I’m working on resetting my thinking, specifically my internal dialogue. To do that, I’m going to work on daily affirmations. It is hard to counter almost 60 years of critical thinking and self-doubt. (Thanks, perfectionism.)
What motivated me? It was the idea that I could change the way I teach in a way that would empower students . . . in a way that would acknowledge their authentic voices.
The main struggle is with me–giving in to procrastination, balancing teaching to studenting, and wrestling with self-doubt and imposter syndrome. Yup. Those are the main things. With the clock ticking, I’ve made some changes.
Scheduled time to write every day–appointment with success
Given myself permission to focus on my stuff and reframing this as necessary to being the best educator I can be
Scheduled my first counseling appointment to begin speaking a different truth in my head, a positive one
“If I read a book and it makes my whole body so cold no fire can warm me, I know that is poetry. If I feel physically as if the top of my head were taken off, I know that is poetry. These are the only ways I know it. Is there any other way?”
― Emily Dickinson, Selected Letters
Shiteki Na Usagi 