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Let me tell you about the story of the girl in black and the man in the rainbow-colored coat.

They got married just recently.

The girl in black never saw herself to ever be the kind to settle down [especially with just one man]. I suppose that it’s the people around her that made her question the sacredness and power of marriage. Hmm, let’s see… First, even though she is a legitimate child, she was born a year after her father’s first mistress gave birth to their first-born; Second, her sister got pregnant out of wedlock, married her ex-husband a year after, raised three daughters with him for 10 years, only to end up filing for annulment; Third, she has a brother who used to be the boy-next-door who always got straight As and had no vices. He later on became a well-respected politician, who, unfortunately, got influenced [by the people surrounding him] into becoming a reckless alcoholic and gaudy person. After promising his bride a huge sum of monthly allowance, he lost his position in the city council and ended up penniless. To save face to those who used to work for him, the girl’s mother volunteered to help the brother out financially. The mother got the brother’s wife a two-toned Rolex with diamonds, which the wife thought came directly from the guy’s pocket; And, finally,  the girl’s best friend. She got knocked-up at the early age of 17 by a 30-something NBI agent, who was legally still married with numerous women and children on the side. The best friend became the agent’s flavor-of-the-month for about 3 years, but later on left her for a younger girl. He did, however, leave the best friend with a BMW, which she later discovered was a stolen vehicle. Years after, she found out from the media that her pseudo husband’s house got raided by the Philippine SWAT team and that he was put behind bars for good.

Intense, eh?

So, how about the man in the rainbow-colored coat?

Well, he was raised by a conservative and religious family. He had always been the good guy–the reliable one. Although he learned to smoke and like cigarettes in his late 20s, he never became a drinker, a gambler, a spendthrift, a narcissist, an atheist, a woman-beater, a cheater or a promiscuous person. He was what most girls would refer to as…

…the almost perfect guy. So why did the MAN in the rainbow-colored coat fall in love with the GIRL in black?

I may “kinda” know the answer.

I, too, got married just recently. While waiting inside the bridal car, I was enveloped by all sorts of emotions. I even had a huge panic attack even when I was already walking towards the altar. I recall almost losing consciousness. My face was red, and I was sweating all over. Why? Because, like the girl in black, I was skeptic and afraid that I, too, would end up separated to my hubby one day, just like everyone else close to me. I recently tied the knot with a man who thought that the reason why I was red as a tomato and a bit sobbing [while walking on the altar] was because I was filled with happy emotions. He said that upon watching me, he almost broke into tears. What he didn’t know was that I was trembling, not in joy, but rather, in fear.

He, on the other hand, says that he never cringed at the thought of “forever”. In less than a year of being official, he already felt that it was me that he wanted to spend the rest of his life with. Every time I ask him, “Why me? Why not the girl you went out with for 4 years?”–his answer remains the same. He’d always say, “I didn’t feel ‘it’ with her. I felt ‘it’ with you.”

Now, I didn’t marry writer, Nicholas Sparks, or best actor/hunk, Robert Downey, Jr. I am quite certain that my husband has never wooed me with romantic words and gestures for he is never good with words or does he have any skill in acting. His coat is definitely rainbow-colored. He sees life like a children’s book. I’ve always worn dark-colored coats. I see life like like a gray sand castle ready to be swept and ruined by any wave–big or small.

I may be walking on clouds right now, some might say, and I WON’T beg to disagree. But, who knows? Maybe black and rainbow [when combined] can actually make a bright color.

That, we will find out together in my next entry.