Just wanted to share a few things I’ve jotted down along the way from various places:
I’ve reached the age where my brain has switched from “I probably shouldn’t do that”
… to…
“What the hell, let’s see what happens!”
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At my age “getting lucky” means walking into a room and remembering why I’m there!
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People talk about me behind my back… and I just sit here like “Damn, I got myself a fan club!”
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In order to insult me, I must first value your opinion. Nice try though!
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I’m always disappointed when a liar’s pants don’t actually catch on fire!
Have a great weekend everybody!!
Well, it’s been a while hasn’t it. I must say that I’ve missed you all!
So much has happened since I last posted anything. In addition to the MS, I now have COPD, Stage 3 Kidney Disease and Sleep Apnea (study showed I quit breathing 8 times a minute). I thought that with the MS in remission that I was doing great but the damage continues anyway. Of course, the COPD is my own fault from all my years of smoking.
I still haven’t fully recovered from Mark’s death either. I wonder how long it will take before I can think of him without it hurting 😦
Sebastian is 8 now, going to be 9 in September, can you believe it. He’s growing up way to fast. I’d love to be able to say everything has been going great but I can’t. In the last three years he has been diagnosed with the following.
2. Insulin dependent Type 1 Diabetes (That was a rough one! They had to lifeline him to Riley Children’s Hospital in Indianapolis. We came very close to loosing him. Scared me half to death.)
3. ODD – Oppositional Defiance Disorder
4. DMDD – Disruptive Mood Disregulation Disorder
We have also been attempting to get him tested and diagnosed for Autism but because of his defiance issues that has been unsuccessful thus far. The Psychiatrist in Indy said to bring him back once we got him counseling for his DMDD.
And there is my soapbox issue of late: The severe lack of metal health professionals. I know this is a nationwide problem and not just in our little neck of the woods but there is no one locally available to work with him on his issues. They tell me that they’ve been trying for quite a while to find somebody who can treat patients in his age group.
I worry that the longer it takes to get him help, the more deep rooted his problems will become and by the time he does get help available to him it will be too hard for him to handle and he’ll not even try!
God help us! We need a miracle at this point.
Sara has had 2 more children that she gave up for adoption. One is in the Netherlands and the other is in Colorado. They both went to extremely good, well to do families. I’m thankful that she didn’t have abortions. She has enough mental health problems without the guilt I know an abortion would have caused her.
She finally left that jerk she was with and is now living with us again.
Peace, love and blessings,
Teresa
He said “I love you”
And I felt it in my soul
“I’ll take care of you,
For that is a husband’s role”
“If you’ll marry me,
I promise not to leave you,
And as you will see
To never, ever hurt you”
“I do believe you”
Yet the words were hard to say
“I’m in love with you”
But my head screamed “Run away!”
My heart he did steal
And he heard me say “I do”
Then prayed it was real
But my soul already knew
Vowing “I love you”
To the man I respected
Meant “forever” too
A silent fear deflected
I stayed ever true
Though with time felt rejected
‘Cause when God took you
It’s not what I expected
Grief moved in to stay
The moment that I lost you
When there is no way
To love this life without you
For my husband, Mark (Aug., 1961 to Jan.,2019)
Teresa Marie 7/4/20
What about God? 