me and blogging habit
hello, people!!
i dont know how many attempts of blogging that i had. one thing i know is, i am not good at writing, really envy those who are good at words. huhu.. i think im only good at smilling. ;D and a lot of dreaming.
however, i am trying my best here, to put words into their right place to inspire people. hihi.. tho might not in a big way, but small things which may be very useful to reflect and think of. =)
wish u all enjoy my blog, and happy blogging!!
9 comments May 20, 2008
i miss writing
i cant remember when was the last time i wrote something in this blog.
but right now i really feel like writing
life sometimes can be so harsh i feel like i juz wanna hide
from everybody
sometimes feeling unsafe insecure
i know that writing would heal
i feel like crying but the tears refuse to come out
i feel like shouting but im so weak
my heart is screaming
i wanna run away
but i dont know where to go
Add a comment November 17, 2015
My Pad
Assalamualaikum..
Its been sometimes since i last post an entry here. Im so sorry to myself (coz ive got no follower), for stop writing. I hav promised to write when alisha was born, but still.. This is wut happened. N alisha is already 1y8month. Such a big girl she is.
I hope dgn ada nya my new ipad ni, makin rajin la aku ber blog. Although the real reason of this ipad to exist in my life was for my learning, easy and quick reference.
Add a comment October 19, 2012
Magnesium Sulphate
Hey, im back again! Thanx, ching mun! hehe. I memang planning to write again and again. And have been planning on this topic since last entry. 😉
How was I diagnosed to have Impending Eclampsia?
Hmm.. It kind off incidental diagnosis lor..
It was my 2nd day of O&G posting and I was 36week 4 days POA. I was posted to Gynae ward and was not asked to do tagging since I was already 36 week and my O&G boss is the nicest boss ever.I was actually enjoying O&G 🙂
However, the only thing worries me was my lower limb oedema was getting worst. No, i think i had generalized oedema. Legs and hands are painful. Especially the MCP and MTP joint. Alhamdulillah my hubby is such a nice person, I had the massage nearly every night.
Hmm.. back to the story, so I did a UFEME.
As what I have thought. It came back as;
Proteinuria 4+
Leukocytes 2+
all others are negative.
I was.. dont know what to say, thought maybe I had UTI, that’s why got proteinuria. But then, with my oedema, I was worried.
SO, after the morning round, I asked my MO’s opinion. She was also worried, and ask me to consult our specialist.
Then, it all begin.
She asked the nurse to measure my BP.
Ya Allah.. it was 150/90 over 3 repeated readings and rest 😦
I was then admitted to antenatal ward for close observation.
Honestly, I was well. I had no symptom. My BP and UFEME the last 2 weeks was normal. And my baseline BP was only 90/60. The highest BP I had ever recorded was 100/60.
I was worried, of course.
But i tried my best to calm myself.
I was admitted to acute bay. It was kinda funny when you are the one who was clerked. But I made my colleague’s life easy. haha. Since i know everything they wanted to know.
I was given T. Nifedipine since my BP did not come down.
Yet, the 1st 1 hour I was already bored.
But, being admitted is borring. haha.
2 hours after admission, i complaint of headache to my hubby. COz im so bored!! I cant do anything. However, until petang pon, my headache didnt go off.
Thus, at last i let the HO in charge know and she consulted the MO.
Well, well, well.. I had IE symptom la!!
I was then sent to HDU labour room stat!
AT 5pm, specialist did round in HDU. And of course, to play safe, she said, must start MgSO4. SInce I had persistent headache.
Not just that, prior to IVI MGSO4, i had vomiting and my headache actually got more severe. 😦
And IVI MgSO4 was started at 6pm, initially with the bolus dose over 1 hour. Ya ALlah, at that time He was the only one who knows how painful it is and it cause me to feel very2 warm. I was so irritable like a 3 year old kid. Furthermore, my worst nightmare ever, I had CBD inserted and it was painful and uncomfortable for the first few hours.
I think the nurses might have add up my diagnosis, ie; Manjalitis.
haha. i dont care, coz the combo of MgSO4 and CBD was not good at all.
ALhamdulillah, my hubby was always by my side.. Pity him.. Thanx, sayang..
Add a comment March 28, 2011
New Life
Assalamualaikum..
hye, everybody. aku pon tak tahu if anybody still following this blog. its been such a loooong time since i last wrote anything here that i coouldnt remember when was it. But, maybe masa tu tak kerja and tak kahwin lagi kot.
Now that im a houseman.In my second year of my housemanship. and i am married to my Mr. Izmail. Not only that, i am a Mama. =)
Can u believe it? Macam baru semalam aku daki bukit kat batu pahat with wan, khung ying, ann, kasemsuk and others. Macam baru few days ago aku gaduh dengan Dr. Kathi. (hmm.. tak ingat dah if i spell his name right)
What exactly do i want to write in this post?
Hmm..
Maybe, i wanted to share my latest experience. Maybe setakat ni, this is the biggest trial Allah is giving me.
My pregnancy, my baby and everything i am able to type on.
I got married 22nd May 2010. My husband is the best husband i could ever have. ;p Love him soooo much!
Then, in July, on 25th July, i broke the big news to my hubby.
‘Sayang, u r a father’.
terganga my hubby. haha
Pendek cerita, my pregnancy went through complete 2 postings. Paediatrics and Medical. Darn it was hard. But i made it through. Had never collapsed. But it was tiring, and honestly, i kinda sad coz i think i was not able to perform fully. Yet, I am very thankful to Allah who has give me strength to go throught those postings and I think i have done my best. (Medical posting has got a lot of stories. I’ll tell about it later)
Anyway, back to my pregnancy. Antenatally, it was uneventful other than bilateral lower limbs oedema and the leg pain.
I finished medical posting by 36 weeks POA. And i started O&G. It was exciting.
However, so sad that by 2nd day of my posting, I was diagnosed to have Impending Eclampsia. =(
I was infused with Magnesium Sulphate for 24 hours. It was painful. Allah je yang tahu,
Then, I was induced to delivery. Balloon catheter was inserted for 24 hours and the next day I delivered my baby girl, Alisha Safiyya Binti Amir Izmail on 5th March 2011. Alhamdulillah…
Hmm.. Actually there are a lot more I wanted to tell. And I havent even reach story of the ‘trial’ Allah is giving me.
However, im kinda tired. Maybe because of the “back to back calls” im doing taking care of Alisha, or maybe im having anemia. My conjuctivae showed my Hb is about 10 maybe. haha
I’ll be back again.
Have a great day, and please pray that I will make it through this ‘big trial’. InsyaAllahh
Wassallam
1 comment March 24, 2011
da-lama-tak-update-post
salam…
hye everybody! im so sorry for not updating this blog for months! huhu. i cant believe i havent been blogging these few months and there were a lot of things that happened. so many things!
to conclude, i have graduated medical school and am going to start being a government servant by tomorow. yep! tomorrow.
i have a cocktail of feelings in my heart, and thousands of butterflies in my tummy. haha. can u imagine wut kind of feelings im having right now?
whatever it is, i am praying to Allah, that He will make me a caring and competent doctor. Wish that i will be better and better. wish that i will always remember to improve myself and do the best.
🙂
insyaAllah, i will be updating again. see u guys, and have a good day, okay!
love,
Dr. Sajidah Yusrina Zaimi
🙂
2 comments October 19, 2009
bye bye batu pahat~~
Just another three days before I leave batu pahat. 3 nights of sleeps left.
My friends have been expressing their feelings about leaving batu pahat. most of them have mix feelings, i think most of them feel sad about this. Yea… coz this is where we finish our final year and we may not be seeing each other again after this. But, somehow of coz they are happy coz this mean that we r finishing our study…
what about me???
I dont know what to say.
i think i may conclude that my living here has actually made me feel;
~inadequate
~hopeless
~helpless
~lonesome
~over sensitive
and some other feelings which are indescribable.
I cant wait to leave. And I really pray that I wont have to come here again to stay for another 6 months. I wont be able to do that.
Maybe im juz being emotional while Im reading this, considering my estrogen level is at the lowest state of the cycle.
I do have some happy moments here. I tried to actually patched all the negative feelings with that memories. Yet, I have not been able to do so. Maybe my heart juz not belong to Batu Pahat.
Im sorry…
_NaNa_
1 comment July 21, 2009
ONE NOTHING
what will u do when u feel sad, mad or happy?
hmm.. u might share it with ur family, friends or ur partner.
but maybe there are certain things that u wont share
certain things u may think there’s no use of letting people know
coz it wont make a difference
yea…
there is always this ONE thing i wont share
i dont know
its not like i really wont share
maybe i just prefer to keep it to myself
or maybe i still could not find the comfort after sharing this ONE thing
people wont understand
and even if i let them know
still there’s no use
coz that ONE thing cannot be brought back
and NOTHING could replace it
i guess i just have to live with this
Add a comment July 15, 2009
~~jalan-jalan
dah lama saya tak update blog ni. maybe sebab saya buzy. emm. ye la tu. anyway, sekarang pun saya buzy sebab nak kena siapkan portfolio. tapi macam malas sekejap. hehe
just came back from a great holiday! 🙂
so, this coming day mesti rajin sangat-sangat. hopefully la. nanti Mr. Izmail marah! 😉
this weekend pergi holiday with Mr. Izmail and his Mama, whom I call Mama too. ye la, coz I only hav Mak. Takde Mama lagi. hehe. adakah alasan macam ni?
We went to a place name Eagle Ranch. This place is set to be mini cowboy town. the accommodations semua ala-ala cowboy. so thus the employees there, cowboy style.
kalau ikutkan, eagle ranch ni takde natural tarikan sangat. its more to man made. but super creative! tak tahu la macam mana orang boleh terpikir nak set a very nice cowboy town as a tourist attraction. maybe kat oversea memang ada tempat ni jugak kot.
so, dekat sana u can do a lot of activities. if u came in group, u can do more la, macam jungle trekking, sea rafting, paintball..
what we did on saturday was canoeing where the canoe merata-rata je pergi n langgar-langgar tiang. haha
sambil canoeing, sambil nyanyi lagu wonderpet yg malay version tu ngan Mr. Izmail. klaka!
“apa yang penting? Kerjasama!!”
tapi Mama cakap, sorang ke sana, sorang ke sini. hahaha
then, go kart! our first time. dah lama Mr. Izmail nak try go kart. at last tercapai jugak impian dia. seronok. there will be second, third n seterusnya. mula2, saya drive slow2 je, coz takut. then laju sket. tapi tak laju sangat coz the steering wheel tu berat! im scared if laju, i cant control the direction. nevertheless, it was super fun!!
horse riding was also very nice. tak puas!! nak naik lagi. 🙂
ada few things lagi we all did, but then afternoon, we went to mandi pantai kat melaka. since eagle ranch memang already very near to malacca. we had a good time there. tapi, Mr. Izmail’s foor injured coz terlanggar batu masa swimming. kesian my love… hope, its better now.
it was a great holiday.
but the parting time was hard. sedih nak berpisah dengan Mama n Mr. Izmail. 😦
its okay, i’ll c u n Mama in 2 weeks time. hehe.
thanx a lot to Mama for accepting me as part of the family, for the holiday and for everything…
Im so glad and thankful for given this chance. I wish this would last forever.
taknak thanx Mr. Izmail! 😉
Add a comment July 12, 2009
2 Kings and 1 Robin
last sunday Mr. Izmail and me went to Alamanda, Putrajaya. It was actually a very last minute plan, since the initial plan was me finishing my paeds portfolio and Mr. Izmail have a good rest at home.
However, the fact that we were just an hour journey apart made it irresistible from seeing each other 😉
(well, since memang dah few months pon we havent see each other, so u guys takleh comment, k. haha)
wut is it about ‘2 kings and 1 robin’ ?
emm
the first king is Sushi King. we ate sushi and tamaki at sushi king coz i have 3 RM 5 voucher (unfortunately only can use 1 per customer). but it was nice. eating sushi wif love one. i think it is kinda romantic.
(hmm.. dont know actually the link between romantic and sushi. lol)
anyway, after the first ‘king’ we went to solat maghrib. the surau was well congested coz its sunday! so it took some times to pray.
after prayer, we went to our second ‘king’. its Burger King!!! 🙂
i remember telling Mr. Izmail that i so love the whooper. eating this is also romantic. (err… byknyer romantic)
well… its romantic coz it reminds me of the one day when we head back to kl from penang. we dropped by at restoran jejantas, ate whooper while enjoying the highway scenery. it was super nice, ok!
🙂
err… if u feel nauseated reading this, plez close the window, k.
habis cerita 2 kings, then come la our ‘robin’ hood. which is actually baskin robin ice cream. indulgence is the word. love it tho!
ps; deary, today my friend gave me another 3 vouchers!! yayaya 😉
Add a comment June 30, 2009
u
today, isnt a good day for someone whom i love the most.
it must be a hard day.
i dont know. to what extent this day has affected you.
u must be feeling frustrated. disappointed. sad.
i am not sure what else are there coz my imagination is not good.
but, knowing that u r sad and not knowing how to help u is the saddest feeling i ever had.
i wish i could reach to u.
see u in front of me, so i could take care of u.
i’ll feel better if i could actually see u
even just for seconds
i dont know what do u want from me
hmm
u might dont wanna talk to me for a little while
or a little longer
but u know wut i want?
if it is possible, i want to hear u every seconds
i want u to not put me aside
i want u to let me know how could i help u
i want u to be here with me
i’ll do anything to be by your side at this moment
Add a comment June 22, 2009
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