klariwari

Wehan’s promise of ‘I’ll talk to you tomorrow’ doesn’t happen. I sleep until midday, waking periodically and checking my phone every time, but there are never any new messages or calls. I am left feeling confused about our relationship. On where we’re standing right now. I finally confessed my feelings…

“Lena?” Wehan sounds surprised. He probably thought I wouldn’t answer the call. I sigh at the sound of his voice. It’s lovely and calming, and the relief I feel at hearing him is immeasurable. “Hey.” “I’m sorry to call so late,” he says awkwardly after a pause. “I’ve been up…

End of September Why have you been avoiding Wehan? He says you haven’t spoken in weeks. I stare at the text from Jako, trying to decide what to say. It feels like nothing I could say would be a good answer. How do I explain I’ve been getting drunk –…

End August I received a message a few days ago from an old high school friend, Christie. She invited me out for coffee. We spent the time catching up and just chatting. It was nice. It wasn’t long before she invited me out to the bar for a drink. A…

August Wehan messages me on a random day in August. It’s a simple “Hey”, but damn if that didn’t make my heart race. I tentatively reply, and we’ve been catching up and chatting throughout the day. I don’t know why he’s reached out now, but I’m relieved at the normalcy…

End July The next month passes painfully slowly. Without Andrew to keep me grounded, my head has been all over the place. One positive is that I’ve been clean from self-harm ever since I came back from Stellenbosch, however another addiction took its place: smoking. Andrew would have been so…