Broken Promise

I don’t get the point.
There’s a promise between you and me.
You oath to fulfill your promise.
Then I asked you,
‘Where?’
You looked shocked
You deny everything
T’was when I realized that the wind blew your memories
Then I asked you,
‘How come you never remembered?’
You looked at me,
Disbelief is clear in your eyes
I could even see my soul piercing
Then you looked down
T’was then I turned my back on you
I waited for the words but they never came to stop me.
Now, ‘How could you do that to me?’

The Unknown Creatures

And she said to him:

“I’ve been alone for a very longtime. Loneliness is a usual thing for me. I’m fine being independent. ‘Cause for me I have the love from my family and friends. I’ve been used to it.”

“But why? Why do I feel so empty? Why does it feel so sad? Why does it feels like I’m longing for someone, someone’s love and care.”

Then she looked at the sunset slowly fading from the darkness that started to took over.

And she spoke:

“Because truth is, it isn’t enough. No matter how you try to feel that you’re happy with the love given by those people who surrounded you, no matter how you get use to it, it wasn’t enough. Deep inside of me there is a hole of longing for something, for someone to put back what was once a ‘whole’ part of me.”

He was speechless.

Dreaming of You

I dream about you again
But this time, it’s a different scenery
I saw you having your own little family
I saw how you carry your child while your wife walks besides you.
And here I am looking at your perfect family from afar.

Even in my dreams you still inflict pain to me
I was crying and begging for myself to remove you out from my life
Why do I have to keep dreaming about you?
Why does it hurts even if it was just a dream?
Why does it emotionally tears me inside knowing you’re happy with someone else?
Why self? Why can’t I let you go? Why can’t I moved on?

An Open Letter For Myself

I know you are broken and sad
shattered multiple times from everyone’s eyes
Too much pressure is clouding you
from loads of doubts you put on yourself
and anxieties that keeps your restless nights
I’m sorry for letting you down.

You had been through so much
Fighting your own silent battles
You had been thrown and mocked
But you keep your own ground
Standing still to keep you going
I’m sorry for hurting you so much.

I know there were times, you wished to end it all
The fear of disappointment and failures haunts you
reason as to why you keep your head down
Your self-esteem had been taken away
The once cheerful you had become gloomily.
I’m sorry if you feel neglected and unloved.

I’m sorry if you suffered too much from my pain.
I’m sorry if I haven’t taken care of you
Sorry for the tiring days when you can’t rest
I’m sorry if you had to endure all the humiliation from everyone
and their bitter judgment of you
Lastly, I’m sorry if I can’t make you genuinely happy again.

I want to be HOME

I miss home
Mom’s delicious meal
Dad’s stories and laughter
My sisters annoying face
My nephew’s little hugs and kisses.

I miss the feeling of being at home
The less worries to think of
away from the world of stress
The relaxing air to breathe
that gives one’s inner peace.

I miss the warmness of home
the tightness it provides to console me,
the incomparable scenery it shows,
green trees, fresh air and blue seas
opposite from the crowded places in the cities.

I miss home everyday
The little kid playing in the seashore
jumping and running to gather seashells,
the innocent smile she always makes
waving in my own reflection.

I want to be home.

What if

Have you ever think of turning back the time?
Where you wished you made the right decision?
The ‘what if’ that keeps on running in your mind,

What if I didn’t reach out?
What if I just let things go as it is?
What if I just stayed at home?

But that would be too selfish for me, right?
To not think about others welfare
If I decided to stay quiet and just go.
I often hated myself for this,
for being to good and kind to everyone.
In the end I’m always the one who suffers the most.

It is okay

Hey, it’s okay.


I know that you needed me
I hear you, always
Do not worry for I am watching you
It is okay, it will be alright
You will always be fine even without me
You’re strong, you can get through this
It is okay, you can now let me go
It’s alright to set me free
Do not drown yourself with my existence
You will continuously live
Set yourself free from the ghost of our past
It is not your fault, things always happen for a reason
That reason will always teach as a lesson
Now let go, let me be with the ocean
Release me out from your system
I will always be here, sailing with the sea
And when the time is right
When you’re ready to go in a voyage with me,
We will then meet again and will explore the ocean,
Then our spirits will live together sailing towards the horizon.

Hey, it is okay. ❤️