Jesse Haydn Poetry

Many times she asksMoon, will you hold all my dreamsSo that I may one day rest? You see, my SunWas taken out of my sky-My heart torn from my chest. She walks alone, in circles,Night and day, both dark the same,she begs and pleads to no one's ears; And so she still waitsIn her heartache,Continue reading "Many times she asks"

"The Moon blew up with no warning and for no apparent reason". Some of the gravity floated away. Some of us went up, some of us stayed; But I couldn't decide either way. They say we live by the Sun and feel by the Moon- life and love belong hand-in-hand. So I slit my wristsContinue reading "“The Moon blew up with no warning and for no apparent reason”."

It's 12:03 amI'm too tired to write this.At first I wrote "read" instead of "write", so I had to delete it.It's been two days since I saw you last and asked for a glass of water out loud for some reason.I miss you, and it hurts, and I'm too tired.I can't meet you as oftenContinue reading "Insomnia"

I wake up everyday and take pills and pills and pillsthe insanity will go- I was promisedI don't think she has I am tired today. I am tired everydayThe sense of awakening is lostI can feel it in my aching bonesPentetrating darkness I am a stranger in my bodyI cannot remember who I wasI canContinue reading "Lithium"

Have you ever stopped to noticethe spaces between thingsEmpty patches of sky between the branches and leaves of the treesA murmuration of birds as they dance on the air with one mindLike a negative between words on a page?Have you ever been swallowed?By the deep and infinite timelessness between the starsBetween footprints in a blanketofContinue reading "In Between"

Are you still awake?Do you percieve the space between objects?Place the sky between the branches and leavesBirds undulate as they dance in the air with one mindWhat's wrong with the word on this page?Did you swallow them all? In depth and at the end of the time between the starsBetween the footprints on the blanketTheContinue reading "In Between II"

So misty beneath the rainThe passion is dyingI am rabid in the lightI howl like vaporous dogs over the windI will lie down and give myself to the earthIt is quite lovely under the flowersWrapped in roots and darknessBe luminous I say and unafraidThe devil isn't all badThere is a spirit in my likeness climbingContinue reading "Ghost"

Very violet within the airAnd comely is the landWe stretch vaporous meaning over the spiritsThe thought is flowing thatWe are dazzling over the rocksWe cavort with cold tomb stones over the dreamscape. Very violet within the airWe grasp dream-like animals beneath the earthAtone! The demon is coming and goingBe wary and defiantSeeing the lightWith noContinue reading "Very Violet"

I feel empty when you go.Even cooking is lonely when you are not here. What's the point?How can I be an entire human being? I blast music in my headphones-When they scream-I can still hear the silence(I can't drown it). I miss you.Please stay with me.Please do not leave. My anxiety hurts.My hands are shakingContinue reading "Codependency"