Being sober for one year feels like a long, slow exhale. It feels good, like putting on slippers after a long day, like I am safe and warm.  It feels like I have a light inside of me that shines, no matter what else is going on in my life.   Like I have a…

This is the third time I have been 9 months sober.  The first two, I walked away with an actual baby, this time the baby I have been gestating is more of a metaphysical type and has many more months of development to go! 9 months and life is a completely different world, my relationships…

What started out as a journey to quit drinking has slowly been evolving into one of the most important, most exciting,  journeys of my life. The journey to find out what I really value, what I hold dear, what I need and what I want, what my body feels healthy doing, and what it doesn’t.  The…

Nearing the five month sobriety mark and roads are a bit bumpy because this is new territory, I have never been sober this long and while that is a GREAT thing, it is also a thing I am not 100% sure what to do with. I have been acting like a person I don’t want…

It’s been awhile and a lot has gone on in life since I last posted.  Along with “Superbowl Party” and “Karaoke night” sadly we can now add “death of a loved one” and “funeral” to the list of things I have made it through sober.  We lost our 19 year old nephew last weekend and…

Celebrated 112 sober days by doing a fun dance workout in galaxy print leggings with my daughter.   I previously wouldn’t wear these leggings because I thought the pattern on them made me look fat…. I still think that, but now I give way less fucks about that sort of thing.  This is a huge…

Great weekend away with my hubby and kids.  I love when we can escape for a few days.  This was my first night in  hotel sober since forever!  Sobriety felt good.  I didn’t sleep worth a damn but still felt much better in the morning than I would have with a hangover. We got back…

Today I have been sober for 100 days and I feel deep in my bones that my life will never be the same as it once was.  This does not scare me anymore. Everyday, no matter what else I accomplish, I have been accomplishing this.  And THIS is the basic foundation for everything else.  It…

It’s beginning to look a lot like Christmas around here, Christmas break that is. Kids are out of school for two weeks, which means sleeping in a bit for me, not them.  Too many video games for them, not me.  And hopefully some good quality, old fashioned, family time for all of us! More and…