.
Certainty is also something that we seek. @mathcurmudgeon mathcurmudgeon ranted about research here where he argued that "the whole point of research is to answer a question, either to prove it or disprove it." I read his (self-proclaimed) rant as a further indication of that people (principals in his case) take away ideas in different ways. But then he called for research to settle debates, to solve problems - or else leave him alone. This is another conversation that I wish I had time to flesh out - but will likely not be able to.
3. Dissecting spiralling - celebrating and questioning how we implement and what it means to us. (mainly with @AlexOverwijk, @MaryBourassa, and @BDMcLaurin - also many others).
I wrote about this before back in 2012, but have never delved into how I unpack spiralling for my own class - for my own purposes. The conversations I've often missed out on, though, are opportunities to further explore the differences for how we implement it differently.
This might be a strange turn (though not in my mind), but I see people doing this very differently across the board. I think that's great. At the same time I also see people attempting to craft formulaic approaches to "spiralling the curriculum." This is problematic for me. Especially since what enticed me the most about the concept of spiralling, was the degree of freedom that we would have as teachers. We would be able to follow students' intuitions, questions, interests, wonderings. I couldn't do this before with a unit-by-unit approach. It seems to me that attempts to standardize implementation would go against the core reason why I supported it in the first place. Besides that feeling of unease, though, when I have conversations with others about this, I am genuinely interested in how people have shaped the idea into their own practice.
I don't want to make people feel vulnerable or uncomfortable by jumping straight into the problems they have with spiralling - but that's actually what interests me more. I recognize the importance of celebrating the things that work, but I really want to find out what and why things don't work. This is in a similar way to how I treated my ninja board. Now that I've done it for a while, I want to split it open and put it through a gruesome set of interrogations. I want to know what it still means to me, what it should mean to me, and what it will mean to me. Furthering a conversation about spiralling is the reason why I began with this post outlining a shell of what I did with one idea.
B. Reflections on conversations I continue to have with myself
Looking back at the blog, I wonder how much of it represented things I've been interested in, thinking about, and reflecting on. With the exception of a few, I rarely write about lessons. I had been unsure why. Maybe it just doesn't interest me as much. I recognize that lessons may get more traffic, but that's not why I write in the first place. I went so far as suggesting that maybe we shouldn't share act 2s back in 2013. I think this was primarily spurred on by seeing people starting to make very detailed step-by-step plans to follow (which coincided with some of my own real life conflicts with others).
At the beginning of this blog, I intended it to be a place where I explore the three themes that fascinate me - mathematics, mathematics education, and philosophy. Since that time I have found myself moving away from writing about mathematics or philosophy (or even at all). Mathematics, in particular, had not been very prominent in what I write about. Not to say that these aren't embedded in the things I write about, but my posts have often been about mathematics education. It totally makes sense to me.
But I think I want to continue these conversations with myself (blog) in a way that allows me to explore some mathematics and philosophy as well. I wonder if these might naturally take the forms of more elementary topics over the next couple of years as we expect our first baby soon.
There are many things that I've put on the backburner, though. At several points in the past year or so, I've had many drafts where I recorded partial thoughts on a few things. I think I am going to delete all those drafts.
It isn't because the topics aren't interesting anymore. But more that how I think about them are slightly different, and set on a different background.
There are many conversations (with myself or with others) that I've been wanting to pursue. Some were listed earlier, many have sunken deep into the sands of time. But I don't think I will be able to pursue them all.
I have to focus.
I've taken on way to many things this year - despite taking a one year leave from teaching. I don't even know how that happened. But I don't want to lose out on using this blog as an opportunity to pursue conversations. And so I think I will take things one at a time with respect to this blog. I will begin with continuing to unpack this post that I've set up for further reflection.
In any case. I went on a bit of a tangent, but these were things I thought about when I saw Ilana's post. I am grateful for this opportunity to explore the few things that I've left on hold over the past few years - even if it just skimmed over the many thoughts and reflections I've had.




















