I’ve been told by friends or people close to me that I think too much. I do not deny this as I do tend to overthink about things/ problems/ people and even scenarios. The last 2 – 3 years with the pandemic, it has also caused me to withdraw into a little hole. It was overwhelmed greatly not just living with the pandemic but dealing with relationships that come along with it, navigating them and threading on sometimes thin ice how people feel about me.

The first year of the pandemic, alcohol was featured mostly in our daily lives as we wondered how best to survive. In the second year of the pandemic, I sought to healthier measures to dealing with my life. I first turned to exercise as a form of filling my time after dropping the kid in school. Then as I started to enjoy the workout, I tried out other forms of workout to challenge myself further. While I didn’t lose a lot of weight, I felt that the endorphins released during the workout made me happy. It also challenged me to remain discipline and also stick to a regime where I chose to shut down at about 10pm to head to bed. The workouts also made me tired physically and I felt that I didn’t have bandwidth to think about other things.

I’m generally quite a sentimental person valuing friendships and relationships. But people move on, people can change, perhaps I have changed as well – my values are different and my priorities have changed. I realised that social media is not a pleasant environment for me as it made me compare about the lifestyle I have vs others. I realised this is not a healthy habit that I want to continue to hold so I am now mindfully doing what I can to cut back on the use of social media and the mindless scrolling of envying what others have vs what I don’t have.

It is still a long road for me and I feel I now have social anxiety but I hope as time goes pass, I am able to conquer my challenges and feel better about myself as a person.

Baby steps.. one day at a time…

A reminder that time really just flies by. Thankfully, we survived Primary 1 despite all the COVID-19 restrictions in place. One thing I was a little sad for the Bub was that she didn’t get an elder buddy when she started her P1 and I wasn’t able to go into school to witness her buying food in the canteen like what other parents did the years before COVID. But it’s nice to see her thriving well in school and really surviving P1.

I’m still here! Nearly 3 years on after the COVID-19 pandemic, here we are.. still living in a pandemic stated of mind.

The world has changed and so have I. Social media has transformed the way I’ve shared things and also viewed things. But I’m trying to keep it together, to share things that are meaningful to me and to be authentic to my own feelings.

I was contemplating whether I should be writing more here. It’s been on my mind for a while but I just didn’t feel the hurry to start until I received an email asking for a collab. I was rather amazed that my blog was picked up! Instagram is much snazzier and a lot faster for most businesses these days. I felt a little touched to even be considered so that kinda reignited my desire to write.

I look forward to kick-starting my engine for writing / sharing more on this platform. Perhaps starting with the recent holiday that we took last December. Stick around and let’s see how it goes!