Here we are nine days after surgery, which let me tell you, kicked my butt a lot more than I anticipated. It wasn’t horrible, I mean walking like an 80 year old woman, that’s just preparation for the future, but the gas pains settling in my chest making it impossible to eat or drink or stay hydrated? Yeah, those were not fun. I’m still fighting with them, although I can tell we are almost through. The actual surgery part went well, they did have to remove a cyst on my ovary and they found some mild endometriosis, but he said it was minor and that it wouldn’t be a problem moving forward.
*warning, rant ahead…..
So, fast forward a week, and I’m sitting in the doctors office for my post op appointment, he comes in looks at my incision, says any problems, doing okay? and I say yes, because I was answering the last question, and then he hightails it out of there and I’m like what just happened? We go into his office and he tells me everything about the surgery and the findings (which he’d went over with my husband and my mom the day of) and then tells me we’re clear to start on my next cycle day, and asks me if I want to watch the administration video. I say yes, I still had a good 40 minutes til I had to be at work, so an hour later after watching this ridiculous video three times (because why would I need to watch the right one, just once…this is just my luck) one of his staff comes in and shows me the cartridge pen and explains everything the video said…redundant…but I get it’s protocol whatev. Then she says, well I ordered the medication for you, so they should be calling you, and I’m done.
So, the pharmacy calls and gets my information and of course they call at 4:30pm (30 minutes after the RE office closes) even though the order was sent at 8 something that morning. And then he says well, they have you down for timed intercourse, and I’m like, that’s not what we want to do. We want to do an IUI because it makes more logical sense for our situation. So he says that he’ll call the doctor’s office, I tell him I will too, and then we hang up.*Honestly, he was the best person to handle the situation, he was super helpful, and he continues to be still* SO, I call the RE office, and of course leave a message because I know they’re closed. Simply stating that I spoke with the pharmacy, I want to proceed with the IUI not timed intercourse and that they’ll need to change it with the pharmacy. To call back with any questions. So they do, the next morning, which I know they would. And she says in Dr.’s notes he says that we’re going to do times intercourse first, I say that was our initial meeting, he was giving us in the information, that was TWELVE weeks ago. we didn’t discuss it at all yesterday when I was there. And she HAS THE NERVE to say yes we did, I said timed intercourse when I was showing you the pen. and I wanted to scream at her and say YOU ORDERED THE MEDICATION BEFORE YOU EVEN ENTERED THE ROOM, HOW IS THAT DISCUSSING IT? But, I didn’t. And se says well if I would have known that I would have ordered your meds somewhere else. And I’m like well if it’s cheaper to do that, then do that, and she says no, It’s fine. I was so LIVID after that phone call, I really like the Dr. Even though he’s a little intimidating, or maybe it’s the situation, but I REALLY don’t like his staff. They don’t have their shit together, and if there was another option close to me, I might reconsider. But, Dr. has a 99% success rate, so he must be doing something right. But he might want to think about a new staff.
But my main man A* at the pharmacy is a miracle worker, he’s already got my meds down $300 and he set me up with an assistance program, which I’m waiting to hear back from, I’m hoping and praying that we get approved for at least some assistance because it would really help, since the whole IUI is completely out of pocket for us.
So, we are back to the waiting game, which I think this whole process, and even pregnancy is all about waiting….Hopefully, aunt flow comes right on time, or even a few days early (as long as I have my meds) and we get to get started, because if we miss this cycle, we have to wait until the end of June. Or if we fail this cycle, same thing. MY husband’s schedule, is hectic, and I’m hoping and praying that this all works out. And I know in his hands, it will.
BUT, Normal life happenings, we broke down and traded in my husband’s truck for a newer truck a 2010 Ford F150, which is still a ridiculous buy. Trucks are NOT cheap, but so far we are in love with it! Yesterday was a total girls day since our husbands are away, I went and got 10.5 inches cut off that I’m planning to donate to locks of love, and then we went and got pedicures, and seen the longest ride which was a total tearjerker but also very good! Work has been good, and I think I’m finally becoming an ally instead of the outsider, which I’m honestly not sure is a good thing..but if it makes work easier, I will continue to be me, and just be hopeful they’re finally seeing me for the person I am and not their perception of me.
Xo, B
this struggle is part of my story 