I've known for the last handful of years that June-August are my worst migraine days. I started tracking pain levels and symptoms a few years ago, and that was really an eye opener for me. In 2023, I had *one* pain free day in all of June and July -- and because this is when... Continue Reading →
Back to Basics: 2025
When we moved in 2021, I opted out of bringing most of the various objects and iconography I’d gathered over the years of devotional practice with and dedication to both Poseidon and Odin. Partially this was about space: we were about to move cross country, this time without the benefit of being able to sell... Continue Reading →
File Under: Loving What Is
In April, we adopted a kitten.We weren't aiming to. By agreement, Beth and I decided a few years ago that we would allow the number of our household to decrease naturally over the next decade. We'd actually decided that before we adopted Wil and Diana (the only two cats we've ever gone out and sought... Continue Reading →
Grieving What Was, and Loving What Is
The first part of that title is easy: I fall into grief readily. I grieve that which was but is no longer (I miss the Pacific Northwest like an open wound that never truly scabs over; I miss who and how I was, back when my migraines were not an almost every day thing; I... Continue Reading →
So many drafts started and abandoned since my last post.
The hard thing I did: went and got my learner's permit -- again. Eventually went and started taking driving lessons, a year ago. Stalled out with that because money, and then my very generous and kind aunt offered to let me terrorize use her and her vehicle to practice with. Got my driver's license this... Continue Reading →
I Am Not Okay
But I'm working on it! It's been a rough time since returning to New England. Suffice it to say, I have Regrets. I'm trying really hard to not focus on those, and instead focus on the things I'm grateful for. I'm closer to having a driver's license than I've ever been before (I need way... Continue Reading →
Did a hard thing the other day
One of those things that, from the outside, doesn't look hard, shouldn't be hard, and is a silly thing to be nervous about. And, still, it was hard. Mentally, emotionally. The task was objectively not hard.Part of it involved getting a number and waiting for number to be called. And the number I got was... Continue Reading →
Welcoming Mabontide; a writing meditation
“What are we watching?” He flops down next to me on the floor, copying my position almost exactly. A plush pillow that may or may not be a stuffed unicorn with a rainbow tail is tucked under his armpits, propping his chest up. Elbows bend as he rests his chin in his hands. The warmth... Continue Reading →
Life Update
TL;DR: Migraines. It is amazing how heavy expectation and anticipation can be. I’ve decided that I want to write here more (ever) and that I miss the ease with which I used to just pour words onto the page and share the things I feel vulnerable about. I’ve missed using the written word to process ... Continue Reading →
Migraine update
January was utter hell, migraine wise. Missed 6 days of work, had 10 migraines with pain, three migraines without pain (I swear those are more dangerous, because at least when I'm in the thick of the pain I *know* I'm not of sound mind. The sneaker migraines trick me into thinking I'm okay, and then... Continue Reading →
Strip Me Back to the Bone 