Time For My Wine

Due to health issues and a few medications I don’t drink alcohol anymore. Back in the day, I would put away my fair share of scotch, cognac and whiskey depending on the decade.

No matter which decade, anytime I would visit my Aunt Mary in Las Vegas, Cabernet Sauvignon was the drink of choice while sitting in the house and during dinner preparation. I have many fond memories of sitting on a chair at the bar between the kitchen and dining room with a bowl of peanuts with a glass of Cabernet Sauvignon talking with my Aunt while she prepared dinner.

As the years went on, my Grandma ended up moving in with my Aunt. That made those visits even more cherished. Aunt Mary would have a glass of wine whether I was there or not. My grandma was a willing participant.

Late one afternoon Aunt Mary and Grandma were at the grocery store getting a few last-minute items for dinner. While waiting for the cashier to finish ringing up their order, my grandma looked at her watch and probably a little louder than she should have, said “Mary it’s 4:00, time for my wine.”. The cashier stopped and looked up. Aunt Mary smiled and I’m sure wanted to crawl into a hole, and said “Ok Ma”. They finished the transaction. The cashier smiled and said, “Enjoy the rest of your day. I wish I was coming with you.”

Sadly with my grandma and aunt having gone to be with Jesus those times are no more. I’m looking forward to being reunited with them. I’m sure they will have a bowl of peanuts and a glass Cabernet Sauvignon waiting for me.

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Pause. Breathe. Resume.

September is Prostate Cancer Awareness month. It’s also when my husband, Jack, was diagnosed with prostate cancer after having a biopsy. I can’t begin to tell you the spin it put us in. After meeting with a radiation oncologist, he had a bone scan (thank God it hasn’t spread), and after another MRI we met with a surgeon at Henry Ford for a second opinion. Dr. Peabody and his associate explained everything and we scheduled robotic prostate removal surgery for January 13, 2022.

I belong to 2 prostate cancer groups on Facebook. One is mostly the warriors fighting and the other is the wives supporting them. I’ve gotten a lot of good information and tips from the groups. Many are fighting the good fight and staying ahead of a recurrence. Sadly almost every time I check, one of the warriors or a wife is posting about a bone scan showing cancer has spread, treatment isn’t working, starting palliative care or he has lost his fight. I tell Jack about the helpful tips on what to do before and after surgery but not any of the heartbreaking posts. I’m sure his mind goes there anyway. Most days I walk around with a knot in my stomach. Since Jack was diagnosed before he turned 65 our boys are at a higher risk.

Prostate cancer has been called “the good kind of cancer” because many prostate tumors don’t spread quickly to other parts of the body. Just like breast cancer, 1 out of 8 men will get it. Prostate cancer is the second leading cause of cancer death among American men. It’s also one of the types of cancer that is most likely to spread to bones. Over 3 million American men are living with the disease. Some prostate cancers grow very slowly and may not cause symptoms or problems for years. For that reason, it’s important to get PSA blood tests and yearly exams. An increase in his PSA was the only symptom Jack had. For now, we will take a deep breath and wait.

I’ll probably write a few more blogs while we go through this journey. Please keep us in your prayers. 💙

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“The Lord is with you, mighty warrior”
Judges 6:12

A Moment With Marguerite

The five months Aunt Marguerite was in the hospital has many heartfelt moments that pop into my mind quite often. We would spend many hours talking and laughing about the “remember when” times. She also loved when I would play “String of Pearls”, on my phone for her.

I am blessed to have so many endearing memories, of spending time with her. One moment I think of often that makes my heart swell includes red licorice. On the days she was able, I made deals with her so she would eat. I would take a bite of the sandwich of the day, she would take a bite too. I can tell you, PIH Hospital makes a pretty mean tuna sandwich.

I was alone with my aunt, we each finished eating one and a half of the four small triangles of the tuna sandwich that was on her dinner tray. She also drank about half of her protein shake. I thought it was time for a little “dessert”. I pulled licorice out of my secret snack bag. After giving her one, she took a small bite, looked me in the eyes, and said “I feel so liberated when you’re here”, smiled and blew me a kiss.

December 2nd

I sit staring at the TV. Netflix asking if I’m still watching. I’m watching in the context that I can see the episodes going by. Pretty sure I’m on episode 8 but not a clue what it’s about. Today is December 2nd. The day my mother-in-law, Romaine, died. My thoughts take me back to 2001. My husband, Jack, was at work. I’m sitting at the kitchen table and the phone rings. It’s the doctor taking care of Romaine. He tells me Paul is there with her and she has reached the end of her fight. Paul told the doctor I had medical power of attorney. I pulled out my copy of the document and told the doctor that what happened next was up to Paul. He thanked me and hung up. A few moments later the doctor called back and said Paul was adamant it was my decision. Jack and I had discussed his mom’s condition at length. I took a deep breath and held back the tears as I told the doctor it was time to let her go. I sat at the table trying to process what just happened. A few days later, Paul looked me in the eyes, with tears in his, and said “Thank you”. That’s when I realized his brain had known what needed to be done but his heart wouldn’t let him.

Operation Rescue (part 1)

I’m going to tell you about a crazy adventure I had with my best friend. It’s going to be split into several blogs.

March of 1990 my friend, Mary Beth, asked me to come to Cape Cod and help her bring her life back to Michigan. In August 1989 she was married and moved to Wellfleet, Massachusetts (Cape Cod). By January she was pregnant and treated like the maid and baby sitter for her step kids instead of a wife. She planned “operation get me home” and kept me and her family posted on the details.

Her dad not only picked me up at my apartment and took me to the airport; he also gave me $200 cash and his gas and VISA card. When we pulled up at the airport, he looked me in the eyes and said “Bring my daughter home.” I was on a mission. This covert operation was known only by us in Michigan.

I flew into Boston airport. Before her trek to the airport that day, she hadn’t driven farther than the Wellfleet city limits. She handled the crazy roundabouts like a pro! There weren’t Google maps back then and to this day, she doesn’t know how she did it.

It was off-season and it looked like the whole area had rolled up their sidewalks. I kept looking around half expecting to see Alfred Hitchcock or Rod Serling. The first thing I noticed when I opened the motel door…no phone in my room. I had a TV and a mini-fridge but no phone. If this was happening now, I probably wouldn’t have noticed. Back in 1990, we were decades away from smartphones. My “car phone” was hardwired in my Honda back in Michigan.

We walked back to the office so I could call my husband, Jack, to let him know I arrived safely. He was our contact person back home and was in charge of keeping our parents in the loop.

I settled in with my dinner of Girl Scout cookies and beer. It was way before DVRs so Mary Beth stayed to watch Knotts Landing because she wouldn’t have made it home in time.

The next morning I sat in my phoneless motel room, not knowing what was going on. Mary Beth needed to wait until her husband left for work and the kids were waiting for the school bus.

I heard a knock at the door and was greeted with “Hi, I puked.” That morning was the one and only time she puked during the whole pregnancy. We hopped in her Blazer and headed toward her house. On the way, we stopped for breakfast at The Lighthouse Diner. She had a bagel and cream cheese. Not what I would have chosen if I had just puked.

Taking the main (probably the only) road to the diner, we saw a school bus coming toward us. Standing up was her stepdaughter staring right at us! When we arrived at the house, the movers were waiting for us. Let the fun begin! Since no one living in the house was privy to the plan, nothing and I mean nothing was packed.

After she showered, she realized the movers packed her hairdryer and curling iron. The movers also packed her bras. Not as important as the other two items. They didn’t fit her started-out-large-now-growing-out-of-control 1st trimester boobs.

We packed more Tupperware containers than you could ever imagine. We found some in the freezer containing her father-in-law’s signature fish “chowda”. In order to be able to wash and pack said containers, the chowda was dumped off the back deck…lunch for the chickens. Sadly the Tupperware collection was lost in transit.

There were hours of endless packing. The movers did an awesome job with the big boxes and things. You would be amazed at how much you can pack into a 1985 Blazer. I lost track of the number of trips I made between the house and the vehicle packing her stereo, tv, plants, suitcases, etc.

A side note on the Blazer. It was stuck on the beach, by Mr. Wonderful, and got to experience high tide…not good. It had to be pulled out with a crain and the sun roof was damaged.

After the movers drove away and we were getting the last of her things stuffed into the Blazer, her father-in-law pulled up with her stepdaughter that saw us earlier in the day. He didn’t stay. We figured he knew what was going on. As I was walking out with yet another box, I was met by her stepdaughter at the door. The look on her face was priceless! She looked around the empty rooms with a deer in the headlights stare. Most of the items in the house belonged to Mary Beth so they were on the truck.

We were finally ready to start on our memorable journey home. She got in the driver’s seat as I squeezed in on the passenger side. The seat was pulled forward and several boxes were on the floor. We pulled out of the driveway and never looked back.

Stay tuned for part 2…

The Pot Number

My in-laws, Paul and Romaine, were the kindest, most genuine people I’ve ever known. There are several stories about them I want to share with you. This one puts a smile on my face when I picture Paul telling it to anyone that would listen.

He loved to play the lottery! One of his favorite numbers to play was 4263. This is the story of how this lucky four-digit came to be.

The “pot”, as he called it, belonged to his mother-in-law, Sarah. She lived on the main floor of a small senior apartment complex in Lincoln Park with Romaine’s blind sister, Marion.
Paul and Romaine would visit them often. One visit they were greeted by a Wagner Ware roaster in the hall next to the door. When they entered the apartment and got the hello hugs and kisses out of the way, Paul asked why the pot was banished to the hallway. They got an earful. Sarah was madder than a hornet because the roast she had put in the pot for dinner was burned beyond recognition. So the pot and it’s contents were tossed out.
The answer Paul received when he asked if he could take it home was “As long as I never see it again!”

After they returned home, Paul noticed numbers on the bottom of the pot as he meticulously cleaned the charred remains. A few days later, Romaine cooked a roast in the pot. It was delicious! The following day Paul played the four-digit number from the pot in the lottery and won! From that day forward, 4263 was known as “The pot number”.

Through the years he played that number numerous times and had won more times than I can remember.

My husband and I have inherited the pot. Sadly we haven’t used it as often as we should for delicious pot roasts or winning lottery numbers. Maybe after I post this blog we’ll pop a roast in the oven and purchase 4263 for old times’ sake.

Getting Through December

As we begin another December, I’m doing my best to focus on the blessings in my life. I know Jesus will continue to get me through the hard times, both physical and emotional, by wrapping His arms around me as a constant source of comfort. My mind keeps taking my heart down a not so pleasant road.

Seventeen years ago, on Dec 2nd, my mother-in-law died. While I was sitting at the funeral home, on Dec 4th, I was also mourning the loss of my daughter, Sara, who was stillborn two years prior.

Every year, I try my best not to dwell on those thoughts and work on getting things ready for Christmas. Oddly it’s getting harder. My mother loved Christmas! In 1995 she managed to fight breast cancer until Dec 28th so she was able to be here for Christmas.

Writing helps me get through the rough times. I thank God I’m able to put my thoughts on paper. There are times I feel like I’m drowning in these thoughts. Thankfully through my faith and dear friends, I’m able to make it through.

A Well-Lived Dash

I was talking to a dear friend of mine the other day and we were discussing life. She mentioned the poem about the dash you see on a headstone that’s between the day you were born and the day you die; and how the dash represents the life you’ve lived.

Sitting in my aunt’s hospital room, I’ve been thinking about her dash.

My aunt has been blessed with a beautiful long dash. She was born in 1921 and served in the Canadian Army with two of her brothers. She moved to California and had a wonderful life. She married the love of her life in 1946. My uncle adored her till the day he died in 2006. They had a love that most can only dream of. You could see the sparkle each would get in their eye when they saw each other or spoke the other’s name.

My aunt was successful in love and business. She was a well known interior decorator. She even decorated actor, John Davidson’s yacht!

She traveled the world with my uncle. They were also blessed with a son who is the light of her life.

Now at 94 years old as she approaches the end of her dash, I’m looking back on the wonderful memories I have of her. It puts a smile on my breaking heart.

I will mourn her when she’s gone to be with the Lord but I will not dwell on her passing. I will celebrate her life. So many wonderful memories will be with me always.

Psalm 23:6
Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.

Sacrifices Worth Making

Sacrifices Worth Making.

Sacrifices Worth Making

I’ve had several pity parties for myself over the last few months while I’ve been out here in California visiting my sick aunt.

Although I’m glad I haven’t been home in Michigan for all the crazy weather, my heart aches for things I’m missing; mainly, my family and friends. I’ve also missed four major holidays, my son’s last day of school, and a half dozen birthdays. Not to mention numerous dinners with friends, my friends’ art shows and countless adventures with my photography/Cracker Barrel buddy.

Spending innumerable hours in the hospital, I have met many awesome people. With the exception of a few, the employees at PIH Health Hospital in Whittier, California are wonderful. Several have gone above and beyond their job description to make sure not only my aunt, but also my cousin, George, her private nurse, Mary, and myself are comfortable and know what is going on. Several nurses have come to visit and pray for her. My aunt has been treated with nothing but dignity and respect.
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Aunt Marguerite, despite being thousands of miles away from my home, has always been my favorite aunt. The fact that we both love cooking, collecting recipes, and drinking Scotch is only the tip of the iceberg. My aunt, like my dad, has the cool factor going for her. Through all of this, her sense of humor and well placed sarcastic remarks have stayed intact.

She has passed on those two traits to her son as well. I love that we can both use our humor and sarcasm to help each other get through this crazy/scary time.

When you look past George’s humor and sarcasm, you will find a loving son who is very devoted to his mother. He has slept in her room at the hospital every night since she was admitted April 3rd. The days he is forced to work, he is texting or calling for updates.

While part of me misses my family and friends at home, it is trumped by the fact that me being here has helped my cousin keep his sanity. We have laughed and cried together. My knowledge, albeit limited, of medical procedures and medications has helped ease his anxiety.

Let me tell you, I have learned more than I ever thought I would need to know about PEG tubes, intubation, C-diff, septis, lactic acid levels, and a laundry list of medications.

As I am writing this, I’m sitting in my aunt’s ICU room waiting for George. She is improving and having set backs everyday. It’s a very slow process. She is truly a fighter and has exceeded everyone’s expectations.

Although this whole experience continues to be like a roller-coaster ride, I have confidence in the medical staff here and I’ve placed all this in God’s hands.
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