It's been quite a few months since I wrote. I think I predicted it last time. Whoops. But the good news is that I'm still sober. I have meant to write, but to be honest, up until a few months ago, I've been rather preoccupied, and a bit confused. I've been struggling with my own …
Eleven months and counting
I honestly didn't know if I'd get this far. But here I am. Sober. I also, honestly, wish I had blogged the entire time about what life was like these past 11 months, but I held back. There was this part of me that was so worried that I wouldn't make it. There was the …
third month observations
Weight and food: I have not lost weight. Nope. But I also have not gained. My craving for ice cream has increased ten-fold. I have never been very fond of ice cream, so this has been really strange, but oddly pleasant at the same time. There's also sugar. Give me candy. All the candy. I …
still going …
Complicated emotions are exhausting, and while I want to say they're confusing, that would be a lie. The thing is, they're very clear, these complicated emotions, especially the thoughts they provoke. It's the complicated person in me who has a difficult time accepting that those thoughts, which have spawned from places deep inside me, are …
here I go again on my own
It's been a long time since I last wrote. Those of you who know - you know why. It's been more than six years since my last major break from alcohol. I've done a month sober here and there, and to be honest, I never went back to drinking the way I used to drink …
29 days then I caved
Dry January wasn't a total success. I made it until January 30th, had a terrible day at work, and used that as an excuse to meet a friend for drinks. It all went downhill from there. Now 10 days later and I can say I've been drunk 4 more times. Four! Where did all my …
DIY dry January
I haven't had a drink in 19 days. When reading my last post I can recall all the doubts that were going through my head at that time. Secretly, though, just in case some lower part of my brain caught on and stopped me, I was planning on taking the entire month of January off …
they’re not magic beans
I was really hoping there was a magic elixir that would take all my cravings for booze away. Can you imagine the ease of it? Just pop a pill in the morning and miraculously all urges to open a can of effervescent beer, or pour a too-full glass of delicious wine never develop. When I …
at will-call for will power
This is my truth. I know I want to quit drinking. I know it. I feel it. I'm scared of my life without it. I want a life without it. I'm willing to risk it all to quit. So why can't I quit? Why do I continuously walk past the bottle shop, the entire time …
so i did a thing
After a completely crazy weekend where I got drunk three nights in a row - one of which I ended up making out with this guy I know - who wanted sex - but I thankfully turned him down, I did something. I went to google and searched for getting help to quit drinking where …
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