I love you dear!

Times sure flies...When I looked back, I saw many rants which I've made in the past and now it seems irrelevant. When you are happy and fulfilled the misery will gone. Despite all the bad things which happened all the times, I've him to console me. Well, he is not someone to console but he has his way to cheer me up and the most important is I know he loves me and I love him too. He own my heart!

I can't be more grateful and that's explained my transformation from someone who went out "socializing" and flirting to someone who sit still at home..waiting for him and family to plan for everything....hmmm indecisive is another new attitude to me. Weekend is fill with gym. Got a bigger chest now but still no sign of reduce in waistline...sigh.

Don't Do Me Favour

Blame it on my natural sense. Somehow sometimes unspoken reveil and it hurts.

Peace when you have little expectation. Enjoy your life as it is....and learn who cares!

I would ignore his birthday for what he was doing to me but again, if I really ignore him...how many more birthday I get to celebrate with him? He is changing and I am changing too. Every celebration could be the last.

It is true he didn't take me as someone important anymore eversince so many "things" happened or he never even see me as someone important. Who am I anyway? He has his right.....Time to practise my right,I guess.

I will take everyday spent with him as last. If one day, he left. At least I still have all the memories with me. No time to think what he did to me. At least I have give my best, I really don't expect anything from you!

I am a person with lots of love and am still believe in that too...just that too much things had happened. Too much fear accumulated...we all know that's hurt and now I choose to live in the safe side and try to hold myself back from falling to anyone...simply because I have been there and done that. Truly appreciate my indifferent feeling now, as if I will not be affected anymore. Can it be I am turning too cold now. Must be harsh to those who really want to go inside...but too bad, my heart is locked.

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You always remain special to me...Just that it's different now. In the past, you mean my whole world but now I come before you. Holding your hands till the end used to be my wish but now I don't seem to bother anymore...who would bother in something which yield no outcome.

Selfish as it seems but now I live my life for myself even if it means I have to go through the remaining path myself but I am ready for it. As for you, we leave it to fate to decide. I wish you happiness and mine too regardless the outcome.

Tradeoff

Is innocent good? I have no idea..but once you lost it, you will unlikely to retrieve back what you have lost. Months ago, someone told me that I have been too innocent but months later..that's not the case anymore.

For all the experiences that I have been through. I have gradually lost that last piece of my innocent....hahaha...you know it's not easy to keep a good thing but losing is only within seconds. how ironic! But our life has to go on, even if you missed the old you but there's no turning back...you can only learn to accept the changes and adapt..that's called life.