Be careful what you wish for. I really missed her, though. We had so many years behind us; it felt so wrong to let her go, to live her life elsewhere. I was lonely, bored, and heartbroken. Our memories were too epic to forget. I wanted that back, perhaps. When I reflect, I realize life is different…
Anything For Love
Because…LOVE
When the shit is too deep
Thank God for coffee…and music…and Cannabis… Without these golden tickets, my life would certainly be unbearable. I depend on these things. Without them, my day is surely to be a shit show. Today, being Monday, and everything that comes with Monday. I’m guaranteed a fast paced day, but NOT guaranteed a FAST day. Step kids…
When it’s paralyzing
If I told you that my life is in complete chaos, would you pay closer attention? Would you say a secret prayer, or keep me in your positive thoughts all day? Would you transfer your good vibes through the breeze, just to know that I’m holding it together? There are many reasons why I don’t…
Ghosting
It’s a shame you’ve disappeared. I needed to show you what we could do. How we could make this friendship flourish. You left without saying goodbye. A modern day ghost. Our future could have been what best friends dream of. A true love that surpasses romance. One of the kind, we were. Escape came easier for…
The Fear
Fuck the confusion. I’m ready. No more wasted time. It’s time to be myself. Whatever that means. Many times we worry about what other people will think about us and our changes. Whether they be physical or personal, many people don’t understand our decisions, unless we actually explain them. For an introvert like myself,…
Ugly
I hate me today. I can’t explain why. Well, I can. I feel like a bloated, overstuffed sausage. My uterus is convulsing in very nauseating ways. My body feels like a giant blob of jello. Lime jello. My brain won’t stop veering into undesireable directions. Maybe I’m overwhelmed with everything I need to do. Mommy…
Pull
I pulled and pulled, until it hurt. The grip, between my thumb and forefinger. The small fistful of hair Being pulled, As my folicles popped. Snapping sounds of my hair breaking. Everything felt better… Until the blood began to drip from the roots of my scalp. A bit of relief, but the pain was excruciating….
Bi
My daughter came out of the closet when she was 14. She told me that she liked the attention of girls, as opposed to boys. Then, she clarified “I’m Bi”. Ok then. You’re Bi. Neat. Over the next year, her sense of fashion changed dramatically. She cut her hair into a trendy pixie cut, and…
when mental illness kills
Originally posted on undermounted:
ok fine. I AM angry and trying not to be. Anger is futile and masks fear and frustration. I am not angry at the person. because when people make a choice, you have to accept it whether you agree with it or not. he chose to emotionally destroy his family and…
Lots of Dicks
Ass holes are out in vengeance, today. Dicks being dicks atop dicks, saying dickish things. I’m at my wits end. Too much dick swinging. I mean, why can’t people just not be dicks?
The Long Endeavor
This is a long endeavor. I feel like a fool, But I can’t walk away from losing. I was given nothing, But this broken piece of glass, And I still crave to grip it tight. I want to feel it pierce my skin. Feelings, revealed with that smile of his…. I could float in that…
Ugly Jain 
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