M&Y

It will be official 2 months tomorrow….

Somehow… I can’t determine which job i’m happier, the one @ operations or this one – online marketing?

@Prince – GSA
Working at Prince makes me feel like a family there… Although sometimes i’m lost too… But at least, i will always have people to talk to… We bitch together, talk together and of course most of the time, crazy together…

@Andaman – Online Distribution Executive
Its a total new experience, which i found it interesting and always keeps my head rolling… I get the satisfaction of using my brain. However, the job can be quite lonely… Well, maybe because i’m sitting alone in the executive office and I don’t really belong to any of the team, not sales nor reservation nor revenue… I’m half half everywhere… That’s why i don’t feel belong.

Nevertheless, I will still continue working on this… Maybe I’m away from home, away from my bf and maybe no friends can be rely on this island… What i’m really feeling right now, I might not have any friends at all…

Somehow.. I’m still thinking, is this where i belong?

My last day at Prince!

It was normal… I planned to leave early, so that i can avoid the goodbyes and farewells… Somehow, i still end up doing that.. And not only my own department, i even go all the way to other departments…

Farewell speech? Nothing much, just the common sayings, partly sincere partly not especially thanking Ms Yap, when she said she had alot of tolerance with me… I just feel like shouting:” Well, no need to suffer anymore then!” She is the least person i like in the hotel.. Seriously i really dun like her…

People that i will miss the most? Most of them are not around at Prince anymore, they left earlier than me actually, which i’m glad cause i know they are moving forward like i do, which i sincerely wish them all the best! However, there are also people who I care alot still there, especially the operator team, partly i belonged to them…. Ms Lily, Kak Kamsiah; I will definitely miss them! Hakimi, Ezra & Tomomi, oh! Thinking of them will just make me sad… At least, they listen, they care and they dun fake… Oh, and Vanessa, although some of the things i can’t tell her, not appropriate, but i will miss her too… The others, well maybe i will maybe i will not.. Who knows and who cares… I doubt they missed me too… As for Concierge, technically i think i will miss the whole team… Sales team, nothing much but maybe Elle, cause I think she is not so happy working there, and I only found out today which makes me think more about her now… Never thought Sato-san & Ms Constance will react that way on my resignation… Mr Tim was open minded enough though, which i’m glad as is him that I end up at Prince at the first place… 

Last but not least… Prince trained me well, taught me well and brought me well…

I really think that life depends on luck too….

Sometimes, i think, our whole life has been determined… The choices that we have are determined, the rest is just depends on us which path we choose and of course, the outcome will depends on how much hardwork you’ve put in…

If when we are small, we choose to be hardworking, we choose to study hard, we will have the easier path to choose: getting scholarship, being selected for something good, then becoming something great! Or~ If we choose to be a little bit playful, slacking on our studies, we will have a harder path to choose: suffering during exam, limited choice on further study and then affecting who you want to become. I believe it’s all on our choice… Whichever path you choose, it has been determined~ FATE! However, no matter what you choose, there is always a bright side on that choice, that will be LUCK… If you didnt get an easy path to grow along, you will still gain things such as being recognize by someone and appreciating your talent; This is what we call LUCK! Combining all the 3 elements, if brings our life together. But everything will still depends on what you choose to be… 

2 of my colleagues actually prefer to be flying is sky instead of working on the land. They had tried several times to obtain their dream job but failed. Are they not hardworking enough? No i believe they will give in whatever they have if they are given the opportunity to work as what they dreamed, like me. But how come they failed? Sometimes i feel like it’s their fate and luck that did not really come in place to help them. Maybe their fate is to fail a couple of times first before getting what they want, maybe they are not lucky enough to be selected! Its just too many reason and it causes us human being to be somehow lost. If we failed too many times we will be thinking: Am i looking for the right thing?

It can be very demotivated at times we failed, but it is very important to stand up again from where we fall and fight again for our future. So i sincerely hope that my 2 colleagues will not give up on their dream and always fight for it… Good luck to both of them…

(P/S: Not trying to offend anyone on the examples, just my own personal feelings)

In the end, I might no need to go to Langkawi, so far from home and bf… XD

I received a call today from the Director of Sales of Andaman I guess, saying that she would like to meet me and show me around the office also to discuss further on the job. I was wondering where to meet up as i noticed she called using a KL landline number. After I asked, only I know that they have an Office located just next to Shangri-la. And I do not need to move to Langkawi, I will be based at KL and just travel to Langkawi when it is necessary. When i hear this news, my heart was  like “OMG, I’m so happy, it will be perfect!” I’m so excited on the news and i can’t wait to meet her tomorrow.. So now, i will just need to wait for tomorrow and keep my fingers cross…

Wish me luck!

I might get an offer from Starwood, going to Langkawi… It will definitely be far from my house, from my family and my love… I might be stuck in the jungle and lost interaction with the modern world… But somehow i feel that this should be my path..

Thank Jessie for being so understanding, not being mad at me for ditching her from Double Tree…  I really hope that she can make it and i feel that she is very enthusiastic on this… Seriously happy for her… However, everything will only happen as what i wished for if i get the offer..

Didn’t know that waiting for the answer is so tiring and exhausting… Maybe i really want this offer so much and it just keep popping up in my mind, thinking and wondering about it… Of course, accepting the offer would definitely means that i will have to leave my boyfriend, to so far away in the north part…

I cried after I made my decision to go, although not finalize by the property. But it really break my heart when i think that i might be leaving my love… It’s been 5 years with him… I couldn’t think what I will do if we don’t survive this.. I feel that i’m selfish… Really selfish….

*Heart aching*

Looking at facebook postings… Sometimes its like understanding other people in a different way… In work, these people might be friendly and nice to you, but you won’t know how true they are and are they wearing their masks.. Just like your ownself… I don’t really blame people if they wear their masks to protect them self, but what I’m really sad about are some they protected themselves by hurting others…

How come 1 can’t be just simple and easy to understand? How come there must be so much lies and faking in order to build up and relationship? And how many times should 1 be hurt until the others understood that he/she is actually harmless? Can’t these be more easy and straight forward? It’s not hard make new friends, but it’s hard to really open up your heart and share your thoughts to others… You wont’ know who will betray you next…

I really miss my besties… College life and Pre-U is the most memorable memories i had… The things that we did no matter how ridiculous or how silly, we will still do it together.. No matter how many disagreements we had, we still love each other… And no matter how far away or how rare we connected, somewhere in the world we still care about each other… In working life we still find some friends that we prefer, but somehow i still feel it’s different.. The togetherness is not there… The work i have know is more on individual achievements… not much of team work, which i think this is what i missed the most… I’m still searching for the most suitable job for me.. Or am i actually the person that needs to be changed?

I’m indecisive…

I dunno how to make up my mind now…

A: Stay put at Prince for 1 full year

B: Accept Double Tree’s offer and resign from Prince in 1 month

C: Wait for the outcome of the interview at KDU and ask more about the offer of Double Tree

All sound so right for me and yet i dunno how to choose… I am thinking so much now and I can’t sleep because my mind is full of these thinkings… I need to decide or at least come up with a better way to answer my questions… What if I make the wrong decision? What if i don’t decide now the opportunity would not come? I’m thinking actually, maybe i have already make up my mind (which people always do), but just need someone to agree on my decision…

Human being are always relying on people’s opinion… If someone agrees with you then you will think that: Oh! See, someone thinks the same way I did, maybe that decision isn’t so bad at all… And when things goes wrong, you will put the blame on the person that agrees with you that time… So irresponsible and selfish living thing we are… That is why most of my mentors don’t really tell me what is right or wrong, they just let me think on the cause and effect of the decision making… So, what should I decide?

I have a strong feeling that if i don’t leave Prince now I might not leave in another year… But what if i accepted Double Tree’s offer and i don’t like the position? The school lecturers really give us alot of false hope in the real working life. It makes us think that oh, after getting a degree you should be offered at least a supervisory position or, you will be offered as a Executive level’s job…In fact, in this industry, the cert really does not matters… Qualification is actually useless and i’m actually very sad of it…. Wyin asked me did I regret studying this course? Actually, i’ve been thinking about the question… If i studied something different, what will my path be? Where will i be now? She asked me to reconsider where i want to be in the future; She said i can’t be working like now when have my own family. My reaction shows that i’m actually disagreeing on what she said but deep down inside my heart i know the truth to that question….

My heart feel more better…. At least now i clear all my thoughts from my head and i now i should be able to sleep… Although the problem is still there and i need to think again… I wonder if i tell my mother i would like to study again, start again as a freshman what will she think? I really miss those days that i just need to focus on studies and concentrate on the exams and assignments will do. When i thought on how did i end up in Prince i found that the decision made that time was so easy, because i did not open my self to any other options… Now i realize how indecisive i am… I really hate to make choices… Even when i took the scholarship, i have already accepted the offer before the government offer me a position at UTM in Quantity Surveyor… Haih… Now i need to make a choice…

Its been long since i last update my blog…

It has come to and end for another year… I’ve just turn 23 and it means, Christmas and New Year is round the corner… So, what have i done this year?

I successfully graduated with 1st class honours with best dissertation followed by that; and also not to mention i was the Best overall student for our year! ~~~ Yippie! Thinking back on the college days was fun, real fun that i miss it so much and i just wish that i could go back again… Maybe for masters.. hehe…

Next i successfully being employed by Prince even before i ended my industrial placement… Well, I thought I should be grateful for that chance and I am actually but some part of me still thinking of if I stick on to my placement’s planning what would I be now.. Most probably is I will have the same offer that the hotel will give but also most probably i would end up somewhere else… I would really like to have the chance to go to Sales or maybe Finance and have a try on it.. If i had another chance…. But anyway, i have been confirmed and i’m already heading to my 7th month of work.. I shall probably stay on till 1 full year then i’ll move on to another place then…

Finally… Ya, i might be still be the same old me but i’m being so negative nowadays… Always complaining and not satisfiying with every thing at work… Am i still passionate to work in this industry? Or is just i’m too comfortable with the environment that it doesn’t alert me to strive on my best anymore?

It’s been a month, since i officially became the employee of Prince. For the past month, i’ve cried many times… I’ve even have the feeling of not to go to work but i’ve overcome the fear. It has been a stressful month. Alot of mistakes has been made and i’ve finally record all the don’ts in my diary. It will always be a reminder for me.

Next week will be my last week of training then i will be college free. But it doesnt really matter to me as i am already working. But I will still need to submit the training report. I’ll leave it to next week then. hehe…

The girls will be back next week. Hopefully we can meet up and catch up… I will need to call yun by sunday then to confirm whether she will be back or not.

Dr Rod say i would definitely have the chance to become the valedictorian this year, if i can come up with a better speech. =.=”’. I’m very lousy in writing speech, furthermore in giving a speech. I will definitely be nervous. But that is if i’m writting a better speech. I’m still trying. It is a very honourable position so i would like to try my best to achieve it. Definitely it will be my best achievement in my life if i gotten it… But no high hopes set as i know myself very well in writting and giving speech.

My FOM just asked me if i can just stay at FO as a permanent staff even before my training ends. She say she is gonna talk to the Training Manager to see how it goes… Hehe.. i’m actually very excited.. I hope this goes well…

I fought with one of the permanent staff during work, i am very very angry at her actually, because it was not the first time that she pissed me off… So accidentally, with the most recent incident of that day, i exploded… I am still very angry after i fight with her so i walked away to finish up whatever am i doing… I really feel that the FO staff of the hotel is quite selfish as they just mind their own business. maybe this is the real word as ppl do not cover your back anymore. I just hate the fact that i have no access to anything, no authority, no responsibility. I’m like a useless person there as i can’t do anythign on my own, which i hate that. There isn’t any culture of training over there.

But if they are gonna employe me, i will still take the job even though i fought with someone or the attitude of the people is not very friendly… Because i want to earn money and i want to really get some responsibilities back on my shoulder. I getting lazier…. i need to work!!!!