A Small Dream

On a rainy afternoon in the Malayalam month of Karkitakam, a month famous for its monsoon downpours, I headed to the kitchen to get my chai. I loved sitting in the veranda and watching the rain. The tangible coolness against your skin during a downpour was a welcome relief from the monsoon humidity. She was pouring the chai into little teacups when I walked into the kitchen. She has been coming to my house in India regularly from the time that I can remember. She has a warm, toothy grin that lights up her face. Her skin is wrinkled from old age, and darkened by harsh Indian summers. Her feet are blistered from walking barefoot wherever she goes. But I’ve always felt that there is something special about her; something warm and genuine about each of her actions.

She had come to see me during my recent visit to India. People in India rarely visit someone empty handed, and sure enough, she had brought a sweet gift for me. She presented me with a huge jar of her home-made coconut oil. She had scoured the woods near her house to pick the best Ayurvedic herbs for making hair grow healthy and strong. Then she had spent the entire morning heating fresh coconut oil with herbs and spices until it was boiled to perfection. Afterwards, she had traveled on 3 buses with her bad arthritic knees just come and see me. I had asked her to stay the night at my house; it was the least I could do.

We took our cups of chai to the porch and sat on the dry steps. The room right behind us was filled with children from the local school who came for my Aunt’s English tutoring lessons. We could hear them talking to eachother, practicing English before their class. Their chatter added to the pitter patter of the falling rain. She pulled the frayed end of her sari around her shoulders, turned to me, and said, “This is how it all began”. Seeing the puzzled look on my face she started to explain, and out poured a wonderful story.

When she was 15, she had failed the 10th grade public examination in India. She begged and pleaded with her family to allow her to repeat the year and attempt the exam again. Her family would not relent, and they took her out of high school. She spent her youth taking care of her family. Waking up at 4 A.M. every day, she had to fetch water from the well for the entire household, prepare breakfast, send her nieces and nephews off to school, prepare lunch, wash the clothes, clean the house, make dinner, and do the dishes. She also had to tend to the livestock, and occasionally help out at the paddy feilds. During this time she had to travel on the bus to a nearby town to purchase groceries for the month. It was on one such trip that she overheard two little girls talking to each other in English. When she turned around to look at them, she saw their parents’ faces full of pride and joy, beaming at the children. It was then and there that she decided that when she had a daughter she would send her to an English-Medium School, and have her educated to the best of her ability. This was a promise she made to herself, and she was determined to keep it regardless of the sacrifices she would have to make.

At the age of 17 she was married off to a young farmer. The first time they were able to talk to each other, she informed him of her promise. She spoke to him with great trepidation, for she was not sure how he would react. Afterall, she had seen him for the first time on her wedding day. If he didn’t approve of it, she knew that she couldn’t make it on her own. She would need his full support. To her great relief, he agreed, and together they started working towards making their small dream come true. Her husband worked hard on his land and saved all of his profit. They built a small hut for themselves. During festivals like Onam and Deepavali, they settled for new dhotis instead of buying new sets of clothes. They rarely went to the local cinema theater or to the town for outings, instead they made to do with a small radio. Eventually they had two children, a girl and a boy. They used their hard earned money to send both of them to a good school. They were overjoyed when their children started reading, writing, and speaking in English. They watched their children advance through school, get into good colleges, and earn professional degrees. Their dream had come true.

She looked at me with misty eyes. The rain had subsided, and the setting sun was peeping through the leaves of the coconut tree in our yard. I was in awe of her courage and determination. It was because of people like her that Kerala could boast of its high literacy rates, and upward trend in educating girls.

At this point the children had finished their class and they filtered onto the porch behind my Aunt. My Aunt came over and asked us what we were talking about for so long. That is when she turned to my Aunt, and with her warm smile, said, “I was telling her about how I raised you”.

The Hill

Everyday, there is a particular hill that I have to conquer on my walk up to the college campus from the subway station. I have a love hate relationship with this hill. On many occasions this hill has made me late for classes. It has made me slip and slide during icy weather, and every morning, it makes me arrive at the top out of breath and gasping for air. Even though it has given me so much trouble, I’ve come to love this hill.

A third of the way up the hill is a small elementary school. In the mornings, I’m greeted by the smiling faces of children running to get to school on time. Some walk hand in hand with their friends, others race each other, and the smallest ones cling to their parents. They bring me back to memories of my own childhood. When I see these children walking to school, I remember my grandfather taking me to the small preschool in our village on his bicycle. I remember my grandfather’s strong hands lifting me up and placing me on a special seat in the front of the bicycle that he had built especially for me. I remember the sweet goodbye kisses from my grandma. Most of all, I remember the wind sweeping across my face, and the greenery of the paddy fields and rubber plantations as we made our way to school. As I travel down memory lane I eventually make it to the top of the hill. The rush of the cars at the busy intersection jars me back to reality. Leaving those beautiful memories behind, I cross the street and enter the world of academia.

The walk down the hill back home is a much more introspective one. On my solitary walks down the hill, I like to enjoy the natural beauty around me. The little tree at the foot of the hill is in full bloom during spring time, covered in white blossoms. In the summer, I try not to step on the berries that drop from the same tree and turn the concrete a murky blue. From the top of the hill, there is a beautiful view of the vast sky in between tall apartment buildings. In the fall, you can see the sun setting amidst brilliant orange hues, and a sliver of the cresent moon adorning the sky at the same time. During winter, its hard to make out the tiny stars because of all of the lights in the city, but the moon shines bright against the dark sky. In the summertime, the sky is a golden pink and it’s scattered with clouds in the evening time. Some days there is a light drizzle. I don’t mind the dampness; some days I actually enjoy it.

Even though the hill is somewhat of an obstacle, I’ve realized that it has given me much more than leg cramps and shortness of breath. It has presented me with moments of clarity, time to think, and appreciation for what is around me. In the monotony of everyday life, it has been a respite.



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