I’m just going to leave this video here.
RIP, Martin Luther King Jr.
A Few Things Going On
I have been trying to research why others get immunity for liking mainstream things when I was bullied and punished (literally and metaphorically) for liking more obscure movies and anime in general.
I have been listening to even more music that isn’t in English. It has been very fascinating, and I can make others look close-minded if I really wanted to.
Some sequel posts could happen with other concepts I’ve done on this blog, but I can’t promise I will make frequent posts, given how swamped I am.
AEW Worlds End 2025 Zero Hour Highlights
Yes, I was at AEW Worlds End not too long ago, where I got VIP tickets, which was interesting, having crowd-free shopping, a free merch bag, a meet-and-greet, and photos with Jurassic Express and with a replica AEW World Championship belt.
It was a bit surreal sitting on floor seats and doing extra things before the show, while having VIP privileges, even if it was awkward when security asked me about my ticket when I was returning to my seat, despite wearing a VIP lanyard, and I showed my ticket to show I was telling the truth. I did enjoy multiple matches in the show and thought it was awesome that Mascara Dorada pointed at me when starting a chant at the beginning of the match. Can’t complain about that.
This could be a break from my mental health issues, as I’ve been feeling depressed and anxious in general.
2026: A Short Post
I personally don’t see this being a good year, even if we are over a week and change from New Year’s Day.
With the insanity going on this world, I don’t see things getting any better, and that’s all I’m going to say about that.
I have started a few goals, but I don’t want to publicize them for fear of failing these goals by the end of the year. I did start some things related to creative goals, but I don’t want to say anything. Hopefully I can succeed as I’m doing my best to put in the work.
Happy Early Christmas!
I know Christmas is tomorrow, but I hope you have a great holiday season, whether you celebrate that holiday or not! Have a blessed holidays!
1550+ Days on Duolingo!
Finally made another milestone in Duolingo the other day, where I’ve been learning languages when I’m not taking my language classes, working, or dealing with life in general. I hope I can be good enough to talk to people whenever I get a chance to travel to different countries. I don’t know when that will happen, but here’s hoping. Besides that, I’ve been finding more errors in Swahili in Western media (yes, this includes examples when it comes to THAT franchise), and I feel my listening comprehension has improved. With Japanese, I haven’t been practicing on Duolingo as frequently, but I’m still taking classes and have been watching more anime in Japanese recently, which has helped with practice, weirdly enough. Oddly enough, I have noticed things when watching a 00s series that was surprisingly easy to understand, as well as picking up the fact that a character had a Kansai accent that I never noticed when first watching this series in my youth.
Maybe I’ll get better, and this practice will lead to something good. =
Some questions for you
How are you celebrating this holiday season? If you don’t celebrate, I also understand.
If you had any trauma or something in your life that deeply affected you negatively, how do you deal with it, even if therapists don’t help you?
Have you ever been bullied by your interests before and did anyone help you cope with that?
Anxiety Again
I finished sharing my Audiofeed videos from this year, as I spread them out over the past few months. At least that was something constructive, sharing my video projects showcasing various bands and singers I saw last summer. However, it’s been a struggle coming up with content besides those videos, even if they did give me joy.
This year in general, raised my anxiety and depression levels, whether it was the fact that two family members passed away this year, been working so much, trying to get in the swing of reviewing on my other blog, news around the world and the sociopolitical state of this country while seeing just how cruel people are even if I’m not naive about humanity consisting of mostly horrible people. Sometimes, I felt like I was bottling up so much anger more than usual, whether it’s not translating that into creativity, ranting about movies, or the atrocities in this world when I could’ve spoken up more. There are times when I was told I’m worrying too much, while others didn’t know that I was catastrophizing about major things happening in society or even “smaller” aspects in everyday life. Some goals I couldn’t even complete, which hurts so much.
There’s too much going on, and I don’t think 2026 will be much better.
Audiofeed 2025: John Van Deusen
Here concludes my Audiofeed experience this year, and this involves one of the headlining musicians whom I heard of but never saw live until this year. This is John Van Deusen, who’s a singer/songwriter from Anacortes, WA. He was the former lead singer of indie rock band The Lonely Forest, but has released multiple solo albums after the fact. I’ve been checking out his music, and I even played his song “Boring” in an earlier post showing songs that use the Swahili language, since the intro features Swahili singing, which was used correctly, which I complimented him on. I even asked him a question about that song—why he chose Swahili for it—during a Q&A session in the middle of his set. He gave a good answer about visiting Kenya, enjoying the language, and wanting to be accurate, to which I said “Asante sana” (Thank you very much). John was a good guy and a good musician.
https://iamjohnvandeusen.bandcamp.com/
A Need To Be Creative
I need to get to creative works again.
There’s fear and anxiety over past failures, along with worry about making sure things go right.
I know what to do and what to work on. I just hope I can achieve my goals after failing this year, even if some were beyond my control.
Ospreyshire's Realm 