As I bid farewell to the final hours of this year, I find myself reflecting on both the positive and negative memories that have shaped my journey. Time, once a fleeting concept, now holds a profound sense of meaning as I reminisce about the days that have passed.
2024 was a year of immense challenges and hardships. It tested my resilience, demanding physical and emotional sacrifices that at times felt unbearable. The year culminated in heartbreak, leading to the loss of a cherished loved one, as well as family and friends. Despite the pain and grief, it also marked the beginning of a new chapter in my life. It put into perspective how little and what is truly needed, appreciated, and valued. This New Year’s Eve feels different, not just another milestone, but rather the culmination of an era.
The past six years, since 2018, have been marked by a period of darkness and uncertainty. I reflect on the pain, sacrifices, and pieces of a larger picture that had to fall into place. While there have been more struggles, I refuse to overlook the blessings that have graced my life. Ultimately, I find solace in the belief that a higher power has guided me and protected me during times of confusion and uncertainty.
As I age, I find increasing appreciation for simplicity. A few years ago, I embraced the “less is more” philosophy, and now it feels like it’s coming full circle. All the hard work, trials, and errors have prepared me for this moment and what lies ahead. With each layer of awareness that reveals itself, I take time to sit in silence, observing the beauty surrounding me in my new home. I listen to the soothing sounds of nature with a newfound sense of gratitude. I watch the waves crash ashore and recede into the depths of the sea. I feel like I’ve done the hard work, the critical self-examination, the acceptance, and the forgiveness that promote inner healing and allow me to release some of the lingering pain. I say “some” of the pain because I’m not certain if I can let go of all of it yet. I’m realistic but optimistic. If I shed it all, that would be wonderful, but if some remains, I feel I’m equipped to work through the rest of it. I feel more than ever in control of co-creating the life I envision for myself, and I know that the doors I need will open effortlessly. I’m prepared to encounter challenges along the way, as I believe they’re part of our growth. I embrace the fear of failure because it offers an opportunity to try again and complete my efforts with even greater depth and profoundness. Not succeeding the first time has its advantages if we’re patient and take comfort in things working out even better than we’ve imagined.
Last night, I was invited to a movie night hosted by my 85-year-old neighbor. A few other women joined us, and we watched a classic film from 1956 called “Friendly Persuasion.” We shared popcorn, cookies, drinks, but most of all, our time. It was one of the most nurturing and comforting experiences I’ve had in a long time. Something so simple, yet so special and comforting. I’m already looking forward to our next movie night and to choosing another oldie but goody classic.
I eagerly anticipate moments of tranquility, when I can once again express my creativity and artistic side. Time, increasingly, has become one of my greatest blessings, ranking right alongside my health. As everything finds its place, this house is gradually transforming into a home. I eagerly anticipate writing more, picking up the pieces left behind, and being more present in the moment. A recurring feeling lingers—that we all contribute in our own unique ways, that perhaps my words are needed, and that others and the world may need healing just as I do. Perhaps this is my chance to share or offer help, and the idea of writing a book is gradually taking shape in my thoughts.
I look forward to furthering my lifelong learning journey, exploring new horizons both physically and emotionally. But for now, I leave you with my heartfelt wishes for a joyous and fulfilling new year, filled with all the happiness and fulfillment you deserve.
With love, always.
Rhapsody Bohème 