You know how many people wants a brand new start? A chance to change everything and have a new beginning. I don’t want that…I love the position where I stand. I appreciate all the lessons that I have learned. I am thankful to each and every person in my life. Regardless, the good and the bad experience, the pleasurable and painful moments, and the essential and unnecessary situation among others, I am really thankful for them. If I was given a chance to change anything in my life, I wouldn’t do it. I would not change anything because I know if I change any little thing, my life would be different. I wouldn’t be sitting here, I wouldn’t have the experience I have, I wouldn’t meet the people I’ve met, I wouldn’t know the stuff I’ve learned, I wouldn’t have the goal I strive to achieve,and I wouldn’t have the determination and motivation that I have gained among others.
I think life is very simple and doesn’t have to be so complicated. Life is fragile, that’s why it need protection. I look at life very optimistically, probably because of this quote from my coordinator.
“Our lives are not determined by what happens to us but how we react to what happens, not by what life brings to us, but by the attitude we bring to life. A positive attitude causes a chain reaction of positive thoughts, events, and outcomes. It is a catalyst, a spark that creates extraordinary results.”
A positive attitude towards anything, I mean anything is beneficially and would never harm you nor anyone. Yeah, life is hard and sometimes very unfair. But what could you do? If there is something you could do about it, do it… but think about the future and the consequences, and think about if its necessary or unnecessary. Do you need it? would it help you? Is it beneficial? And most importantly, would it hurt you? Would it hurt others? I am not persuading you into applying yourself into these “morals” “rules” and whatever you call them. This is how MY life works and is how I live.
Well, this post wasn’t suppose to be a lecture. I was planning to rant about what I think, but I guess its relevant in a way. Here I go.
You know the feeling where you get when going into a new school? Ex. from High school to College. That exciting feeling but also scary. I’m currently going through that psychological phase right now. Despite all my “life is not complicated” and “morals”, I am very very indecisive. This is all due to the fact that I think so much about the future. Today, I was browsing through my e-mail and I got my acceptance letter to Hunter College. I am currently in my 2nd year at College of Staten Island, and I love it there. During these 2 years of college, I have built many relationship, gained many connections, made many friends, taken many opportunities, learned even more about the advantages of this school and learned to love this college. Now with this chance to attend Hunter College, I am scared to attend this college and start over again. (meaning I have to make new connections, make new friends, find out all the opportunities, and more.) Why do I want to transfer? For several reasons that aren’t really good enough, but acceptable. For convenience, to challenge myself, for my major of Anthropology, and others. I’m intimidated and very reluctant of going to Hunter, but I like challenging myself therefore I am going to go for it anyway. Hope it all ends well.
-Joe Li
“Being challenged in life is inevitable; being defeated is optional”
-Roger Crawford