Changing the Energy in Your Life

Sorry for the times I spoke about the course,

You needed to speak of your pain, of your struggle, of your fears,

I shied away and kept to the practical,

Scared that I did not have the words to care and support you.

I let you down and you fell.

Sorry for times I spoke over the top of your voice,

You needed to be heard, your voice was important and valued,

I was struggling with my own pain,

I feared the silence, I covered up my own struggle with a bright and happy face,

I let you down, you fell

Sorry for the times I listened to the authorities,

Implementing their strategies that victimized and hurt you,

You needed more time, time that did not exist,

There was no space left in your head for the things being asked of you

I needed to trust my own intuition, to find what would work for us,

You were let down and you fell.

You will hear not my words, for they are written for me,

To find my pathway back, to the inner worth of me,

My greatest wish is that your fall was momentary,

That you climbed back up on your own two feet, no longer reliant,

Knowing that when you fall there is always a way back.

Am I enough? I have to believe so.

I will let you down, I will be less than I can be at times.

But I care and I hurt and I want the best for all of you.

You are my students, I am your teacher.

I endeavor to lead the way and trust those inner voices more and more.

When your child cries out,
No answers in sight,
Wisdom dries up,
Upon the desolate waves,
Of hopeless endeavour,
Solving a problem that is hidden,
Masked by the want,
To be normal and clever.

The interning string,
Of the universe collapsing,
Not a word can describe,
The emotional passion,
The shame of not lighting the eternal later,
The weakness in not facing the demons within,
The fears of a loss that the future begins.

Loss is not the end the beginning
Love is not the end the beginning,
Time elapsed in a nefarious way,
Undermining and disenchanting all that focus her way,
With each tick I will pledge to choose to do something new,
That unravels with precision
Expanding the view,
Without words to describe the experience,
I think,
I will simply take from the cup,
And heartily drink.

Over thinking,
Destroying my Peace,
Chasing down dreams,
Unhinging my beliefs,
Dismantling my ideas,
Of self, love and drive,
Imploding within,
No place to hide.
Over thinking,
Over checking,
Never leaving it alone,
Unwrapping the dressing,
Hatching new lies to own,
Castling a veil,
Needing to be removed,
There is no hiding from vulnerability,
The feelings are real.
Leave what is not yours,
Send it straight back,
Closed minds are not open,
They rip you apart,
So spare not a second,
In someone else’s pain,
Place you hand forward,
Establish barriers, maintain.
Next if you own this,
Deep within, it is yours,
Then delve deep within,
Encourage your voice,
Speak up and take pleasure,
In learning to create the space,
For choice of decisions,
To grow into new space.