Having spent time alone made me revisit my dreams and aspirations. I now know why things never happened the way they did. Lack of focus, impatience and consistency were the culprit. Nonetheless, I still want to hold those dreams with me even if it will take time.

Back in the day, I’d list all my dreams in my diary. I failed to find it when I get back home but I could still remember what I wrote.

At fifteen, I want to learn languages (French as the prio), enrolled in Psychology, graduate with Latin honors and be able to study and work abroad. I’m happy that I have fulfilled two of the lists years later. In addition, I also wanted to start writing blogs, be able to scale mountains and experienced boarding on an airplane by myself. These were fulfilled as well.

Right now, I have these manifestations:

Career:

I WILL FINISH MY MASTER’S THIS SEMESTER (Spring 2021). It may have been delayed because of myself, but I will fight everyday to fulfill it.

I will take Psychology Licensure Examination once I’m back home. I will pass it and I will become a registered Psychologist by 2022.

Everything I wanted to do involves the practice of Psychology, in one way or another. I have suffered myself finishing a degree but without the confidence to pursue because of the lack of opportunities. So, why don’t I make one?

That is why, my utmost priority is becoming a Psychologist and began my practice privately and publicly. I’d like to work in government or court. Then, I’ll establish my own clinic once I have the “funds”. This private practice has to begin somewhere.

Of all aspect in Psychology, industrial is the most profitable one. That means, I’ll need to enter manpower agency. Good thing, I have friends to help me out (c/o Jas/Rose) with the ins and out of it. Besides, I like the practice of Psychology on it. After recruiting, there will be interviews and psychological assessment. This demand will be answered by another aspect which I can discuss later.

While I’m home, I will be a social entrepreneur.

I want to get involved in business to give people livelihood especially with the effect of pandemic. I’d like to do “pasabuy”, a concept where I will be buying in bulks from the city and sell it in my hometown so that people will have more convenience amidst travel restrictions. Should they wish to have it delivered at home, I will let the habal-habal drivers deliver the items and give them the delivery fee in full. This way, people will have more convenient getting their items while giving these drivers back their livelihood which was previously strained from not getting enough passengers due to social restrictions. I want to have online business through ticketing (travels/tours), drop shipping hair care products and writing engagement through my blog. I think it is the best way to start while looking for job and preparing for licensure exam. These will serve as passive income in addition to the financing I have myself involved since the beginning of 2021.

When all of this works out, I’d like to have a farm and open up cafe and employ my relatives and people I know. I imagine the cafe with rustic ambiance perfect for anyone. Actually inspired by MadCafe, I’d like it to have some places for students, professionals and travelers. The cafe itself will be within the farm where all my father’s rosters will be caged or be in fighting cock. The cafe will be open for commercials, shoots and tambayan for students or anyone. With international friends, I’d like to open it for foreigners who want to visit Bukidnon which is perfect since my hometown has more tourist attractions. I’d have them live there for free in exchange to some volunteer works. The farm will also be a place for gardening in which produce can be sold to the locals or visitors and serve the cafe. I want to have a glamping area and few rooms ready for the tourists. Glamping cars are open for renting. It is common to have an ecotourism so the farm is perfect for that. I’d like to have a pond for tilapia while maximing compost or organ ways to maintain the farm. I’d like the farm to be a nesting ground for children getting involved with Montesorri-inspired school. I think it is perfect to educate children with or without disability. Interns and newly-graduate education students are best to be hired at this point. Social events and campaigns will also be held within the vicinity of the farm. Overall, I’d like the farm to be well-rounded. A retreat for the family, clients whose well-being is to be protected, children wanting to learn, eco-warriors practicing their preach, farmers and their livelihood. What a dream will it be.

I will work in my hometown, either for rehabilitation center, hospital or court. I can also practice it and have the farm as my office. There, it will be like a Bali in Philippines wherein a client’s well-being is utmost priority. Maybe I will have a separate place so the clients will be given privacy- away from the noise of the other parts of the farms. Argh. I guess I needed to do Yoga or meditation training as it will fit for the surrounding. This is for the experience so I may be able to work in international organizations like WHO, Doctor’s without Boarders or even Red Cross. I want to be able to serve those war-stricken areas. I want to visit Africa through this. I want to be able to jump from one place to another not just for leisure but service. I am not that interested with luxurious life. A simple life is enough but I want to experience humanity at its finest. I’d like to counsel those who are hurt psychologically, empower people and children. I want to see world, through its best and worst forms. I want to come prepared.

Speaking of my desire to practice my profession and open up school, I’d like to extend it with recruiting agency/manpower. I can hire my friends in this. I think manpower will fill the industrial aspect in Psychology. I got the inspiration from my expat days. It’s hard processing all the documents by yourself. I see rich countries exporting human resource in Philippines because of its relatively young population. Plus I can make use of my online business for ticketing etc. I can also run in thru online without being in the office.

Travel:

Aside from my aspiration to travel the world to serve humanity, I will bring my family to the Holy Land, Rome and Egypt. It is my dream to bring atleast my parents there. I want to make memories with them through traveling and making videos for Youtube. I think it’s a great tribute for them. I remember watching Grandpas over Flower where they featured elder granpas trying out different cuisines and traveling around the world. Mama likes to travel. She wont make it known to us but she once kept a diary detailing every corners of the room.

House:

I don’t aspire to have a houseon my own as I will be living with my husband anyways. But, I will be renovating the house of my parents. I will put up rooms upstairs and put on bathroom. The room of my parents as well. I find the bedrooms too big for the room. So maybe a little space enhancemenf will do. Once it is done, I’ll put up an AirBnB where the money will be given to my parents. If I have work that time, I’ll be getting loan from PAG Ibig. That way is easier.

Health:

I wish to try triathlon. I want to do zumba, walking and stretching with my parents back home. The triathlon is for me to learn how to swim and ride a bike. When I’m capable enough, I will join IronMan. Maybe, cycling will be famous in our place because of the attraction but I hope the road will be as safe as Taiwan. I will learn how to drive so Papa doesnt need to drive by himself. Also, I can treat them anywhere after our walking and exercise sessions had i known how to drive. I want to bring them to hiking with me. Just like the elder people in Taiwan. It’s healthy and safe for them. Of course, I will train them to do just that. Hopefully, the trails will be friendly for all ages.

Lastly, I will get married and have triplets one day. I will continue to aspire and inspire.