Not-So-Random Musings

I’ve written a journal for years, on and off since childhood, and through trial and error I’ve learned over time what works best for me, and what doesn’t.

I used to think it mattered to keep an accurate written record of what happened in my life, and when, but then it morphed into keeping a written record of how I felt about the things that happened in my life.

Looking back years later on my earliest journal entries I was mortified – I really didn’t like how mundane and repetitive and cringe-worthy embarrassing it all felt to read my sometimes intense, sometimes whiny, more often than not boring words – really not something worth keeping for posterity at all!

I did soon realise, however, that I seemed to have managed to work through a lot of things that were troubling me just by having gathered my thoughts together and writing them out in a kind of stream of consciousness way.

Instead of forever going round and round in aimless circles in my head, often one written thought would lead to another, and spark yet another, and soon enough either a potential solution would present itself or at least I would find a more hopeful direction of travel.

I still like to keep up that kind of temporary emotional work-book type of journal even today – not constantly, but when I need to. Although these days rather than hand-writing my thoughts and feelings in a fixed, bound book I tend to keep my not-so-random musings on more ephemeral sheets of A4 loose-leaf paper in a ring-binder, where pages can be be kept or discarded later as I choose.

My current art course requires us to journal quite in-depth about our art and I’m really enjoying that part of it – rather than producing pages of formal prose it’s often done in the form of lists or mind-maps or simply jotting down ideas and realisations on post-it notes then sticking them in to a sketch-book or onto the back of the studies themselves – a system I find really useful so might happily adapt later for my life-journaling, too! 🙂

Weekly Prompt: Journal

Fandango’s One Word Prompt: Gathered

My Current Situation

My current situation (having signed up for a new six-month online art course straight on the back of completing my last three-month one that finished in mid-December) means that yet again I probably won’t be around so much on my blog for the first part of this year.

During the course I’ll no doubt be making a lot of small studies following set creative prompt exercises rather than focusing on creating any new finished paintings so I’m not even sure how much (if any) of my artwork will get posted here. Or I might be brave and share some of my experiments, we’ll see!

But I’ll still be checking in on everyone whenever I can 🙂

Ragtag Daily Prompt: Situation

Sedentary Snowman

After a solid week of solid (as in frozen solid) snow, we’ve finally got some temperatures above freezing and the snow is melting at last, but this little guy is still holding his own so far 🙂

Artificial Hip Joint

As many of you know I was given an artificial hip joint just over a year and a half ago, and I’m absolutely delighted with it. It took a lot longer to heal from my surgery than I’d expected, but I persevered with my exercises and thankfully I got there in the end.

When people ask me if my hip is as good as it was before, I have to ask which ‘before’ they mean, because although my new hip joint is definitely a million times better than the old worn out arthritic one I had leading up to it being replaced, it’s not as good as my natural hip joint was before I ever got arthritis.

And just for the record it’s also still not quite as good range-of-movement-wise as my mirror-image original hip joint which at 62 years old is still in reasonably good working order on the other side of my body. But I absolutely love my new hip, no regrets, and it’s definitely earning its keep! 🙂

Ragtag Daily Prompt: Artificial

Fandango’s One Word Challenge: Earn

Word of the Year 2025: Connect

Instead of making resolutions last new year I decided to choose a ‘word of the year’ to help guide me through. It was supposed to be a rough road-map rather than a rigid rule-book, pointing me in a general direction of travel rather than requiring a fixed destination to be reached at the end of it. As ever I started out with good intentions then lost my way a bit as the year progressed, but I can still look back and see progress overall so that has to count for something!

My word for 2025 was ‘connect’ and I chose to break that word down into seven component parts, with one specific area of connection corresponding to each letter – so I had creativity, others, nature, nutrition, emotion, challenge, and today.

Creativity has definitely gone well this year – I joined an online art group back in February and am still taking an active part in that same group today. I’ve also taken three short, free, online courses over this last year as well as one three month long paid course, so connecting with my ongoing art practice has definitely taken a positive turn this year…

Others have definitely played a bigger role in my life this year than the year before – we reconnected in person with three sets of old friends we always keep in touch with virtually but distance means meeting up is never easy. It felt really good to catch up in real life, in real time, and we’d certainly love to be able to repeat that experience again… I’ve also made contact with a couple of old friends who I’d lost touch with over the years, so although life commitments etc means we’re only communicating virtually for now, it’s a start so I’ve decided that level of connection counts too!

Nature is a tricky one for me to judge – I’ve always spent time in nature, going for walks and enjoying the garden, so I can’t honestly work out whether I’ve spent any more time connecting with the natural world in 2025 than I would do usually. But at least this year I’ve kept up my awareness of where I’m at or what I’m doing in the moment, which helps me acknowledge and appreciate it all so much more…

Nutrition – Hmmm… After a great start to the first half of the year, sadly things started to fall apart after I went back to work. At home it was easy enough to eat reasonably well, with plenty of time for food prep and choosing for myself when to eat (or not), but since I started work again in August I’ve found myself slowly returning to old bad habits again… It’s just not so easy when working hours dictate to a certain extent when you can eat, which often has a knock-on effect as to what you eat – well it does for me, anyway… Sadly right now that one’s feeling more of a disconnect, leaving plenty of room for improvement…

Emotionally I feel a lot calmer and in tune with myself than I felt this time last year, so I suppose that means things must have moved on a bit for me? I’ve certainly read a lot in depth to help improve my understanding around some of my most troublesome issues and so feel much more settled in some areas, although others still need a lot more work. Happily my mood has been much more stable overall, although I still have my moments – but I feel that things are heading in the right direction…

Challenge – going back to work after a two and a half year break has certainly been a challenge, physically and mentally, but I’m doing fine and have settled in to the new routine reasonably well (apart from reverting to bad eating habits!). My new hip isn’t giving me too much grief, and it feels good to be an active member of society again. But I also need to recognise I’ve challenged myself in other ways, too – taking art classes and facing up to my emotional demons have each challenged me in different ways, but I’m still keeping going with both, which is a good thing…

Today was supposed to be a reminder to live in the moment rather than constantly ruminating over the past or fretting about the future, and I’m not sure how successful that’s been overall. When I’m in a creative mood, engrossed in my art, I’m definitely connecting in the moment, and when I’m out for a walk I can actively keep myself centred in the here and now, but otherwise I’m still very much a work in progress on that front…

So looking back over 2025 it’s (nearly!) all gone OK, especially for a first attempt at choosing a word of the year. I wasn’t at all sure where I was going with it so perhaps over-engineered the whole idea in the first instance. So going forward I feel I might try to make it all a little less complicated next year, keeping things more open to interpretation to allow for potentially changing direction as I go along…

Thankfully I’m still keen to choose a new word of the year for 2026, as an idea it worked so much better for me than setting those old rigid resolutions I then resolutely disregarded in disgust after a few weeks! 🙂

Share Your World: 29 Dec 2025

Do you stay up to toast in the New Year?

Yes, I always have done apart from one year when I was going to be working early on New Year’s Day and decided just to go to bed early – but my dad still called me at midnight as usual to wish me Happy New Year so I ended up being awake anyway! 🙂

Have you ever kept any New Year Resolutions made in the past?

Honestly I’m not great with resolutions of any kind, it seems as soon as I promise myself to do something I generally resist and dig my heels in big time…

Do you have any plans for 2026?

Yes, I’ve signed up for another art course staring in mid-January that I’m really looking forward to!

What was the highlight of 2025 for you?

It has to be the birth of my first great-grandchild almost three weeks ago, she’s a wee cutie-pie… definitely a highlight to have a new generation beginning ❤

Share Your World