This year, I felt like I gave my all in one aspect of my life. When I heard about Prinsesa Musang’s exchange gift, I realized: “Hey, maybe it would be nice if I’d also be on the receiving end.” Chos lang! I just find it interesting plus it would be a challenge hunting for gifts.

Santa, Can You Hear Me?
Here’s my wish list:

Something small :
Who still uses paper notebooks, right? I do! But I love them small enough to put inside my pocket. A small black Moleskine-like notebook without rules would do as long as it’s leather-bound and classy… but I won’t mind a Moleskine, really.

Something big:
A giant smurf action figure! I saw one in Ngong Ping Village in my recent trip to Hong Kong but didn’t buy it hoping I could still find one in downtown HK. Too bad we ran out of time and weren’t able to shop even for other stuff. If you happen to see one here, you don’t have to buy it for me. Just let me know where to find it. 🙂

Something cute:
A smurf key-chain or action figure.

Something soft:
A fluffy throw pillow for my office chair! (For quick naps during lunchbreaks. Hehe.)

Something techie:
A 100mm Nikkor micro lens or a flash for my Nikon D90. Hahahahaha! I’m a bit into photography and one of my frustrations is to get really close-up pictures of flowers and insects. Come to think of it, if I’d get the micro lens, you can forget about everything else on the list. Plus I’ll be your slave. Hahahaha.

Pero sige na nga, anything about photography will do.

Something fancy:
Is this too fancy? 😀

It is? Oh…

Something gray:
I love wearing soft cotton shirts. I’m thinking plain v-neck shirt, wag lang mukhang undershirt. And uhm.. I have a small/extra small frame.

Something wearable:
I used to run at least once every month but when I started to get lazy shin splints, I had to slow down until my laziness finally got me. Now that my gut is complaining, I think it’s high time that I start running again. A new running gear might inspire me (shorts/singlet/socks/cap – kahit ano basta men’s small yung size). Emphasis on MIGHT.

Something you need:
I started painting and sketching again. I need a new set of decent watercolour pencils. Like this one, perhaps?

How about this?

Reeves Acrylic Paint Sets set of 24

Most National Bookstore branches have these.

Something you can use for work:
A wireless mouse will definitely minimize the wire clutter on my desk.

Something sweet:
I’ve been looking for this elusive chocolate from Candy Corner – Bahlsen Crispini Crunchy Choco. I might’ve had asked every kiosk but only the one in Newport Mall of Resorts Wall Manila has it.

Dear Santa I’ve been good and I really, really , really want:
I hope Santa is reading this because I really, really, really want that something techie or THIS.

As I read back my list, I realized the items are bit harder to work on, yung tipong “todo-na-to level”. But hey, that’s part of the challenge right? Don’t worry, I’m actually easy to please.

Sabi nga ni Kumareng Zenaida Seva: “Ito ay gabay lamang…”

Surprise me. ‘Cause you are also in for a surprise. 😉

Note:

If you wish to join Prinsesa Musang’s Dear Santa I’ve Been Good: Bloggers Christmas Exchange Gift 2, just check it out. You have until tomorrow, so hurry up!

Posted: November 25, 2011 in Life Catalogued

Emo-ntage

Posted: November 2, 2011 in Life Catalogued

When you try your best, but you don’t succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can’t sleep
Stuck in reverse…

“I never thought I would be this broken, and right now I can’t see any good in disrepair. If there is, I hope to get to see it soonest.”
“What’s keeping you from moving on?”
“Love for you. And the hope that there’s still another chance.”
“It’s not gonna happen anymore…”

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can’t replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

And high up above or down below

When you’re too in love to let it go
But if you never try you’ll never know
Just what you’re worth…

“I never stopped loving you. Despite of.”
“Neither have I. But have you asked if it’s for the good?”
“I’ve always believed, and I still do, that you are worth fighting for.”
“Didn’t you say that you’ll get over it soon?”

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones

                                                 “Will you be my lifetime partner?”
                           “Yes. Of course.”

And I will try to fix you…

“I did. I guess That was just wishful thinking.”

Posted: October 28, 2011 in Life Catalogued

 


“I’m at the edge of my emotions, watching the shadows burning in the dark…”

Running on Empty

Posted: October 25, 2011 in Life Catalogued

Gasolina ang iniinom at kinakain ko sa agahan, tanghalian, at hapunan.

Gasolina kasi ang nagpapasweldo sa kin kaya kung tutuusin ito na rin ang dumadaloy na dugo sa aking katawan. Ilang taon na rin akong nagtatrabaho sa kumpanya ng langis. Hindi pa naman amoy gasolina ang pawis ko, pero pasasaan ba at pati hininga at utot ko ay mag-aamoy krudo na rin sa kalaunan.

Trabaho ko ang pumuna, ang maghanap at magrekomenda ng bago at kakaibang solusyon sa umiiral or paparating na problema. Ayon sa prinsipyo, kung alam mo ang pinanggagalingan ng problema maaari mo itong paghandaan upang hindi na ito maulit. Pero kadalasan, hindi mo rin naman alam kung ano ang kahahantungan ng solusyon. Minsan swak na swak. Minsan parang kanta ng Sugarfree – Sablay.

Sadya nga lang matigas ang ulo natin; kasi kahit alam mo na kung paano sosolusyunan ang problema, nagpapakasutil ka pa rin at pinipilit mo ang hindi dapat ipilit.

May ilang buwan na ring akong nagpapakatanga at nagbubulag-bulagan. Ilang buwan na rin akong lugmok. Tila pansamantalang bumagal ang pagikot ng mundo ko. Alam ko naman kung ano ang dapat kong gawin. Alam kong dapat na kong magsimulang lumimot. Alam kong hindi dapat tumigil ang pag-usad ng buhay ko. Pero ewan ko ba. Tulad ng isang kalawanging sasakyan, nauuhaw pa rin ako sa iyo.

Pero wag kang mag-alala.

Bukas. Hintayin mo lang, magpapa-full tank na ako sa ibang gasolinahan.

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Note: This is an entry to Gasolinedude’s Blogversary Contest.

Five months.

It still feels like it did on day one.

I’m stuck in the crossroads of holding on and letting go. Part of me still hopes that you would change your mind, like you always have. That one day you will ask me again to be yours. I have always been yours. I still am. Another part, the pragmatic side of myself, yells at me to wake up and accept the fact that it is over.

Is it really over?

If it were, then why does your scent still linger? That mixture of perfume and cigarette which used to put me to sleep. The same scent that used to lace my first breath of air when I wake up.

If it were, then why do I still feel your warmth? The warmth that used to hug me when I’m cold after a few hours of being exposed to your room’s AC. I used to love hiding under the blankets with you for in that moment, we were one. Breathing the same air, sharing the same skin.

If it were, then why do I still hear your voice? The same voice that plays music to my ears. That reassures everything will turn out fine. The voice that laughs at my corny jokes and mutes when it needs to listen. The voice that told me you love me. The one that told me you were mine.

If it were, then why do I still taste your sweet lips? Or the saltiness of your skin when we were making love? Or the bitterness of your tears as I held your face the first and the only time I saw you cry? I can still taste you. Every bit of you.

If it were, then why do I still see you in my dreams? Your face, those eyes, that smile…

I guess it will be over sooner that I have expected. Soon I won’t be able to see you. Your scent will belong to someone else’s nose. Your warmth to someone else’s skin. Your voice will only whisper in someone else’s ears. Your taste, every single flavor of it, will only caress someone else’s tongue.

Five months.

And there’s still a little bit of you in me.

Posted: October 19, 2011 in Life Catalogued

Bulakbolero’s Photo Contest

Posted: October 7, 2011 in Life Catalogued
All At Sea

Sometimes, to be able to find yourself, you need to be lost in the vastness of the universe.

To enter Bulakbolero‘s Photo Contest:     Click    HERE

Never Gonna Leave This Bed

Posted: April 27, 2011 in Life Catalogued

Love is not blind. It sees perfectly but chooses not to mind.

I hope my future self could forgive me for what I’ve decided to do. I have the only reason I need and it rules out everything else.

As long as there is love, regret ceases to exist.

I have always hated having to take the MRT on a rush hour. That particular day was no exception. Coaches were packed, not to mention the smell which, most of the times, proves unbearable. The traffic along EDSA isn’t promising either. I had no choice but to take the next train.

As I was on my way out of Boni MRT Station, I passed by the long line of people waiting for their turn to withdraw in one of the ATMs. One of them with a face I could never forget. That of a college classmate whom I secretly had a crush on. Smiling doe-eyes, round face, narrow lips. Laglag na ang briefs ko sa kanya dati pa. We lost contact after that Math class.

I gave him a second look. He looked back.

That was my cue, I fell in line right next to him and pretended to withdraw cash from the ATM.

A moment of awkward silence. Hindi na ko nakatiis.

“Excuse me, you are *** Erwin ***** (his full name), right? I believe we were classmates in Math 53 back in college.”
“Oh, hi! Yeah, I am. That’s why you look familiar!”
“Actually it says there in your nametag. Hehe.The one on your backpack. You didn’t put the Erwin, though.”
“Hahaha. But you remembered.”
“How could I ever forget?”

(To be continued…)

Texchanges

Posted: March 27, 2011 in Life Catalogued

Bob: Di ba doc and benj are dating?
D: Hahaha. Didnt think you’d ask. 🙂 its complicated… But yeah. Crush ka nga pla ni benj sabi nya kagabi.
Bob: Am just confused kc nga i thought they’re dating. He just added me on fb and asked for my number.
Bob: And nagtanong p kung may magagalit. Haha. Sabi ko si doc baka magalit
D: Hahaha. Go go 🙂
Bob: Hala…
D: Whew… Done. Pagod. Uy, may gmik na cya 😀
Bob: Stayed at home lng. Nakatulog eh. 🙂 u went out?
D: Yup. With jason and cherry
Bob: Ah ok. Say hi to them n lng. 🙂
D: Hello dn daw
D: Languages of love daw
Bob: Wat abt it?
D: Lam mo ba un?
Bob: Yeps. Physical touch sa kin. I’m a Hug person
D: Eeee 🙂 ok hugs
Bob: Nde ko alam ung sau. Haha
D: Di ko na din kasi alam. Tagal na ksi kaya confused na. Hehehe. Suggestions?
Bob: Hmmm… Confused nga din ako sau. Kaya di ko lam kung kelan ka nageexpress.
Bob: :-p hay… Ang hirap mo idecipher sa totoo lng. Hahaha
D: Hehehe… Oo nga. Sorry.
D: Basta wat i wanna tell (you) is… I never had someone sleep on my shoulders ever.
Bob: Aww.. 🙂 thank you. Special pla ko?
D: U are very special

D: And there was silence
D: Then more silence…..
D: Then…. Silence. Tulog na ata. Ok. Mwah
D: Ok… NR. Nyt

Bob: Ei… Sorry. Txting ng nakahiga. Nakatulog tuloy
Bob: 😦 hay… It gets too frustrating
D: Bkit po?
D: U have more options than i
Bob: 😦 u were my choice..
D: Oh, nothng frustrating with that naman, i “was” ur choice. Dami pa jan.
Bob: Was i ever urs?
D: You are.
Bob: Still?
D: Eversince then
Bob: Bat ganun? Bat hindi ko mafeel? Bat di mo sinasabi? I’ve always felt unwanted

D: Bob, can you be my life time partner?

Bob: 🙂 Yes….Of course.

Bob: Wait… Are u drunk?
D: I drank, not much, home now eating chocolates. Hehehe 🙂
D: I love you 🙂
Bob: I love you too.. I always have.

What could’ve been…

Posted: January 9, 2011 in Life Catalogued