写给小三的一封信

其 實 一 直 以 來
我 都 知 道 你 的 存 在

打從他半夜偷偷坐在廁所裡接電話

手 機 裡 沒 有 一 封 簡 訊
偶爾出門說不出出門的對像是誰
接完電話後神色緊張地對我說

是 他 媽 打 來 的 電 話 時
我就知道有這麼一個你的存在了
我 承 認 我 很 愛 他
也承認沒有了他我會很傷心很難過
我更知道招惹你的人是我的男人

或 許 你 想 對 我 說
沒 本 事 管 著 自 己 的 男 人
不 要 來 對 你 大 呼 小 叫 的

所以我選擇用一個溫柔的方式對你說
大 家 同 樣 的 都 是 女 人

為了一個不可靠的男人傷了和氣
對 大 家 都 沒 有 好 處

如 果 你 堅 持 要 我 的 男 人
那 我 會 選 擇 退 出
我 還 沒 與 他 結 婚
我 還 沒 有 他 的 孩 子
我 還 年 輕
我 還 有 很 長 的 路 要 走

為 了 一 個 不 忠 誠 的 男 人

本來就已經浪費了我大半的青春

如 果 你 是 真 心 愛 他 的
我 退 出 又 有 何 妨 呢
但 在 我 離 開 以 前
作為一個被小三逼得選擇離開的女人

我 想 與 你 分 享 我 的 經 驗
一 個 會 出 軌 的 男 人
永 遠 都 不 會 是 一 個 好 男 人

我 是 第 一 個
或 許 你 就 會 是 第 二 個 了
曾 經 我 也 像 你 一 樣 美 麗 漂 亮

一樣從他的口中聽見一大堆的甜言蜜語
但如今我不也一樣被他拋棄了嗎

如 果 你 真 的 和 他 走 在 了 一 起
我 不 會 祝 福 你
也 不 會 厭 惡 你
我 只 會 同 情 你
因為你愛上了一個你不應該愛的男人
無 可 否 認 我 是 失 敗 者

但 或 許 將 來 的 某 一 天
你會發現其實我才是真正的贏家
因 為 我 選 擇 了 退 出
我比你更早放棄了不應該繼續堅持的東西
說 真 的 這 男 人 我 不 要 了

如 果 你 覺 得 他 可 以 給 你 幸 福
你 就 當 作 我 送 給 你 的 禮 物 吧

但 請 你 記 得
不要在某一個不小心遇見我的時候
責 怪 我 送 了 一 件 破 禮 物 給 你

這 可 是 你 從 我 手 中 搶 走 的

-转帖自面子书-

this post remind me of one song.
:) 

Sushi Zanmai

Weekend 201012-211012

201012
it was Saturday!
well.. after came to kl internship, only i realize Saturday is how important for workers!
T.T
i want to appreciate Saturday and spend my day meaningful,
so if you ask me how i gonna spend my day,
i will answer you : Not to stay at home, i wanna hang out!
><
This Sat i went to 1 utama movie with my fren.
did not plan shopping one, did plan buy aything too
i was plan to get a pair of earing for my cousin,
but then end up i get all these and didn get earing because sold out d. =___=

still got another shirt one.. but i wash it ady XD

All from F21 and the right-sided bracelet is from cotton on. :)

so happy!

(i was too bored while waiting my fren come to pick me) XD

unexpected schedule. lol

guess where am i?

my short pant become skirt d.. bcoz i was too freaking cool.  -- 

211012

Went to BBQ plaza to have lunch!

and yeah! i get this! 

limited edition one.XD

after paid the bill, then the waiter gave me these :))

we were so lucky~ haha

091012

为什么每次就是要我问才对我坦白呢？
你可不可以主动告诉我呢？
不要等我问，不要等我开口可以吗？
每次要我问，要我好像个忌妇来问你，
我不想每次当坏人，
不想每次让我自己觉得自己像个忌妇。
我累了，
每次都是因为这些事吵，
我说了很多次，
也教过你应该怎么做，
可是我给你一次又一次的机会，
你还是犯同样的错误。

你知道当我问你才告诉我的时候，
就算知道答案，那一切已经太迟了，
我要的是你可以before take action 的时候就问我，告诉我，
不是等我开口问你，chok你，你才说。

不如你教我我该怎么做？

微笑

终于重拾回我的笑容，
:D
心情好多了。
明天加油



虽然小鸟暂时失去了自由，
他还有一堆关心他的朋友，
很快的就可以和朋友们见面了。

021012

想哭却不能哭的那种感受很难受，
很想大声地发泄出来，
可是不能。。。
只能静静的忍受。
每一分每一秒对我来说都很痛苦。
只想快点解决，来个痛快，
好过在那胡思乱想，乱猜。。。

无形的距离令我痛苦

又有谁可以了解我呢？
又有谁我可以说话的呢？
我不开心，你懂吗？
你说距离问题，可是当我们在同一个地方的时候，我发觉无形的距离把我们拉的越远。
我该如何是好？
觉得自己很没用，很无能，
什么都帮不到，
就连最基本的分担，你也不愿意让我来做。
我该怎办？
我好想好想和你谈谈，
可是很多阻碍，
迫使我只能把话收在心里，往肚里吞。

在同一天内，
我写了十多页的日记，全部都是我的心情写录，
没有人可以说话，
当想找人说时，可是不知从何说起，
还是决定算了，
只能把话写在日记，
永永远远收起来。

第一天开工，
闷，而且stress
要读很多关于product的东西。
好像又回到了中学，可中学的单纯得多，
社会大学真的不容易读。

haha we were in Sinchew newspaper!

XD
when my fren inbox me the link,
when i opened it,
i cant stop laughing...
haha..
so happy and excited...
i know just newspaper only...
but also quite excited nia..
i so regret last time did not keep the Walt With Love 2011 from The Star..
just now i called my mom asked her keep it for me!
XD

很乱。

Today after BusinessEthics class,
i joined lunch with sw and carmen..
we talked like a 38 poh in the restaurant. lol
many funny things and lame things. haha..
it seems like i many days also din join sw dinner or lunch or meet her in class.
anywhere have a nice lunch hour with them :)

哈哈，是时候用下华语写部落格。
朋友们都说我变得很粗鲁了，应该要文雅一点。
可是我觉得跟老朋友或很熟的朋友不需要太过文雅，
有时粗鲁一点感觉比较亲切一点。
你说对不对？
还有我之前在面子书看到的一句经典：“讲粗口的人不会跟你耍心机！”
哈哈
极度like！lol
不过我也知道在什么人面前要说什么样的话，
参什么人就应该要有什么的态度，
出来社会就要懂得随机应变，入乡随俗。
好好好...我会谨记。

gosh....我的部落格的文字真的很不文雅，很乱
:lll
给我一点时间慢慢调回来。
最近的我很压力，
很需要做些疯狂的事情来发泄自己的心情。
写部落格，真的满不错一下。
本来不打算写的，要等我忙完我手头上的事情才写，
可是有几个朋友都问我为什么那么久没有update blog了。
ahah ( i know lar... you guys want to read more about me right? heheheheh.. )XD
所以我就打算写回，
原来把头脑烦的事情写下来，
心情，头脑都会清晰一点，好过一点。


还有还有，
我要加强我说英文的流利，我要练习修改我那些不文雅的华语。
是不是应该要train自己在这里写一次英文，再写一次华语？
=x

Im back!! in blog!!

It seems like long long long long long time didn't update my blog d!
Yea.. i know I'm bullshitting..not seems like.. it is a facts. = =
actually i have many many things want to update!
my sem break trips, photos..
=(( but but but!
I'm so busy busy with my assignments, fyp and alot alot unlimited works.. (i feel guilty if upload those photos, bcoz it takes time for me to load.. and my line so slow! FML)]
one work haven't settle then the next work come ady..
everyday just sleep 3 to 4 hours..
i also don't know why my work will so inefficient...
maybe is because i lost my passion...
totally don't have any passion in this semester..
where is my passion???
Passion babe can you come back to me?!

well.. bullshit finished d...
today was music festival sub event --- MPO
well, you guys will ask me : what is MPO?
MPO is Malaysia Philharmonic Orchestra.
last semester they also had came to UTAR,
today one was a very very mini concert..
only 5 performers. unlike last time there were big group of performers!
but still the flow very smooth and the hall almost FULL!
XD
the most happy moment of this week was because can work out with those committees!
i really like event!
i so regret why during my foundation and degree year 1 the time i did not join any event.
although coming weeks will be super freaking busy, but wouldn't have stress like facing those academics stuffs.
why? because I'm very enjoy in doing those activities which is not related to study!
yeah.. i'm crazy!
but still have to back to reality..
 - -
continue my assignments is better...
:((

here are the pics of today..
ops.. loading too slow..
photos next time sin lar.. ><

What am i doing all the days?

T.T i studied nothing today. 
I went to kfc thought wanna study 
but the environment too noisy 
then i just keep on listened to music only. 
Around 4pm i back home then my room hot like hell ar.. 
then i listened to songs again..
then time passing very fast!
7.30pm d, dinner time.
after dinner then too full + hot, i played again. 
so many excuses to myself!
=___= 
when i read the notes not more than 10min i will feel sleepy and fishing again!
gosh..
can someone please cure me this bad habit? =(


well..
update some happy moment sin..
hahaha
just now went to dinner with edison and lin.
tunedison showed us few apps which are so adorable and fun!
haha
This is the 1st one.. 
this apps is Buddycon which will move around your wall and you can make it jump over or play games by clicking on her. hahaha.. they very cute one.. i can't stop laughing when i saw this! 

This is the second one, Simsimi which is allow you to chat with the robot. 

lol

you type anything to it, it will reply you. 

hahaa.. 

if nobody chat with you or you feel bored can try chat with this. although is lame but the answers sometimes very funny one. 

Friend 1  type : Fuck you!

It : Oh no, you should say like this!

Friend 2 : Fuck you!

It: now! now! 

LOL

There are so many cute and fun apps ar..

make me so hope to get 1 smart phone too!

haha.

btw. save money sin. 

ok.. is time to study d!

Steamboat supper

haha.. actually never plan before wanna steamboat.
we had a fast, efficient steamboat supper just now.
why we suddenly wanna steamboat?
because our neighbor ah yang them were steamboat-ing. lol
then we study until so bored and very hot, no mood to study.
then lin said : 我也很想steamboat。
then we said 不如我们也steamboat 咯。 lol
10.20pm d.
luckily Tesco 11pm only close.
then me, xy, lin, bobo and sw went to Tesco bought ingredients.
hahahaha

we finished our steamboat at 12 smothing.
such efficient and satisfied steamboat we had.
XD

Yer.. Geli ar...

After dinner so full, so i went to vicky's room chat with them

then vicky suddenly asked me : mei sin, why your neck seem so thin jor de? omg, too thin! before got de ma? 

Bobo: let me see... walao.. really ler.. so geli! omg.. so thin!

Me: got ma? you gals sit like this also will have okay.

So, bobo and vicky also try sit the way i sit.

but their 锁骨 not so obvious like me. 

Me:  take the mirror show me. 

(mirror)

Me : (SCREAM~~~~) grrrrrrrrrr.........omgggggg... sooo thin! so GELI!

lol

sweat!

该瘦的地方不瘦！

手臂的肉就越来越多，

锁骨的肉越来越少!

can u see ? LOL

Gosh... so geli! i don want my neck there getting more thin and thin.. can see the bone so obvious.

like whole neck gonna 收缩. (choi choi choi!!!) = =

and from today onwards, i cannt sit like this way anymore.= =

一个人也不错

最近我都习惯了一个人上课、一个人搭巴士、一个人去图书馆、一个人走在学校的走廊
每次遇到朋友，他门都会问我一句：为什么你一个人的？
或者有些会问筱薇呢？
哈哈，大家都会有一个concept，看到我等于看到筱薇，看到筱薇就是看到我。lol

其实一个人有很奇怪吗？
有时我很享受一个人的，
尤其当我偶然遇到朋友的时候会特别开心。
当我要吃午餐的时候，就发个信息看谁在学校，突然来个一起吃午餐联络感情也很开心的。
哈哈
没有人的话，就吃自己或者不吃。 = =
其实一个人也没有不好啊。
是时候要独立一下。
下个学期希望我的决定是对的。
:)

Tiger Asian Music Festival 14.04.2012

Me and Lin two people went to KL find yuenteng!

haha

we went to this Asian concert.

actually we didn't expect much from this concert since is free and around 20k people, we thought we cannot see anything from the stage.

So go to this concert is not the main reason.

haha

the main reason is to meet yt!

Im so happy, Lin so happy and YT and her bf - Tian kai also very happy!

and i know when we back kampar the time, yt was so 不舍得 us..>< (To yt: : am i right? )

btw, 

next sem my timetable more flexible d, only 3 day class, and only taking 4 subs, so will go visit you again de ar. dont worry. This time is because final coming soon, so cannt play too many days ><

well..

when we reach KL, me and lin take ktm to subang jaya with peak xuan them to meet ah seng.

Then we take bus to sunway from subang jaya. 

Yt and her bf come meet us in BBQ Plaza.

haha.

we ate alot! FULL AND SATISFIED!

After that we shop around there, 

around 5 somthing we walked to Sunway Lagoon.

Walao...

damn crowded there!

some more raining(small rain)

then we all line up and enter sunway lagoon.

And we decided during Pulau Ketam trip we must go sunway lagoon play!

XD

The DJ very yeng one. haha but cant see his face at here. :X

At 1st, we were standing in the middle front near the stage too. 

but too crowded d = =

all of us also feel exhausted somemore got ppl smoking there.

gosh..

hot like hell

we cannt tahan anymore, then lin say go to behind there watch better

so we walk to behind the DJ stage there.

wow!

Guess what?

The screen was big and important was there were no ppl block the screen!

YEAH!

we decided to stand there see.

then more people coming too, they sit down to watch, 

so we also sit down la.

the screen just in front of me! haha

i was keep on calling my cousin asked them to join us, however,

Digi don't have line there since too crowded. sweat.

The 3 emcee! 

he so man right?haha

btw, we were enjoyed! 

Beyond so man huh!! one of them take out his shirt! haha 

A Lin so pretty  and her song so nice,

 萧敬腾 so handsome and funny. haha.

4 of them also bring 40k people to climax!

sit down to watch better than standing inside the gate there = =

and because of the rain, i made two new friends there. lol

Glad to be friends with them :)

After see 萧敬腾 we decided to leave d, 

bcoz very tired and scare traffic jam later,

we went to the famous mamak, SS2 Murni mamak.

lol

the mamak so big and crowded!

and their food not bad!

the chicken very nice!

After supper, we back yt home.

Night we chit chat awhile then sleep d since 3am d and very tired.

one thing feel 可惜 is we didn't pillow talk dao!

ishh

but nvm, 

will have chance next time! right?

:)