December 3 2013 : Vanished embryo ? or retained miscarriage ?

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I have been sitting in my room trying to find answers ,  If you have ever live a miscarriage , you have an Idea of how it feels  like .

  • What happen with my little baby ?  how is possible for an embryo to vanish/ to disappear and become  a blighted ovum within a week ?
  • What will happen next ? am I going to allow the doctors to preform  a 5th  D&C ?  would it be possible to have a “medical abortion” instead ?
  • On monday I have contacted Dr Professor  Gavin Sacks in Sydney  with the hope he could help me to save this pregnancy .But the pregnancy is lost already . Should I still going and see him  as  it will be very expensive  and possible nothing we can do right now .

I haven  sitting around  just thinking in all the things that happen last week after monday I was in my ultrasound appointment .

I was very very upset , I think I cry a lot  that day and that night .

Next day I was little bit more upset ,and  at night and when Brad touched me he  told me I had little bit of  high temperature , so he put  some cold  compress on my body to lower my temperature , the whole week I had  night sweats and  one of the  days I complaining  of sore throat  , I also went to the doctor  because I was having Cystitis , so he send me a course of antibiotics .

on thursday I went to a doctors appointment and I ask for blood tests to see my progesterone levels and my hcg leves .

On friday , I went to visit my friend Mia  who is  pregnant ,   we  had  some homemade smoothies  and a muffin 🙂  it was actually a good day .  When I came back home  I went to  Pee and then I notice  a  thick red line in my undies . I called Brad , He said , Is better this way ,  you are having a natural miscarriage , just let it  happen .  😦  we  hug ,  I cry .. ..  I was prepared for having a natural miscarrige , I went to sleep , and next day  , there was nothing in my  undies , so I assume It was probably  little bit of spotting , I blame  the fact I the day before I took my drugs  little bit late  ( I’m talking about the prednisone  and the aspirine )  That saturday , I actually felt  very good , I felt  little bit pregnant again , and my boobs were sore again  ( my boobs stopped  being sore about a week  before  but as I am taking prednisolone and  clexane  I though may be  my pregnancy  symptoms were hidden  because of the drug ,  on saturday I started some vitamin B6 and B12   , and I just felt my energy  was back .

Sunday , I got my  Hcg  levels and Progesterone levels  results , I was not totally happy , but I actually felt more relax  my progesterone levels went up  , not  too much , but double from  7.7  to 15.55 nmol/l   in   about 3 weeks , still  very low  considering  the healthy progesterone levels  during pregnancy start at 39 nmol/L ,  my HCG levels  Increase , but   not double or even triple in this 3 weeks , but they increase and I  was still within normal levels . My Hcg  Actually  shows  little bit of my past pregnancy in 2012  in which  my levels didnt past the 1400’s  range .

I really though this pregnancy  was gonna be the one .  Actually I always kept the ilussion  that every pregnancy was gonna be the one .

 

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Ultrasound number 4 : Little Embryo , Where are you ????

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Last week on Monday I had my ultrasound number 3 , and I was devastated with the results , embryo suppose to be 7 or 8  weeks , but is almost invisible in the ultrasound  , the radiology Technician and I we only could see a little point  hidden in a corner  with a clear  heartbeat of 59 bpm , she say  the embryo looks like  5 weeks and 4 days .

4 weeks ago  I had an ultrasound and it shows a  6 week  2 days baby with signs of  bradycardia  ( only 47 bpm  )

Today Monday 2 of december  Scan number 4 :  I got the  worse radiologist technician I ever had , very arrogant and stink  cigarette oddor. It was disgusting  but I had to do it , I was needing some answers  or some relief  after last  week .

So first  I ask if it was possible to have a female  conducting the ultrasound ,( but there was none) , as I have a retroverted uterus that in many cases don’t let see anything  in the scans so we always finish doing  vaginal scans  .

The initial ultrasound of my womb  shows  the sac , but he actually though I was too early . When I explained  that I already had 3 previous scans,  he look at me  as If I am crazy , when I try to explain that we saw the heartbeat  and the little embryo 3 weeks ago .

He say something  like ” is very clear  there is nothing here ”  so I beg him to please  perform a vaginal  scan  as I would prefer it .

although  the technician was very uncooperative, he was very unkind and  even unprofessional , he still perform the Vaginal Scan ,  I guess because my hubby was there trying to support me , and gave him  the look .

Although the radiologist  didn’t mention  anything during or after the scan , Brad and I we could  see it , It looks like a  blighted ovum , I know blighted ovums , from my last  2 pregnancies , the difference  today it was that I am  sure that 1 week ago  there was still  a little embryo  with his heartbeat  and fetal pole there  and  3 weeks before that scan , I  could perfectly see  the little embryo with his heartbeat .

so what happen today ?

where is my little baby ??

I am totally  devastated ,  I can not think , I can not  function . I was thinking something was wrong , but  today  is totally  worse ,  my little  embryo has vanished from  the sac ……    what a day  😦

Unexplained Recurrent Miscarriages : Baby number 5

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Hello Everybody,

My name is  Johanna  and everybody calls me YoYo.  I am a spanish speaking  girl  living in Australia 7 years ago , so please I apologise in advance If my  English  is not the best .

Today is my  first post  ever.

My purpose with this blog is telling you my story, and may be help you  to find  the answers you need  to overcome  your current situation or just to let you know that  you are not the only one , I was there too  and many other women  were  and are there too . This blog  is my way of looking  for  healing for myself , healing through  expressing what for years I have been never been able to  properly talk with anyone.

This is my way to reach that like me  have a history of  “unexplained recurrent/repetitive  miscarriages”.

I am 33 years old ,  and I have been pregnant 5  times .

As a matter of fact  I am currently pregnant  I supposed to be 8 weeks  or more  but my last ultrasound  1 week ago  shows  5 week 4 days  embryo ,  heartbeat:  59 Bpm,  they found  fetal pole too .

About 3 weeks  ago , the embryo  seems to be  6 weeks 2 days,   they found  heartbeat:  47 Bpm  consistent with a bradycardia  (very low heart beat) The radiologist  advised nothing to worry about as it might be that babies heart Just start  Beating  .

Even though  I am freaking out , a  heartbeat , was the last request from the doctor at  the hospital  , before  he would authorise to give me  the  prescription for Clexane .  Clexane  is one of the drugs I am currently using to prevent   my body of producing  clots.  Was very difficult  to convince  my doctor  at the hospital in Australia l to  prescribe it.  

 

The doctors at the Townsville hospital  consider that Protein S deficiency   was not low enough as to  prescribe  the Clexane . ( my results were 47 , normal ranges start at 59 )   I am also  a low positive for the Anticardiolipin antibodies, for which they send me to take  baby aspirin  and folic acid . 

So today  Monday 2 of December of 2014 ,  at 4 pm  I got  to visit the “North  Xray ” for another ultrasound .  Is currently  8.46 am , I have  a Psychologist appointment  ( thanks for the mental health  government fund for this )  and then  I have to wait to   see the results in this ultrasound .  

I had  1 ultrasound last week  at the hospital that shows basically nothing   but the heartbeat , and one previous that one 3 weeks ago that shows  the most beautiful thing I  ever saw in my life 🙂    That day I couldn’t  believe what my eyes were looking 🙂   I had 5 previous pregnancies , the 2 last ones , blighted ovum . But  in this one , a little embryo  develop 🙂  was  amazing , tears were falling from my eyes  .

Little Chicken 6 w 2 d