The Healthy Poisons

Well, it’s been forever since I wrote something I might’ve forgotten how to pour feelings into writings from reading too much (mostly) light and vain materials (read: online manga reader and foreign pop culture sites) .

I’m stuck in a sense of perpetuity, something that I aspire to have in the future on different circumstances; I also wish for it to be over so I can do things that I actually have to do. And so, dear imaginary readers that don’t read posts from this blog, let’s begin pouring years of unwritten feelings.

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So, I’m trying to purge myself off my silly thoughts so everything in here is mostly written out of order. Even the sentences in a column are kind of messy, order/context-wise. Just random thoughts formed into poorly grammar-ed sentences. Now, you can scram and visit other useful sites, thank you very much.

You know these holes, the one that makes you feel empty; the one that makes you start a diary; the one that tells you that you need a soul mate; the one that almost never make sense to people other than yourself. Yeah, those don’t actually exist. You just think it in that shallow, vain, closely guarded heart of yours. Or so I thought. And whatever sentences I’m about to write next will make absolutely no sense, as always. If I were high this is probably the kind of things I will write lol. Read the rest of this entry »

…from Red Bull lol. It’s been, like, more than 3 years since I had one, now the sober day count is back to day one (like one of those ‘No Accidents for X Days’ in The Simpson). The elixir of late night assignment/cramming, last resort for having to deal with incompetence and laziness, but still, even  some yellow liquid with acid-like taste that makes you stay alert all night just isn’t enough to get you going.

…yeah there’s nothing of matter in this post. Move along, folks~ I’ll see you when I see you.

…lose interest in things you love most? Lately I realized I’ve been losing interest in almost everything I loved, pretty much like my last post.

As much as I want to love those things again, it’s hard to love them back once you abandoned them for a certain period of time. It’s not like I have specific reasons to stop loving things. One day, I just stopped. Read the rest of this entry »

We all have habits, even lazy bums like me, and we can’t help but to do it or we’re gonna feel like crap by the end of the day. Or at least you feel like you’re missing something, like not having your wallet and cellphone in your pocket.

Do you remember how you liked so many things, then new things to like came, and eventually you’ll forget all the old ones? Habits have the very same nature. Read the rest of this entry »

…already. Wow, I can’t believe I could let go of blogging for over a year, as it was one of the things I look forward to at the end of bad days or weekends; to write the crap out of what’s crappy today, any crappy kinds of crappy feelings I had, or my twisted (eh, probably just reversed, not that twisted) views of something random, all of which I barely remember today.

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As a friend of mine mentioned a.k.a hypothesized ages ago:

Humans are narcissists, as someone is attracted to other person just because they see their own selves in that person.

*sorry bung for free-translating it here :p* aaanyways, since I read those lines, it kind of struck me in the head. It IS true indeed. When you see someone you’re not (as in 180-not), you’d really feel like hating him/her, but not necessarily pure hatred. Read the rest of this entry »

Usually, when I bottled things up in my head, I wrote it down here. But now, I just let the bottles be. And eventually, they simply broke to pieces, along with the content. It’s still there but I won’t recall anything out of it.

Or maybe I’m just getting more senile these days. Oh well.

N’ah, those are just lines that probably can make some random person stranded to this messy place like the one with that shitty title. *yeah, right*

N’ah again, it’s just me always getting a little bit inspired after watching House, which makes me want to watch it from its very first season but apparently, I lack the will and space. Read the rest of this entry »