My Colors

Suman is my ex-TL. We worked together in Aricent more than a decade ago. But her remembrance about me is still making me feel grateful. She messaged me to write her a recommendation in LinkedIn. It might sound silly but small things make our life more beautiful.

I was just a fresher when I worked with her. And also we lost touch once I left Gurgaon. I bet she would have got many people around her to write recommendations. I am thankful that she chose me as one among them. It’s actually nice to see people remembering the connection. I still don’t know why my name popped in her head😉 She made my day little more happier.

Vaan Engum Thanga Vinmeengal – Guess GVM can use this as title for his next film. Just a thought crossed my mind.

But this post is not about that. This is one of my most favorite songs still in the top list. Most underrated song from Moondram Pirai. The way this song starts and ends will soothe you in many ways. Sridevi would have given proper justice to this song. What an attitude in her body language and dance movements. Such an independent, firm, glamourous attitude throughout the song. I love all the tiny nuances in this song. Enna ponnu da wow !!
I don’t know what I like in this song and I have been knowing this song from my teens.

Expected it to be a normal day but ended up in a dramatic way. I had tooth pain on one fine night and the next day entered the dental care to extract the tooth. Horrible! I hate that surgery! I am scared and uncomfortable too.

Got nearly 4 or 5 (I forgot) local anesthesia and after nearly 45 min he completely removed the tooth. Arrgghh!! Its paining !! Next comes the main drama.

I was advised not to eat for next 2 hours. My kids and my husband were having lunch in a mall. By the time, they are about to finish, I started to feel dizzy. And then fell unconsciously in the food court in front of the crowd. I don’t remember what has happened till now. Some college kid(?!) did CPR for me, and I regained after a couple of minutes. And still I don’t know how I ended up on the floor. The ambulance came. I was in the hospital for nearly 2 hours. I was fine once I woke. But they took some tests to rule out seizure anomalies. The worst is my kids got extremely scared. Even after 10 days, they ask me whether everything is fine or not, whether I need to see a doctor or not. One of the worst incidents happened. I didn’t disclose to any of my close buddies till date. I don’t know why I fell. But one thing I learnt was life is very uncertain. The drama isn’t over. It continues to run irrespective of my wakeup.

It has been nearly 10 months since I have started driving. I am a beginner, by the way. I am just scared of exploring new routes, going to crowded places. It scares the hell out of me and I am losing my sanity when I go wrong. Bad me. My son (just 7 year old) will immediately say that I lost the route. “Ma, you went in a wrong direction”. I will be like “How does this guy knows everything geographically?”. I am very bad at knowing directions.I am not a good beginner even. Guess I will take a long time to get out of this phobia.

My latest hobby is watching https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCfV0wtzumYCRuvLhY5n6hug
I really like this trucker guy. He is playing those videos in a cool way.
Few dashcam videos are like pinpointing others mistakes. But I feel this guy is playing it quite cool. He loves driving and as far as I have seen, he is just being himself. I am extremely jealous of this guy. lol.

I feel very nostalgic at times. Few things miss here in Sweden:

1. Tubelight – Funny and yet important for my eyes. All are living with yellow lights (which we mostly in bathrooms in India) in a dark,cold country.  What is wrong with these Swedes?!
2. Friends – I have very few friends that I can count upon. I definitely miss my gang with whom I have been nearly 7 years or so. That gang make me feel so very special of me. Such a bonding “Gang Gethu” 🙂 Hoping it to continue all way long!
3. Mummy – Miss her fish gravy. She is the only person on this Earth who tolerates my every “pichu pudungra” moments. She never fails to see my love behind my moodiness.
4. Nativity of Tamil – The smell of the crowded street, bargaining, auto and what not.

Now coming to favorites/falling in love in Sweden:

1. Candles – I never like candles from my childhood.  In this dark country, candles are really soothing me. Definitely thumbs up for candles! I like nowadays starring at the candles for no reason in my windows.
2. Water – I like the taste of water here. Delicious. Pure. No words to describe.
3. Driving – Of course, my hard earned license.
4. People – Swedes never poke their nose in your affairs. They respect the boundaries. I kinda like this. No one stares at you. Not even a glance. Just a hi and move on. Though these people are little cold, they are affectionate. Their trains and buses speaks a lot about the care for the people of Sweden.
5. Vacation – I have got half-yearly leave and annual leave just like school days. Wow! I am blessed!

Not much intro needed for this famous English rock. But I have never skipped this song in my playlist. The way it starts and ends are two different strings. Starts off with a slow, boring and ends with a heavy tempo and volume. I love the way the song travels in the air. No words can describe the elegance of this song. Just have to experience it. The guitar is the ultimatum in this masterpiece. It soothes me well, bringing me to a good mood. Definitely a hard rock at the end!

Wondering where to start..

Well..finally decided to get a car licence on some usual day. But I didn’t expect the journey would take an year. Pretty high!Even I do not know when and where and at what point I started taking control of the car. This is like you never know when and at which point you fell in love.

Once my instructor told me that driving is against my nature. And yes, he is correct. That is not my cup of tea. That doesn’t mean I hate driving. I love the feel when I get the rhythm of the car. Firstly, I never think of anything unwanted if I sit behind the wheels. Despite having long breaks, I finally managed to reach the test. And I failed in theory just by 2 points.

Then took the driving test. The judgement day arrives. I was like freaking nervous inside. Made minor mistakes. I accelerated more than the speed limit while entering highway. Then reduced and the examiner didn’t notice it. My luck! And gave a hard brake when crossing amber. But managed to stop before the line but with a hard brake and then she could have failed me for not crossing the signal in a low speed. But I guess she didn’t mention it. Thank God!

When she said those golden words that I passed the driving, I literally started shedding happy tears and screaming. I was like,”Venky! Where are you? Did you hear what she said? 😃” I was in cloud nine at that moment. More than getting those two lines in my preg card, as this is my solo achievement. He he..😁

This one success is one of the biggest things in my life ever. What an enthralling experience ever! Finally cleared the theory and got the licence. Hurray to me!!

But now, I am little nervous inside when I think about the responsibility. Hopefully, I can overcome the fear slowly.

Yah, that’s obviously me, the Mummy Pig. Please watch Peppa Pig for further info.

My ears are full of Peppa Pig, Rebecca Rabbit, Suzy Sheep, Zoe Zebra & Madam Gazelle. Including my life after work.

My two year old daughter introduced me as Mummy Pig (one of the characters in Peppa Pig) to her preschool teachers as “Look, here is the Mummy Pig”. I was like “The what, Pig,huh, ok, yeah,hell, no, hmm, fine”. Ah, yes, these are just Mummy Pig things. I admire how my daughter looks at me. I deserve to be a Mummy Pig 😎

Yes, yes I agree that going for a job “alone” doesn’t make your brain up to date. There are many other ways to achieve it. Since my brain is rusty, I can hardly focus on something new. Even at work place, known things have become unknown. My recollection time is enormous. But then I have this tiniest satisfaction of using the brain. And yes, it’s a hell a lot hectic and highly pressurising to balance. And, ah, I found a magical reality word “balance” atlast.

And yah, I dropped this rubber ball named “Job” few years back and now it’s bouncing back to me on its own after hitting the ground. And I don’t need to “balance” this rubber ball because it will balance itself. I am holding it in that belief and hopefully in that way.

The interview experience was really good. Gonna spill the little secret, there was no technical round exactly except an online test. And they just looked for my willingness to work after a long break. I am still wondering how they found that I just need a little push to do things.

This one is special to me. Very close to my heart. Just can’t explain how much intense is this. Never understood the meaning because I never wanted to. I just love the way it flows inside me. I enjoy the way it soothes me and melts me. Whenever I am down, I listen to this. This is my love at first sight. I fell for this the very first time I saw, I listened. This is all about Maahi song. I don’t know whether it is written and sang for Kangana but definitely for me. I am madly in love with this song.